Growing Up

I asked the question, “What is that (Utah) girl’s kryptonite?” I dreamt that a girl (Ariana Grande?) had sung a song about growing up. The picture had a Pokemon ball hanging.

I dreamt that work was over and I wanted to take a shower before leaving. I was naked and trying to hurry to open my locker before the guys showed up.

The first number I could remember was 97 but the locks don’t go that high so I was frantically trying to remember the combination.

I heard some people so I used to yellow washcloths that I had to cover myself. There was a girl who saw my predicament. I don’t remember what happened next.

I dreamt that I was at Ali’s. He didn’t have a/c, or it wasn’t working, so he had about 4 or 5 fans going that were facing up.

He had b(r)ought a bunch of clothes that were still in bags. I took out a small boys sweater that had two small holes up on the right shoulder.

I then picked out a man’s blue and white vertical stripe nightshirt that had a tassel/pompom at the end on the right side (when looking at it). I told him that this is what I was talking about (to cover me).

I saw some shirts that reminded me of Greg, telling Ali this, so I got a little emotional.

I dreamt something about being outside and had given the gardener some tomatoes that we had. I was with someone when I saw him throw some away still in the bag. I could see that there were some rotten ones. I told the other person that I had given those to him.

He said something about a tomatillo I think. I couldn’t understand and I didn’t ask for clarification. I think it had to do with being too spicy for him.

(From yesterday) Excited

I asked the same question. I was thinking about the pumpkin pie and the thought came to me that it’s impactful through whole house.

I dreamt something about grandma Fessler and Judy with other people sitting on opposite seats/benches with an aisle between.

I dreamt that there was a big, long cut on the right side of my right thigh. I could see inside and saw some water in the back.

I dreamt of walking around the right corner of a dark business building from back to front. A woman was with me. The building was elevated so that we had to look up to look at the windows. The windows had holes in them as if rocks had been thrown at them. I was saying something about the holes (different sizes?) but don’t remember.

I dreamt that there were girls sitting in front of computers doing their makeup. I had recently stopped working here several months before.

I dreamt that there was a stretched out silver car from the early 1900’s. I thought it was a Rolls Royce but there was a big jaguar hood ornament. I was excited about it, standing a short distance from it so that it would’ve been around the 11 o’clock position facing in front of me.

I was talking to a woman about it. It may have been her favorite.

I dreamt that someone had left a piece of expensive luggage in a parking space. I don’t remember if I was putting that through the back windows of a black man’s small car, or if that was a separate dream.

(From Jan. 25, 2020) Blood

I asked the same question. I dreamt that (I may have been in Ali’s room?) I started to take my bottom garment off and saw some menstrual blood. I rushed to the bathroom that was behind me to rinse it off/out.

The thought came to me that a man did a horrifying thing of killing his wife/mother to his children.

The thought came to me that it was Halloween and I was getting poked by a stick.

I dreamt that I was inside a long rectangular shaped room, standing at the door at the short end. A movie was playing at the other end? Other people were there? I was at the door waiting for the mother cat to come in from the dark outside.

A crab showed up trying to get inside. I may have kicked it away, but not hard. There were other creatures around but they were doing their own thing.

(From Jan. 24, 2020) Mushy

I asked the same question. I saw a slightly burnt pumpkin pie that was still moist/mushy inside.

Worker

I asked, “Why am I black?” I dreamt that mom had gone to a medical facility to have a procedure done. I asked one of the workers about the paperwork. They hadn’t looked at it yet.

(From yesterday) Woman

I asked the same question. I dreamt that on a Friday Amy timidly said that she was going to dinner. I said ok. When she got back I realized that she had gone to the dinner that had been set up by Judy and Sara (?) for mom. I had forgotten about it because Amy didn’t say where she was going.

I got after her for not being clear when she said where she was going. I told her not to come after us for not being clear when she isn’t.

I dremt something about someone talking about nihalat, which means something about (long) hair.

I dreamt that a man was doing something with his young family inside. He looked out the window that was in front of him across the room. He saw a woman with a bundled up baby on her chest walking past the window from right to left.

As the scene zooms out, the man is now to the right of the window standing at a table. He looks back at the window in shock. As the scene continues to zoom, it shows that they are several stories up in a brick apartment building/row house on the right end. There are no balconies.

As the scene continues to zoom out, they have now moved to the roof and are there with other people.

I dreamt that I had accidentally gone, and smeared, a little bit of light colored poop on Ben’s white sheet while I was getting off. I was cleaning/chipping it with my fingernails so that it would be easier to clean.

I dreamt that I sat on a child’s red (?) plastic chair, thinking that it would be sturdy enough for me. It wasn’t.

I dreamt that a lady was sitting (high?) at a table in between two ladies. She had two crosses in front of her. They were made from crystals/gems. They were tan and black mixed, like granite kitchen counters.

I asked her if the place where she bought those had crosses made from shungite or obsidian. She looked surprised and said, “Oh!”, as if she hadn’t thought of that.

(From Jan. 21, 2020) Sliding

I asked the same question. I saw myself continually sliding.

