Orchestrating

I asked, “How do I let go?” I dreamt that Ali and I were walking across a big (?) dirt and gravel lot / field between businesses that I didn’t see but knew were there. There were some chain link fences separating some (of the) areas.

In one area that we were about to walk through, two homeless looking guys were there. The guy on the left was standing, facing us. He was skinny with grey dreadlocks about shoulder length or several inches below. He only had his left arm which he was waving around, as if orchestrating. He was wearing a long sleeve shirt. We weren’t close enough for me to see what the design was but it seemed it had flowers of different sizes with a dark blue background.

The other guy was crouching / kneeling to his left. I didn’t look at him but it seems he was wearing a white shirt and had a white bucket in front of him for drumming.

Ali mentioned about the one arm guy, saying that he was dancing. He may not have noticed that the guy only had one arm.

Ali was either right next to me on my right, or was a couple steps behind (as he usually is when we walk). I was trying to get him to notice the uneasiness these guys were emitting. I either said, “Fiiri badan” (Somali = look a lot), meaning that the guy kept looking, or I only was wanting to say it.

Shortly after we passed them I noticed that they started following us. We were then out by the street, with it to our right. There was no traffic. I asked, “Where are the cops?” The traffic then showed up on the other side with a cop car in front passing us.

I turned around and saw two rows of cars within two lines of the fences with one line facing us and the other behind them facing the other way. There was a cop car in both rows.

I dreamt that I said hello to a black girl at the place where I worked. We were then somewhere where the employees had gathered to have lunch / dinner. She was there and so I figured that I had to say hello because I had said hello earlier and that I was now a part of the group.

We were in the back, or near the back. There were several rectangular tables to the right with a square table on the left. My female boss (?) was getting them ready to eat.

My parents showed up. My mom sat at the square table and seeing corn on the table, said that she likes corn. I noticed that she had gained weight in her upper part of her legs which caused her to sit higher on the chair.

I was disheartened when I had to tell her that this was for us. My dad had already gone up front to find another place to sit.

(From yesterday) Avec Moi

I asked the same question. I dreamt of the singer of Poets of the Fall, Marko Saaresto, singing Partir Avec Moi.

(From June 11, 2019) Dead

I asked the same question. I dreamt something with Steve DiSchiavi from the Dead Files tv show.

I dreamt something about the DNA of other people.

(June 10, 2019) From within

I asked the same question. I dreamt of being part of a class but not in a traditional classroom. I was doing paperwork but don’t remember what it was. It was only one piece of paper.

The teacher’s black wife (?) and a girl were doing word puzzles / games to the right of me. I was thinking how they may have finished their work already and that I would rather be doing that instead but knew I had to finish my work first. (I’m not sure if these were the exact thoughts.)

The wife’s cheekbone area was shiny from being clean and a light shining on her. I knew it wasn’t coming from within.

When I finished my work I had to put my name on the back of the paper because there wasn’t room on the front. I also dated it 6-7-19, which was a Monday.

After, the teacher who was white, was talking about a music group from the ’80’s called Camper van Beethoven, as one of their calmer songs played (I only know of “Pictures of Matchstick”), with some of the other students. I was overhearing so I mentioned that I thought they had a song where the singer held his breath for a bit.

(From June 9, 2019) Before

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was walking to the right on a dirt path on a hill with a small group of people. I asked a girl who was on my left if she had been this way before.

I dreamt that an older lady was letting me borrow some / one of her clothes (for church?). I saw that I didn’t have my garment bottom on and so was going to use hers but then saw that I was wearing mine and so would use mine.

I woke with the song, “Tonight I Celebrate My Love” from Peabo Bryson and Roberta Flack.

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Basketball

I asked, “What is the meaning of the woma/en taking my space?” I saw a vague face missing a nose.

I remember one of the dreams had something to do with basketball. (Ali first met the Utah girl while playing.)

