Dark Side

(From yesterday)

I asked, “What is the meaning of the gorilla?” I dreamt that I went to my mom’s (?) workplace to visit and spend the night. There were two men, an in-house / onsite doctor, and a guy who was responsible for the legal stuff, who had the dark look to them, but I don’t think they were / did’t get that impression.

After I laid down to sleep, one of them (?) came in and gave me a soft kiss near the top left of my lips, then walked out. I was wanting to open my eyes so that I could see who it was, but they stuck together.

The next day, I saw them going about their business, not paying attention to me. The legal guy was helping someone, wearing what looked like UGG boots that went up to his mid shin / calf.

I asked a woman if the doctor ever goes to the room that I slept in. She said that he goes there almost every day.

(From Sept 14, 2017) Travis

I dreamt something about Travis.

(From Sept 7, 2017 Raise the Roof)

I dreamt that all the past landscapes that / where I’ve been/ walked were all fake, and that when I leave the house, all the landscapes / places that I’ve dreamed of will be outside, knowing where they are all / knowing how to get there on a map.

I dreamt (same dream?) of a bunch of 4’s, and that I would understand all those dreams. When I went outside, I looked at the front of the house, and saw that it did look like it was from 1942 (someone had made a comment earlier?). At first, the house had a vintage look to it.

It was long from left to right, and kind of resembled the houses back East, with the two chimneys, but it was only one – story. I asked about being able to raise the roof, and I was told that it would cost extra ($5 – 8k?). I was disappointed a bit, and the house started to flatten out.

(Misc) Life’s Mission

I dreamt that a guy was coming at me with a knife. I wasn’t scared. I figured that if it was to be, it would happen. I said to him (?) that I needed to do something first, as if it was my life’s mission to do this before I die.

I dreamt of 4 grown children, who were mine, sitting at the end / edge of a dock / pier. From left to right was a male built like a footballer, a slim female, a slim male with hair growth like Prince William, and then a thin female who looked like me. The first three had darker skin.

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First Distraction

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was listening to one of Briana’s CD’s. She showed up but didn’t say anything. She wanted me to bring her yellow VW bug, that was out in the open, close to the house in the enclosure / behind the gates / fence.

I dreamt that there was a guy, and his friend / assistant were doing an experiment on a new couple. The couple were sitting at a table and the guy noticed a girl walking past. The first two guys excitedly proclaimed, “First Distraction.”

 (From Feb 1, 2018 Go Home)

I dreamt I was on a ride (?) that resembled an amusement park roller coaster. It was about to go down a steep portion and turn right. I was telling whoever was sitting to the right of me that it was just like another dream I had. 

I dreamt that I was inside a building, not sure what kind, and a lady was telling me that I can go home now if I wanted to because I had been there since Monday. I believe this was on a Saturday.

I was thinking it over, not sure I should go yet because of the people who had recently come around. I finally decided that I wanted to cook something before I go. 

I dreamt that a neighbor (to the building I was in?) were away, and wanted to sell their house. There was oil stain(s) on their driveway, and I think that was their motive. I believe they had a German accent. I didn’t see, or hear, them, but knew. Maybe I had seen and heard them before.

(From Jan 31, 2018 Swollen)

I dreamt that my body was swollen and I had bumps all over, and I was looking down at my chest.

I dreamt that I was working with the people from the Maine Cabin Masters tv show. 

I dreamt that I was naked.

(From Jan 29, 2018 Stressing Myself)

I dreamt that Utah had waterways, like the Netherlands, and the animals had to be careful around them. I was either traveling on one of these, or on a road (maybe on a motorcycle?), somewhat in a hurry, to get to where I came from, because there were people behind me, and I was stressing myself over about it.

(From Jan 28, 2018 NYSE)

I dreamt that I was part of a company that had my name, a guy with the name Slater, and I think there was another.

I dreamt something about the NYSE.

Pregnancy

I asked, “How do I find a way out?” I dreamt that I was in the beginning (within 4 months) of being pregnant and some liquids / fluids were coming / leaking out of me, which was normal (for pregnant women), and a little bit of green diarrhea. I was grossed out by it and was (almost) crying. 

I dreamt that I was pregnant (same duration) in Bible times (area, Rome? felt like it) at night, but I was wearing modern clothes. 