(From Jan. 20, 2020) Selling

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was wearing a white fancy dress, with lace ribbons on my breasts going down the chest area. I was part of a wedding but decided not to attend.

There was a light blue apron with pictures vertically lined up on the right side (when wearing) to show how to wear it with the dress. It was a foot, or two, longer than the dress. I didn’t look at the pictures close enough to understand how to wear it.

I dreamt that someone was selling young (half tall) Christmas trees for planting in yards for when Christmas comes around.

(From Jan. 19, 2020) Demon

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was about to write something on a piece of paper when several streaks showed up at the top of the paper. They made it look like the paper was wet.

Frustrated, I told the demon who did that that he might as well do the whole thing (paper), which he then did.

I dreamt something about a couple from church. Their car had a flat tire in back on the driver’s side. I said that I had checked the front tires and hadn’t thought to check the back ones.

There was something about a John Ellis who was the first speaker at the General Conference. I looked in my journal where I wrote something about dreaming from his talk.

Time To Go

I dreamt of a tall mirrored high rise building.

I dreamt of a gated abandoned house/building with several stories.

I dreamt that I had pooped a slightly curved tan “brick”, leaving it on top of the toilet. I had some dark remnants on my right leg on the top of my thigh under my belly. It was Micalanne’s turn to clean. She was poking it with a stick and smelling it, not smelling anything, trying to figure out what it was.

I put the brick in a hole above the seat the size of the brick and flushed it. I was anxious that it might not go down and flood but it went down smoothly.

I dreamt of being with a group of people, including my parents and Mark, and someone with down syndrome. We were inside a church (?) playing “keep away”. It was fun to watch the person with down syndrome be involved with the game.

The ball wasn’t thrown to me until the end. Because of this I couldn’t remember who my teammates were so I randomly threw to Mark. He threw it back to me and I threw it to dad, who then told mom that it was time to go.

I was standing behind a line the people, one of which was a Polynesian female, had then made, semi anxiously searching for my yellow flip flop sandals. I then saw that they were to the side on the right in front of me on the other side of the line.

I dreamt that there were a couple guys who wanted bicycles. I wasn’t sure if they were homeless or not. After they got the bikes I saw them driving away in front of me, driving slightly to the left. One of them had a Lamborghini. I then wondered why they wanted the bikes.

There was a section of the road that was dirt and had what looked like a ramp, causing the vehicles to go up in the air. There was a one person dug out hole to the left that the driver had to jump into before the vehicle came back down.

I saw a female go in the hole, curled up with her right side on the bottom. I could see her hitting the sides as she was going down. She kept saying, “Ow.”

(From Oct. 11, 2019) Make Noise

I asked, “How do I prevent that (Utah) girl from entering my body?” I dreamt something about Ali & I living (?) in a house with an uphill driveway. The guy before us had a car shop in the garage so he had one of those strips that make noise when going over it. It was still there.

We were going somewhere but I was taking my time coming out. I was in the garage, picking up the car key last. Ali was frustrated at the time I was taking.

There was a guy who lives in the neighborhood who rode past on his motorcycle without shoes. He likes to ride, when he has time off, for fun.

A small/medium size dog walked by me with red ants crawling on him. The ants were around his butt then he moved on. I think I asked the dog if he knew about the ants before he left.

I dreamt that I was with mom & Mark inside mom’s house. Mark asked mom if Steve could come visit. I mentioned that he was going to be coming, why should he be asking. I then asked mom if he & Natalie were separating again. She didn’t respond. I then heard, “One = two”.

I dreamt about making DIY soap out of flowers.

(From Oct. 10, 2019) Walls Going Down

I asked the same question. I dreamt that Kenny Rogers had worked with Taylor Swift several times so he wasn’t nervous (?) around. He was holding up a baby size patchwork quilt.

The name Tommy Becky came to mind.

I saw an older couple walking in front of me. They (she) were holding the baby of a Jamaican woman who was on their right. Her hair was up in braids with colored bands all around.

I saw the brick walls in the backyard and side going down.

(From Oct. 9, 2019) Shining Bright

I asked the same question. I was with other people, including Trump. Seems it was at the end of work. Trump left for a little bit then came back. He was debating on walking me home or another girl. I told him that it takes me an hour. I wanted to ask if it would be quicker to drive but since he was the one who is offering, I didn’t say anything.

I was sitting on the floor wearing a dress. The bottom was up by my waist. My legs were bent up. I was thinking that anyone here who might become my husband would know how I already look. My garments were showing so I decided to pull the dress down.

I saw one of those display cookie jar globes/balls that stores use for small items to sell. Inside were the rubber balls used for handball/racquetball. A couple of the front balls had writing with an outline of a skull, like the type for Day of the Dead. It was saying something about Kliceco, which is the face shining bright under the moon.

(From Oct. 8, 2019) Married

I asked the same question. I dreamt of a party with two suppliers of champagne. The people were drinking more of one over the other. A guy involved with one of the suppliers kept bringing glasses out on to the long rectangle table because of this.

Amy was warning me about hunting ghosts because a friend of hers became involved with drugs after starting. I told her the difference between our situations. She told me, “Let me poke your eye”, for health reasons, as a release.