(From May 18, 2019) School

I asked, “Where did I need to go?” I dreamt that Ali and I were driving to a male student’s house of his to take him a peanut butter cookie. I didn’t see Ali but knew that he was there. This student lived up in the mountains.

As I was driving the roads to get up there, my vision / awareness was as if I was looking drowsily out of a back side window. My driving was a little erratic but I was able to stay in control.

There was a short part that was a steep climb up. I had to go at it full force. I thought we were going to topple over because of the angle but we made it. Shortly / right after that there was a small dip before the road leveled out.

When we got up to the beginning (?) of the town there was a fork in the road that went to the right, passing a school. Some people were standing outside. We continued on, passing it.

We finally made it to the house, with it being on our right, looking like a regular house instead of a “mountain” house. It may have been (starting to get) dark when we got there.

The student had just returned home from a bike ride, and looked like it. I had two cookies that were sealed individually in the same plastic. He took his cookie out and took a bite when he noticed that he had unsealed the other cookie (chocolate?) and tried to seal it back up. I told him not to worry about it.

I wondered why we brought him the cookie instead of him getting one here in town.

Before I woke up I saw four entertainer ladies standing side by side each holding a microphone. They were singing short lyrics of different songs before the show started that they were here for. The last one was, “Bring me home”, sung in a happy tune.

(From May 17, 2019) Return

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I had returned to my mission area because I missed being with the guys. One of the names started with an “A” and was short. There was a down syndrome missionary who liked to draw.

I dreamt (same dream?) that there was a restaurant that was more expensive than the casual / family dining restaurants. I saw it on the right side with the door facing to the left, as if in a strip mall. The food was good but didn’t take long to eat / the experience didn’t last long.

I saw some people walking out. One of them was a tall older man who comes to Starbucks now and then with his wife. At some point he told me that a strand of my hair had touched him first ( while he was walking?).

I then was talking to a girl that was across from me telling her about the restaurant but couldn’t remember the name, or the pizza place next to it. She commented that my memory was fading.

I dreamt that I was at a restaurant and we were given small black purse like pockets that you squeeze to open, with another pocket on the side, to put our trash in. I was looking in the one I was given and kept finding dimes. I felt like I was “lucky”.

Gift

I asked the same question. I dreamt of a lady who posted on social media about a tv host guy who was taking on big companies. This guy wasn’t necessarily taking on these big companies, but was just showing the videos (similar to AFV) that he liked.

I then saw him standing behind the studio audience on the left. The audience was in a half circle, facing front, looking at the screen. There was then a guy on the top back right. He was sitting with his back to the audience. There was a microphone in front of his back and a piano in front of him.

He was from Tennessee and was singing a song, twisted around to use the mic, about him being from there. The chorus was, “It’s a gift to be real, Here in Beverly Hills.”

Don’t Know

I asked, “What is the meaning of ‘Film the Crew'”? I dreamt that I was levitating in the air. There were people around me. I saw a young boy 10?) and grabbed his left hand, and brought him up, a couple feet, with me. It was only for a couple minutes. He may not have had a shirt on.

I think I may have jogged / walked fast to get up off the ground. I then went up to the sky. My hair was at least to my shoulders, as I was putting my attention on it. There were rain clouds, but it wasn’t raining. I knew that there was a possibility of rain above the clouds. The dream ended when I reached them.

I dreamt that I was telling someone about this, and another dream, and how they felt so real.

(I had read about sex trafficking earlier)

I dreamt that I was walking and a guy came up to me on my left. I don’t remember what he said, but he grabbed me / my hand hard, and I knew that he was no good.

I started shouting for help. I could’ve taken him, and don’t know why I didn’t. There were a couple people, one of them a woman who was walking in front of me on the left, who came to help. 

I held his legs when he was down, and noticed that they were small like a young boys.

I dreamt that I was somewhere with Briana, and other people. There were sound systems on poles / stands. A guy was asking me about a song to play because of what happened to me. He was singing the words, “I want you to want me.” I told him to play the song.