There was a diagonal opening, between two walls (?), to the left (like on the freeway). The one on the left had some glowy turquoise (?) color at the end, as if it had been dipped. The color was the color identity of the people on that side. 

I started to leave, and got about a football field length away. The people were frantically searching for “the” baby. I decided to go back.

I showed, what looked like a hospital bracelet that I had on my left wrist, to one of the searchers. I either mentioned, or it was written on the bracelet, that this baby had traveled / will have traveled the most miles. This was significant as it put the baby on the same level of importance as Christ.

I dreamt that I was outside at night at someone’s house (?) looking up at the sky and it looked like a bunch of orbs covering the sky. The wife, who was inside, had a name for it but don’t remember. Orb was in the name.

I dreamt that I was in a bed next to the right of another two person bed. I don’t know if it was big enough to be a queen. A young Steve was lying on the left side of that bed. 

I was looking at a gif of a forest / nature scene that had a black oval / thumbprint shape, tilted / leaning a bit to the left, show up in the front middle of the scene. It was there for several seconds then left.

Mom, and Steve (as he is now) came in. Mom was wearing a (black?) robe, covering herself, not wearing garments. I was thinking of asking Steve for a blessing, and that way the family w /could find out about the pregnancy. They left with me forgetting to ask.

The young Steve then moved over to my side of that bed and I was pushing him back over.

I dreamt of bike riding (the last of it) with a black guy and we decided to sit and rest / take a break where some people were. 

I then was holding only the frame of my bike, to set it down. After doing so, and turning back around to sit, I noticed that the guy was sitting in front of me. 

I started to get up to move forward to be next to him, on his left. He then raised up some money, with his right hand, telling me to get a drink. I asked him if he wanted anything and he skittishly said no.

I dreamt that I was in water (mid calf?) with a bunch of frogs. I didn’t want to touch them, and didn’t want them to touch me. I wanted out of there.

I dreamt that I was in an inexpensive store, with a couple other people. As we were leaving, or going to another section, to the left, I noticed several suitcases piled on their side on the floor. I thought that they looked like temple bags / cases.

I dreamt that I was in a store (same?) that had car rides (like the train rides) for the children while the parents were shopping. I may have been pregnant again. I was sitting in line, up front, with the other children. 

There were some already seated, waiting for the ride to begin. They didn’t seem bothered by the wait. While waiting, I saw (in mind?) a real vehicle driving, and seeing the bumps / vibrations from it moving (like in a movie / show).

Up ahead, to the right, was a doorway / opening to go to a different section. I saw lights beaming in to the store on the other side. It was from parents coming to pick up their child / children. I then wondered if that was so, or if someone / thing was going to walk in where I was, with the lights. No one / thing did.

A lady then showed up, walking from behind me on my left, to the aisle in front of me where the children were waiting, walking to the left, to pick up her daughter (didn’t see), saying that it was the second day of freedom everlasting. I assumed that she meant from her husband and that they would always have money so that she didn’t have to work.

I dreamt of seeing a girl in a shopping cart (same store?) looking back to the space behind the cart, and talking. She was in front of me to my right. I wanted to ask her who she was talking to but didn’t know if I should.

She then saw me looking at her and froze for a couple seconds then started back up again. I figured that whoever she was talking with told her that I’m ok and won’t think that she’s crazy.

Blood 

I asked, “What do I need to do to leave Ali’s house?” I dreamt something about blood.

I dreamt that I was in mom and dad’s bathroom, with another female (girl? woman?). I don’t remember why.

I was standing with my left leg up on the tub (?) and pulled out a full bloody tampon. Some fell on the tiles / grout and a couple drops looked like gel but not as dark. It was like the one used for cakes.

I was concerned about the grout but this female knew how to clean it up and started looking through a top drawer to find what she needed.

(From May 19, 2018 Mother)

I asked, “Who am I?” I was thinking, and feeling, that I’m a mother.

(From May 18, 2018 Book of Scripture)

I dreamt that I was driving the big truck that I want. Dark blue. I was at a corner at a stop light to turn right and I had to make sure that the brakes were working so that I didn’t come out in front of the oncoming traffic.

Amy (and Micalanne?) were waiting for me at an empty lot that was there at the corner. I drove in and stopped the truck.