I went to Briana and excitedly told her that he was going to play “Superposition” by Young the Giant. When the song came on, it was a different song. I don’t know if this one had those words in the song because the dream ended. I felt as if it was Stevie Wonder singing.

I dreamt (same dream?) that there was a crowd of guys sitting, stadium style. They all had professional cameras still in their open cases. I was standing to the right of them, looking at them. 

They all did the same movements, putting something on top of the cameras. The men were dressed in black. 

I dreamt of a girl walking toward me. She had a tattoo on the front middle of her neck of a circle with a line coming out on both sides. Her nose, in the middle, was pierced, and had two white curled tusk looking things. 

The ends looked like it was cut open in the middle, with the sides bent over / down / back, as a way to keep it in place. I thought that the piercings reminded me of boars.

Married 

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I had gotten married to a guy from online that I had only known a short time. He lived in Utah (wasn’t excited about that) in an apartment / condo. He had some money because his family owned a farm, which he quit shortly before we had gotten married, and now worked for a blinds company. 

The first several days I slept on the couch. I had wondered about him feeling the hairs on my face. He would walk past me in the morning, while I was sleeping, getting ready for work. He did mention something about that, but don’t remember what. The weekend after being there, I hadn’t taken a shower the night before, and I still had my shoes on. 

I had taken the orange and white tabby cat with me. That night, my husband was in the bedroom and told me to come get the cat. On my way, I noticed that he had two black dogs. 

He was lying on his left side, facing away from me, on the bed, which was in front to my left. He only had white sheets on. The tabby was on the other side of him.

In the morning, his son and daughter and mom showed up. I wasn’t wearing any bottom pj’s. I didn’t get up until after they had come in, and started talking. There was a quilt that I started folding, pretending that I was interested in.

His son asked him why he quit the farm. I don’t remember if he responded.

He and his mom ended up in the kitchen (?). I could hear her tell him that if we had any children that they would need to go with him to church (seemed he was a different religion) because of me being from the lower class. When they came back, I creepily asked her if I scared her, and then started to tell her that what she thinks of me is only a reflection of her. I didn’t get it all the way out because someone else (husband?) started talking.

My husband then called me “B’s / Bees”. I looked down at my shirt and saw that it was black and yellow horizontal stripes. I don’t know if that was why he called me that, or if he was just having fun with my name.

I then was sitting on the couch, in the middle, and my husband then came over and sat by me, on my right. He said something about gum. I mentioned that I hadn’t had any for years, for 10 years. He was shocked. I had a feeling that this was also the first time I talked, and that I had kept closed up until now.

I saw the family farm house, looking at the front, and noticed a bunch of white vehicles to the right, on the other side of a fence. I figured they belonged to all of the family. I don’t know if I was actually there, or if it was a vision within the dream.

Somewhere, there was something about each time I did an action, it would be forgotten, as if God would forget it.

The family all gathered together that night for a celebration outside. Someone was announcing the names of the people who showed up, like royalty do. When my name was called, only one person asked who I was. The other people were busy involved in the celebrations.

I saw about six white open cases, vertically lined up, for sunglasses, with them inside. I must’ve taken one because when my name was called, I had a bit of fun when I took them off. I was thinking that my husband must be thinking how pretty I was / am.

I didn’t see him, but saw a guy talking loudly, in front of me, surrounded by the people there. I moved to my left a little in case I was blocking the way for anyone behind me, and sat down on the lawn.

I then heard singing, and looking in front of me, I saw my husband on the other side of the crowd, facing my direction. He was singing, with a guitar, for his daughters (had at least three it felt like), so that they could record it and use for their ring tone. Seems they were cheerleaders, or something similar.

He then started singing the ending, and a lady then started singing her song for the same reason, but for everyone.

I then saw Cari walking, from left to right, with Amy and Micalanne walking a short distance behind her. Amy and Micalanne were telling Cari what a great person I am. Cari, never looking back, playfully acted as if she didn’t know who I was, knowing that Mic and Amy didn’t believe what they were saying.

Finally Came

I dreamt that I was watching a movie, with Kenny Rogers and John Schneider, from the 70’s / 80’s, but they were their age that they are now. I was telling someone that I really liked one of the songs. 

John was telling someone that they could call him dad. Kenny was up on the (balcony) roof with someone else.

I dreamt about Integars, as a last name (?).

I dreamt about trying to find a woman (who was in a picture(s)?), and that she finally came / showed up.

(From Jan 23, 2018 Melt For You )

I dreamt that I was inside, and told not to go outside because people were being killed, and it was raining. 

I dreamt that several women (tho/ese?) were driving (in one car) to Miami with their grandmothers for vacation. The grandmothers were acting as if they were those motion things that some people stick to their dashboard.

I dreamt of a guy singing, “I’ll melt for you.” This was his own song, and not the one from the 80’s called, “I’ll melt with you.”

(From Jan 22, 2018 Children)

I dreamt that I was in a shirt and underwear. I opened the door to look outside. I was above the other homes, and thought that they might be able to see me like this, so I closed the door.

I dreamt of a tall black man who dealt with a lot of children (perhaps like a community mentor?).

(From Jan 21, 2018 Given Away)

I dreamt that the cats were going to be given away, and I was crying to mom to not let them. She said that Steve’s (?) turtles (doesn’t have irl) were also going to be given away, and I said that that’s different because they’re just turtles.

(From Jan 19, 2018 Married)

I dreamt that I, and another girl, got married to guys that we didn’t know, at least I didn’t. We were to stay together, as a group, and as companions. As we were walking out to the car, I was holding the key, and wondering if I should drive.

I was wearing the white skirt with ____ that I like to wear. I suppose that the guy I married ended up driving since that part was skipped. (After we arrived at our destination) I was tired, so I went to bed. 

(In the morning?) When I woke up, I realized that he was young, good looking, with short red hair. He told me that he had sex with me while I was sleeping. I wondered if I had snored. He seemed to be ok with the experience.

I dreamt that the other girl had her stuff together in the car. I had to go back home to get mine. I hadn’t brushed my teeth, and still had a dirty mouth. My face still felt relatively smooth, but still wanted to work on it. 

At some point after getting back home, they took off without me, forgetting about me. My mom said something about calling those three, but I said that because they had forgotten about me, maybe that means that I’m not ready.

When I got home, several apostles / leaders of the church came, with a tall woman. She was wearing a dress. I didn’t see their faces, only their suits.

I don’t know how tall this woman was since I didn’t stand next to her. She went in the kitchen, and started to get some food ready for them. The kitchen island was a tad bit short, but workable. She pulled out the cutting board that was in the island. I think she had cucumbers. 

Lying

I asked, “Is there someone, masquerading as me, appearing and talking to Ali?” I don’t remember the order of these. They may also be within the same dream.

I dreamt that a girl had an abortion (?). I didn’t see her, but sensed that she was lying down. We were waiting, in a hallway, for her verdict / sentencing for doing so. 

There was something about women / this girl who decide whether or not to have (more) children, based on the good / fun times, or all the messes and tiredness.

I dreamt that I was watching a video / performance of a band who were singing a song, in first person, about being / about to become extinct(ion). I was thinking that one of the guys wasn’t actually making any noise, only moving his mouth. It looked similar to the performance of Greased Lightning from the movie Grease, standing on the cars.

I dreamt about Oprah, but she was white, and I knew that she had a grown son. We were using pencils to fill in a picture for a contest. I don’t know how big the picture was. I either said out loud, or only thought, jokingly, “What’s a woman to do with all that money?”

I dreamt that I was looking out back and there was a gorilla and a small black terrier at the back of the backyard (about 30 – 50 yards back) looking back at me, waiting for me to bring them some food. They were standing separate from each other, a couple feet between them, the dog on the left. They were sitting still, just looking at me, and waiting.