I dreamt that Kyle was alive again and married to another girl. I had a distaste for him. I don’t know why.

I had a bed in the living room (?). A sofa bed? We may have been living at Amy’s.

(Don’t remember exact order of these next ones.) I was in my bed on Sunday morning, with eyes closed, when I heard this girl walking around and quietly say, “Book of Scripture” and another book that I don’t remember the title but may have been written by one of the church leaders, or / a prophet.

Amy was looking for these books and I made mention to her what I had heard. Either I, or Amy, then said that this girl has things to talk to / with the Bishop.

I was in Kyle and this girls bed. I was on his right. He asked her what she wanted for breakfast and she mentioned a certain type of taco. After he left, still in bed, she had his pills in a cup for him. I asked / said that he still takes his pills. She asked / said something about us not being together anymore. I replied that he had died.

Earlier in the dream she was talking about some people she had had sex with. One of them was her second cousin. She now was coming on to me. Telling me that she wanted me to suck her labia, but she used a different word, so I asked her to repeat it but she said never mind / don’t worry about it.

I was thinking that this would be my chance to see what it was like to be with another female, but I wondered if she was clean. I figured that we could do it the next day, Monday, when Amy was at work.

The Bishop and his wife came over for a visit. This girl asked who they were and then she disappeared.

Mom came back from a Dr appointment. She was standing tall and straight with her long hair. She had her weight spread out on her hips / waist. She was wearing a tank top with her shirt and garment top in her hand (s), as if she didn’t have time to change.

Her right temple of her glasses was broken off of her glasses with her still wearing it. I asked her what happened. I don’t remember.

Either Amy, or mom, brought in the mail. She didn’t have too much in her hands but she did have some for me. When she gave it to me, on the floor, there were tons of pictures in the envelopes that they come in after being developed.

The pictures of life with Kyle and I was so happy that I almost wanted to cry. One of the pictures was of our (dream) house that was two stories and at the corner entrance of the street.

The right side of the house was parallel with the main street (when inside looking front). Seems that the house may have been a subdued yellow. On the sidewalk between side of house and street had several big horses facing me. The front one seems to have been black.

The picture wasn’t totally clear. I had a couple muted broken black and white lines going horizontally across with muted black and white snow (?) covering the whole picture. These were not obscuring the picture but were enough to be seen.

The horses all of a sudden came to life galloping toward me and did this a couple times as if it were a gif. The horses then stopped, and when they did, the horses were sideways with some facing the street and some facing the house with heads down as if feeding.

I dreamt that I was talking to Ali, naming the streets where he lived in the beginning of living here in the states. He had love back then.

I then named a street that I assume was the one when he was at the University of Utah. It was ____ Ranch Rd. I said that he had a child there. I think I may have mentioned the next street. I asked him where the love went / what happened.

I dreamt seeing a (circular?) pergola with those tiny outdoor lights and a bunch of pinecones. I wanted to take a picture but decided not to.

Recording

I asked, “Why does the entity keep entering me?” I dreamt of being in a classroom after the class, in church. I think I was in England because all, or mostly all, had the accent. 

There were quite a few pregnant women, and a young tall one with long blonde hair, just above the hips, who looked like she was still a teenager.

There was a tall woman who I recognized (from the streets?) who had two boys (teens?). She was standing by the door, facing right, talking to another woman. She had cut her short brunette hair so that the back and sides were close to the head.

I dreamt something about listening to (somewhat) loud music on a Sunday, and thinking how I get after others (in my head) for doing so. 

Ali was there, another female, and others (?). I was listening to the Thompson Twins on a record. Ali was saying something about the quality / thinking it was bad / poor, and suggesting ways to make it better. We told him that it wasn’t a recording / wasn’t recorded.

I dreamt that I was in France, staying with a woman. I asked her when I was going back home. She said that I was going back (on) May 28. I repeated that several times, asking her, to make sure I heard correctly because I had thought that I was only going to be there for two weeks.

(From June 13, 2018 Staying Away)

I dreamt that I was in a glass booth / room / office with a robot who was playing music. There were other people there, outside of the booth. He may have been playing for them, or not. 

I was asking him what he wanted. He wasn’t answering so Michelle Obama and Joe Biden’s wife showed up, walking through a door on the outside on the other side on the left. They were humbly coming to ask forgiveness (?) of / from this robot.

A baby boy suddenly appeared on the robot’s left side, in a suit, and slid across a bench into a small seat where another baby was sitting. The baby looked like Bryce.

I started becoming emotional when I realized that the robot wanted me to have a child so this other baby could have a friend. 

In my head I then heard two knocks on my door and a man telling me, “We’ll guide / glide you into it.” 

I dreamt that Ali suggested going to Utah, and I said, “No. I’m staying away from that state because of her.” 

 I dreamt that the Utah girl’s breasts were smaller than mine.

End Of Cycle

I asked, “What is the meaning of Wet the Bear?” ( different wording) I don’t remember the beginning, but it was in the 1800’s (?). Two young skinny guys took some chickens and took them to another person’s house, to frame (the) two cooks of stealing.

Their punishment was hanging. They were hung inside the well, that was underground, inside the kitchen, facing different directions. As the “crank” was turned, it broke their necks. These boys got / had blood on their hands. I was thinking, “Wait until the girl (who these cooks worked for) finds out.

A female who preached Christianity nationwide and was well known, was somehow involved.

I dreamt that I hadn’t seen the cats all day. I noticed that the floor was flooding, coming from the back and going toward a hallway on the left (when looking at the back).

I went to the sliding glass doors and noticed that there was grass right up to the house, and on the right, was all flooded. The sprinklers were at the end of their cycle and turned off when I looked outside.

I had opened the door and it was cold outside. The cats came over and I was keeping them from going out. 

A young (poor?) boy, without a shirt, somehow opened the left of the door and walked in.

(From June 24, 2018 Caretaker)

I asked why I’m living at Ali’s house. I dreamt of a limo floating past me, left to right, in water. I took a picture. It came out well, enough to post publicly, possibly in a gallery.

I dreamt of a girl driving a car, me as passenger, and she was going fast when she was trying to park, car going kinda skiwampy. The car ended up in the secluded entrance to a white house that was for sale. 

The back of the car backed up to the house, side touching right side. I was telling her to slow down and that I had to learn to slow down. The house had big windows vertically. I then was inside. I don’t remember all that happened.

There was a young family living there until the house sold, acting as caretakers. There was a huge mirror backed up to the front windows on the right. Somewhere in the front on the floor I saw a sign. It was black numbers on white paper / board. 

When I saw it, I thought it said $810 mil, the price of the house, and wondered how / why this house would be that much. I then realized that it was $810k. I mentioned this to the lady (?). The numbers looked like how numbers were written centuries ago, as if they had ivy on them.

I was told to try again to start a family. I asked if this was real, or just words in my head. The words, “Fail not through me” then came up. I then said that it needs to come through Ali. 

A name came to me and then the meaning, which was “newness”. The name disappeared as fast as it came.

Go Back

I asked, “What is meant by the sex change?” I dreamt that I was in the cultural hall with other people. We were there for an event / program. I don’t remember all, but I ended up front (we were standing, at this point anyway) and was asked to give the closing prayer. I remember thanking Christ and the crucifixion.

There was something about me having a dirty stirring spoon (don’t remember if it had holes / slots) and in line to take it to the back with the other dishes to get cleaned. There was a dishwasher but had white clean dishes, I was told but when I looked, they looked a bit dirty / spotty.

An older man (Starbucks customer in his 50’s) was there. 

Somehow Kyle fit in. We were on a bed, lying on our right sides. I was thinking that it would be the same if we were on our left sides. He was behind me. I don’t remember if he was wearing anything. 

My purse was up on the stage, along with something else, that I went to grab. The stage was like it had been moved / folded back, like in stadiums / auditoriums, with a small ledge sticking out. There were other things surrounding my purse.

As I was walking out to the parking lot, I saw Briana walking with another girl, on her right, toward my direction and to the left. I was wondering why Briana would be here when she doesn’t believe anymore.

This other girl was saying how her brother had beat up their mother the day before and this girl wasn’t / didn’t smile about it.

I also saw Jan sitting on a couch, on my right, by the doors. It had been a while since I last saw her because her family was going to a different ward (Spanish?). I was thinking that I should tell her that I’ve let my hair grow / haven’t cut it (reluctantly). 