I dreamt about a lady and her week old baby. I mentioned how big is, because it looked like it was a month, or more. I also mentioned that it was weird that a week ago the baby wasn’t here.

(From Feb 9, 2018 Get Ali)

I dreamt that a gay guy was in one of the rooms of the house, though it looked different, doing the “white glove” test, without the gloves. 

After seeing some dust, he said that I should get Ali to clean this room. I was thinking that it was my job to clean that room, but didn’t say anything.

(From Feb 7, 2018 Layers)

I dreamt of being at a fashion show and the dresses (at least the bottom since I didn’t see the top) looked like the southern belle type, but only half (or a third?) as full, and had layers. 

I remember seeing two dresses. One of them looked like it was made with scraps of fabric going all directions. The other one looked like it had shoes at the waist. I’m sure there were others, but I don’t remember them.

I dreamt that I was inside a room inside a building. The floor I was on looked like an office floor with the doors belonging to different companies.

It looked a little dark, as they are sometimes portrayed, but not in a scary way. I was at the door, and Ivana Trump was at the door in the hallway. 

For some reason, I asked her if the name “Vanna” meant anything. She started repeating, saying a poem / saying in her language, then said what Vanna meant. I can’t remember what she said.

She passed by again, and I asked her something, about her, but she wasn’t able to fully respond because a lady down the hallway, to the left, was calling for her. 

(From Feb 6, 2018 Went Away)

I dreamt about a dirty family consisting of the parents, and a grown son. The father was wearing a white muscle shirt that was slit down the front middle.

I dreamt about a hose staying still up in the air, curved, holding up water, per se. There was a black lab (?) dog in the water, moving around, like it was normal. I touched the hose, and the water went away.

I dreamt about a couple of teens (?) putting spraying foam on a wall. I think above some windows. I think a man showed up, and they felt as if they were caught doing something they shouldn’t, so they crashed through some / the windows.

Made It

I dreamt that there was a guy sitting / lounging, and I had to step over him. After I did, I told him that I made it. 

I dreamt that I was staying / visiting at Amy’s. I couldn’t remember which bedroom, at the end of the hall, that I was using. I went to the one on the right.

Amy was lying naked on the bed, which was in the back left corner. She had a blanket, or something, covering the top of her, draping down to the floor. She was touching / playing with herself. She saw me, and I hurriedly closed the door.

(From Feb 20, 2018 On My Way Out)

I dreamt that I was looking at different scenes from the Maine Cabin Masters tv show, of different cabins in the demo stage on the inside. 

I dreamt that I had driven down a dirt road / path, and water was starting to come in. It seems that someone else was with me. My mom?

I then turned around, and there was a fence bordering this area, and a Mexican girl at the gate getting ready to close it up when she saw me, and I waved at her from inside the car to let her know that I was on my way out.

I dreamt of Amy driving on a freeway with wide lanes. They were wide enough that she moved over to the right to let the car behind pass, but then she decided against it and moved back over. 

The freeway had holes here and there, but not too bad. There were about a handful of cars on the road.

(From Feb 19, 2018 Loves Me)

There was a guy on LinkedIn who messaged me a couple times. I dreamt that he wrote me, telling me that he loves me.

(From Feb 17, 2018 Wet The Bear)

I dreamt that I was laying in bed and nursing a cat. Later in the dream, the cat didn’t want to. 

I dreamt that I was nursing a baby. 

The words, “Wet the Bear” came into my head.

(From Feb 16, 2018 Blocking)

I dreamt that there were some people / family moving in at the end of a cul – de – sac. Instead of using a moving truck, they used train cars, and had several of them lining up on the right side of the street. I don’t know if there were any blocking driveways since I was across the street looking in.

(From Feb 12, 2018 Clean Up)

I dreamt that I hadn’t taken care of the hair on my chin. There was a young guy in front of me, to the right. I was in (the) light and he didn’t seem bothered, but then I wasn’t sure what he was able to see.

I dreamt that I had taken off a scab on my right cheek and a girl told me not to do that.