When I got outside it was night. I had my Toyota pickup parked next to the wall, by the left entrance (when looking out to the street), by the Hispanic neighbor. The neighbor was digging a hole next to the wall. I don’t remember why. The dirt was thrown over the wall on / by my truck. 

When I got in, I saw that I had a paper with a check (stub) that had a tear / slit in it and said, “Of course (it’s just my luck)”. I also realized that I had forgotten my purse. 

I decided to drive to the center / back of the church to get away from the dirt. There were about 3, or 4 cars entering, so I had to wait for them to pass. 

I dreamt that I was naked and other people were aware, especially a guy who was next to me.

I dreamt that Jon and Julie had divorced and several months later “Jules” and Liz (a friend?) committed suicide by moving a metal detector over their spines. I didn’t see, but was told. I repeatedly said this, 3 times, in a question form, because I was so shocked. I then started balling.

I dreamt of being in San Diego before people settled there. There was a road where the right side was up higher than the left. I didn’t see any heavy machinery but knew that it was being worked on. It went uphill.

I was in a car as a passenger with Barbie driving. I think someone else was there. On the left side of the road there was a heavy machine dumping sand / dirt on / along the road, like a cement truck, but up higher. 

Barbie bravely drove past it anyway, partly because that was the only way. I was surprised that she would do that. There weren’t any other vehicles on the road.

Daughter

I asked, “How many children does Ali have from that girl?” I dreamt something about trying to let the mother cat outside without letting her daughter.

I dreamt of a boy looking in a mirror, holding a uniform hat that he had bought. The top of the brim was dirty. A guy (husband? friend?), irritated a bit,  came to take it because of the dirt but relented and gave it back. 

As he walked past me (I was sitting against a wall with a hallway ahead of me on my right where the boy was), I said to him that he can’t take (what’s been paid for, implied). He went inside a room in front of my left. 

(From July 9, 2018 Wasn’t Expecting Her)

I asked if the Utah girl gave birth to a baby. I dreamt that I was laying down and I think I was about to get up to feed the cats. The female raccoon who has been coming around came up on my chest on my left side. 

She startled me because I wasn’t expecting her. She grabbed my hand in her mouth like the cats do. I was afraid that she was going to hurt me but she was gentle.

I dreamt that I was at an older teachers house with a medium sized group of people. He had something that we were to convince someone else to buy (?). I think I gave him a look of me wanting to try / give it a go. 

I saw a note from him saying that he had the best sex he had when he was 35 (?) as he’s having now in his 60’s. I was envious of him that he was having it and I kind of wanted to have it with him.

He was tall / thin mysterious type. There was something about food and he had / showed us / me some garlic / french bread in the bag. 

I dreamt that Ali and I were going to a place to eat up on / by University St. / Rd. We were passing different places showing the lotto number signs. There were three games on the bottom (top games are millions, bottom are thousands). 

The bottom left, top middle, bottom right were blacked out. Ali and I were panicking and anxious that someone else had won those. Finally we passed a place where the numbers were showing up / coming back. We were relieved that we still had a chance. 

We got to the place we were going to. I think it was a grocery store that had its own eatery as there were several (3?) ice refrigerated units (where they have ice for sale).There was a table next to / in front of the first (L – R) ice unit and another table next to / in front of that one.

I saw that Amy was at the table next to the ice, sitting next to the ice. I was standing in front of the kiosk (?) and was pointing out Amy to Ali. He couldn’t see her at first because there were people at her table and the one next to her. I said to him “table”. He waved, knowing that she wasn’t looking. 

He went behind the lady / girl behind the kiosk to order / talk to her. At first she didn’t turn around. She finally, perturbed, told him that he needed to come in front to talk to her. I gave her a look as if to say that he always does this. She wasn’t looking.

Amy finally came over, to my left. She told me that she was going to send me a message the day before but hadn’t gotten to it but now she was here. She told me that people / family members weren’t going to bring the leftover food from the funeral in Brea back to mom. 

I was thinking / hoping that she was going to tell me that she / mom weren’t going to go to Utah. (She had planned on going.) I asked her why, questioningly not understanding why not. She said it was because that they had (their own) health issues. I said ok. 

Blocking

I asked, “What was the purpose of the Utah girl?” I dreamt of seeing young people / guys on short stilts, walking around a crowd of people. I saw one of the guys from the back with the top part of his boxers showing. He took off to join the group that was at the (upper) right. I then realized that they weren’t on stilts, but skates.