I dreamt that Robin Williams was walking in the middle behind two guys and I pointed him out to someone. 

I dreamt that I was at Jenny’s house (before she married). I was going to go to church with her. I got there around 6 am, sleeping on the stairs at the entrance that are in front of the door, somewhat like as if you were going to go up in an attic.

When she finally came out, dressed up, she turned into Briana, and said that she wasn’t going, but was spending the weekend with two other people.

When I was there, I hadn’t even showered yet, needing to go back home to clean up.

(From Feb 11, 2018 Lottery)

I dreamt that I was watching a big screen tv about the width size of a theater screen, and perhaps half the height. A young boy won the lottery when it was in the $200’s. I don’t remember exactly how much, but it was less than $250.

After he won, I won when it was $532. 

I dreamt that I was watching The Simpson’s, and they were jogging / running somewhere and they were singing / having a good time full of breath.

One guy swore, trying to disguise it. I thought, “Don’t they know that children are watching?” 

 I dreamt that I was flying (?) above a group of people, going somewhere, and I was joyfully singing in a different language.

I dreamt that there was a group of people, in different groups, involved in different activities. At the end, there was a girl who’s left leg was stripped to the bone from the knee down.

She kept calm, and I praised her for it. I don’t remember how it happened, but I let out a scream (?) / became loud so that the others stopped what they were doing, and came over.

I dreamt about a guy having a bloody ear, and people in a frenzy wanting to know where his heart was to find it.

(From Feb 10, 2018 The Devil)

I dreamt that there was flooding caused by the devil. There were papers under a clear storage container, that was low and flat. I got anxious about them getting wet so hurriedly picked them up.

Close The Drapes

I asked, “Did my spirit visit Ali while he was in Utah?” (The voices told him that I did.) I dreamt that it was (late?) night and I was inside with several family (?). I / we was / were looking out back and a big raccoon suddenly appeared, coming from the back left.

Something about it scared me (wasn’t expecting?). I then was on the right side of the window, frightened, and hurriedly told someone to close the drapes.

I dreamt that I was inside church, with dad sitting (in the back?) in the chapel. I was watching someone’s boy, so gave him to dad while I went to do something else.

I dreamt that I was singing / hearing a song with the words, “I want to hear you – oo – oo.”

 (From March 1, 2018 Trying To Get Out)

I dreamt that it was windy outside and there were 3 of the cats out there, so I wanted to bring them in so that they wouldn’t get blown away.

I dreamt that the houses past grandma’s (they were only on her side) were dry and bland. I was standing on the street at the end of her driveway, talking to another woman (didn’t see her) and holding a lock of blonde hair that belonged to another woman who was in my grandma’s house.

I dreamt of frogs and snakes and snake skins. There was one frog in the folds of my right sock. I didn’t want it there, but I wasn’t doing anything to get rid of it, and it wasn’t moving / trying to get out.

(From Feb 28, 2018 Ready)

I dreamt that the tabby cat was outside, ready to come inside.

(From Feb 27, 2018 Sex Club)

I dreamt that I recently became a member of a sex club, and I was getting a tour by a black man.

(From Feb 26, 2018 Growth Growing)

I dreamt of seeing women (with their daughters?) with my patterns / designs as wallpaper / fabric that they had bought. 

I dreamt of having some kind of growth growing on my right forearm in the middle. I could see something moving around, but couldn’t tell what it was because of all the liquid. I then pierced the bottom (having to push it a bit because it is skin) for it to drain.

(From Feb 23, 2018 Chocolate Chip Cookie)

I dreamt of a chocolate chip cookie floor.

(From Feb 22, 2018 Not So Bad)

I dreamt that I was inside a house that was for sale in the Los Angeles area. Everything was white. I then was out back by the pool and wicker lounge chairs, looking out at the downtown area.

I dreamt that I started nursing, on my left breast, a tiny baby and thought that it wasn’t so bad, that it didn’t hurt like how I’ve read. I was able to do something else while doing this.