I dreamt that I was driving on a dark neighborhood street, toward the left. As I was looking behind me on my right so that I could move over / turn right, another car came driving up and past me, causing / making me to swerve / (correct) course to the left. As I did this, another car on the left was coming toward me.

I dreamt that I wanted to turn right onto a side street. There were girls / young ladies in the middle, blocking the entrance. Seems that they may have had a big vehicle of some sort with them, on the right side. 

As we were passing, on the left, Ali said something about them needing to move. One of them had short dark hair who responded with something snarky. I looked back and responded by saying that Ali wouldn’t have said anything if he didn’t care.

(From July 24, 2018 Going Home)

I asked, “What is the name of the person Ali is a father of?” I dreamt that I was in Vegas with my mom and Amy and other family members and non – family. I don’t remember why we were there. 

Lauren was there and I asked her if Ashley had decided what she’s going to do with the baby. It was the day before we were to go back home.

There were some family members from dad’s side. I asked about Lana, or was it Jana (?), who lived there in Vegas (?).

I was thinking that it would’ve been nice to visit with the family there but that we weren’t able because of going home. They were so close but yet so far. I was making sure that I had my stuff together, seeing my toothbrush and paste. 

There was a young black family renting the house next door to the right (when looking at backyard). The Siamese was there, along with other animals. The man moved the Siamese, so that she would go over the back wall, not knowing who she belonged to. I grabbed her while I had the chance.

I saw a small black dog in a kennel in the middle of the yard. I was wondering why s/he was in there while the other animals were free. S/he was facing to the right. I then saw an opening on the back side of the kennel and felt relieved.

I saw the man sitting at the table in the kitchen with the woman. I saw that they had four young children, thinking they were all girls, but saw that one was a boy.

The woman was getting after the man that they had to have sex (I think she used the other word) after breakfast so that she would get pregnant and they could get on welfare. The man stayed silent. I then saw a grandpa sitting to the right of the man, enjoying the children and not getting involved with the woman.

Not As Vivid 

(From July 26, 2018)

I asked for the name of the person Ali is a father of. I dreamt that I was somewhere with rectangular tables that were lined up end to end. I don’t know how many rows. I was there for instruction / education. I had put my stuff on the floor to save my space.

An older man then came and sat to the right of that space, barely giving me any room to sit. I was annoyed at this / him but moved my stuff without grumbling because of his age. 

I had a nice purse (?) under the table (blue handles?) and moved it to the back left corner of the back of D.I. where they had the items stored that were to go out on the floor. 

I dreamt that a young blonde woman (20’s) was getting married. She was taller than me. She was waiting for her husband who I saw but not as vivid as her. She had a belt, and I think eyelets at the bottom of the dress. I don’t remember the sleeves but think they may have been short.

I was wishing that I had gotten married when I was that young. I was thinking that they were getting married that day as it was the last day of the earth and they wanted to be together after death.

I was alone, no family / friends around me, but I wasn’t lonely. I then thought about how I had been married to Kyle and the scriptures about no marriage after death. I then saw cats and other animals / things on top of clouds, on the earth. 

I was starting to feel the vibrations inside the earth getting ready to explode. The animals / things on the clouds then slowly fell below the clouds. Everything / surroundings was white. I was thinking / wondering, “Weren’t we supposed to be lifted up in the sky before this happened?” 

 It was then my turn to fall down. It almost felt like being in a container, though I wasn’t, but I was contained. As I was slowly falling, I was pleading to God, saying, “Oh, God! Oh, God!” I then dropped onto another earth beneath me. 

As soon as I did, Steve went to a / the bathroom and when he did, poop started coming up through all the pipes everywhere, including the toilet that I was on, touching me and I was disgusted by that. I had a box of clothes to the right of me and I was thankful none got on the clothes and as soon as I thought that a little bit ended up on them.

I had ended up in Amy ‘s house when I dropped. Her back screen door slowly opened as if someone small was coming in, but no physical person was there. I watched with trepidation as it opened, swinging open to the left, outward. 

Ali was in one of the back bedrooms, looking like his bedroom, and I heard him make a noise as if being startled awake. I had a sense that he had “awoken” finally.