I dreamt that I went in to a house that I used to live in, but not through the door. I don’t remember if it was through a window, or wall, or whatever else it may have been.

There were 3 guys living there, and when I came in, without seeing him, I told one of the guys that I was there and where I came in from. He responded ok both times. I then started walking toward the front door because I wasn’t sure what I would see as they walked through. 

The guy who I had just talked to came out from a room that was behind me, crawling. I told him to stand up so that it wouldn’t look awkward.

I dreamt that I was in a shower room (after the dream, or later?) with two other women. I only saw three showers against the (left?) wall. I was at the first one, to the left.

The showerhead was twice as high, and I was standing higher than the others.

I dreamt that I was outside the open screened front door, looking in. There must’ve been steps up to the door because I was locking in through the bottom, on the left.

There was a white cat sitting inside who looked like the “Little One”, but couldn’t quite see if there were the two lines on the temples that she had.

I then opened the door, and took the cat, expecting to take it home with me. When I brought the cat out, it turned into a newborn with the eyes still closed.

The guys came to the door expecting to see me take off with the cat, but I was still there.

(From Feb 21, 2018 Restored)

I dreamt that I was looking at Leann Ford and her brother from their show, “Restored By The Fords”. 

Be Shown

I asked, “How do I go back and change my past?” I dreamt that I was with a group of people and we were waiting for a beluga whale to come and be shown to us. There was a guy up front, right corner, singing his songs, playing his guitar, while we were sitting and waiting. Seems that Michelle and Suzanne were there.

The people weren’t paying too much attention, though they heard. I was saying, to a couple of them, that it’s because there isn’t any feeling / passion, and they agreed.

Behind us were two “cages” to go in if we wanted when the whale got here. There were also a line of metal things in front of them, in different sizes (to show / measure different sizes?). 

As it got closer for the whale to show, I got emotional and started crying, wanting to be protected in a cage. 

There was a line of some of the guys, who were mentally slower, who were going in to the cage on the right (when looking forward to where the whale would be). Philip was at the end wanting to get in, not because he was scared.

As I was walking in, I was thinking how I’m almost 47, and I’m this emotional and crying, but then thought that it’s ok because of how big the whale is (I was feeling like it was as big as a humpback whale). When it arrived, there was a “pool” of water going horizontally in front of us, only big / wide enough to fit him.

I was in the cage and a handsome man, with dark hair, came walking toward me ( cage protection is now gone) with the whale walking, on his right, on his tail. When the man was on my left, and the whale on his left, he asked if I (lived with any?) complaints. I immediately told him no.

As he was walking toward me, someone said blue, as if saying “blue – ga whale”. 

There was something about showing his round nose.

I dreamt that I was talking with Briana and telling her about this dream, emphasizing that I was emotional. I was naked while I was telling her. I kept getting interrupted by mom and dad, who were in another room, saying that the whale is coming / appearing soon.

Toluca (used to be my mom’s black lab guide dog) even came in to my room and excitedly grabbed a pink bath sponge / pouf, threw it up in the air, and then left. I then went out, and had my garments on.

I dreamt that I wasn’t able to download a ticket to go see the whale because I didn’t have a computer. I was saying this to a young (teen?) skinny boy, thinking he would catch on to my dilemma and help out, but he didn’t, for either.

I then was at a four – way stop, and for some reason, wasn’t able to go the direction I wanted, at first, but eventually did. It felt chaotic as to not being able to get where I wanted.

When I finally got to where I was headed (crossing the street), there was a Christian / religious (?) man there, as if waiting for me, who smiled at me and then left.

I saw a hill (?) to my right and climbed it. There were small trees / branches (?). I grabbed one and threw it down, saying that it was mine. It may have glowed? This was to be my ticket.

I dreamt of someone putting “butter” (I think it’s called) down in a shower for putting in tiles. A guy there didn’t want to touch / get involved with it.

The thought came to me that Ray is the boozy way.