I dreamt that Ali & I were at the house of one of my brothers. I don’t remember if it was a dream brother or one of my actual brothers. If it was actual then it would’ve been Mark.

Ali was standing behind me, not doing anything, and my brother told me to stop doing that, as if we were having sex. I reminded him that we were married. There were other people at the house as well.

I dreamt that Ali & I went to the church with two sections/chapels. They were across from each other with the one on the right a bit higher than the one on the left. The one on the left was for families and the one on the right was for gays. I don’t remember why Ali came but he came for a reason. I think I was tagging along, though I didn’t see him while we were there.

There were people on both sides. I stayed on the right. The women there didn’t feel as if they were gay but were family of those who were. There was a type of (not see thru) screen to go through to be on that side.

I knew that payment was involved to be involved with what was happening that day/night. I wasn’t going to go through because of that but after seeing the last person go through, I decided to sneak in.

I saw doors open as if the room was a dressing room. I saw the bottom/legs of a guy getting ready for a show. I heard some of the guys chuckling slightly after two of them did something sexual. I looked after hearing that but didn’t see anything.

I then went in to the chapel and sat in a folding chair in the back right on the left of the short row. A guy in front of me told me to look at something that was behind me. I don’t remember what it was.

I saw that there was food up front on the left where the sacrament area was. I figured that was what the payment was for. It was for after the event. I figured I didn’t have to worry about eating because Ali would take me to eat after the event was over.

There was a screen up front for a film that was to be shown. It was a type of documentary. Part of it, there was only music with different scenes. It showed a guy walking in a pool on the right side next to the edge. He was walking away from the camera. I got a little excited, thinking I had seen this part and that the guy was Dakota from the Ghost Adventures tv show.

He then came back with a small group of people, walking in the same area. I realized as they got closer that it wasn’t him. In front of them was a black dog pushing a stroller with a guy behind the dog holding the baby. They eventually turned to the right (their left) and continued on.

Get Away

I asked, “Do I need to go to a Catholic priest to get her (Utah girl) expelled from my body?” I dreamt that Ali was driving us out of a parking lot. There was a man walking beside Ali. I couldn’t see his head. I was telling Ali that we need to get away from this man.

I dreamt that I was with a handful of people outside, along with two male church members. For some reason, I didn’t fully trust these men. They were dressed with trench coats, like criminals wear. They were trying to sell something to us.

I dreamt that I was at a (high) school. I told a couple people that I was from the future and asked them where the room was that I was supposed to be in.

When I got there the door was open to the right. I peeked in, standing at the door. There were a couple empty desks on the right with school stuff on them. The students were facing me, looking at me. No one looked familiar, and I couldn’t remember where my seat was.

I dreamt that I was in a bath washing my legs after they had been cleansed.

(From yesterday) Baby Knows

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was standing behind a very pregnant lady who was outside in a sunken tub. (Italian setting?) I was wondering how the baby knows when to come out.

I dreamt that Ali & I were at a restaurant (?). One of the girl workers was wearing her black bra on the outside of her black work shirt, which had white writing on the back. I was pointing her out to Ali.

(From Jan. 15, 2020) Worked On

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was in a tall high rise building. I was a missionary and my companion was scared of earthquakes. There were some small tremors.

I was pleading to her for us to get out. I had done something earlier which upset her so she wouldn’t move. I had walked over to where the guys were, with one of them looking at me.

I dreamt that I was at the dentist at the end of my teeth being worked on. I saw that it was 3:00 and realized that I was supposed to start work that day. I knew they couldn’t get a hold of me because I didn’t have a phone.

The dentist was a woman. She said something about my lips being dry when she saw me peeling some skin off with my teeth. I noticed that her lips were worse than mine, having more skin peeling off.

I dreamt that I saw my lipstick brush that I’ve been meaning to bring out to use.

I dreamt that I was sleeping on a bed on the left side with an overweight man and his grown son.

The man got up to use the bathroom, which was on his side. He said something to his son about moving closer to me.

I had moved to the floor. There were blankets under me (?). I told him that he didn’t have to if he didn’t want to. He seemed to be relieved when I told him that.

I was trying to hide from the man for when he came back. The bed was a bit smaller (length?) than usual. I don’t know if I was successful.

I dreamt of turning a stringed instrument (mandolin?) upside down and a bunch of water coming out. There were towels on the floor but not enough. I was thinking that the concrete floor, with a tiny slope to the wall, needs to be redone anyway.

I dreamt of seeing photos of a black Mary Tyler Moore dressed provocatively in red. She had on the tiny shorts that volleyball players wear that only cover the butt. There was a close up photo of her left side leg/butt area, showing how strong her thigh was.

I was wondering which Christmas album to add these to, for future reference.

I dreamt of being at a store and looking over the shoulder of the woman at the register, which was on the right. She had placed her credit card on top of the machine to pay. I saw that it was a dirty MasterCard.

Ali was on my left. I lifted my eyebrows at him, as if to say, “Whatever” about the lady/card.

I was thinking that if anyone said something to me about looking at her card, I would tell them that I didn’t see her numbers, which I hadn’t.

(From Jan. 14, 2020) Go To Church

I asked the same question. I dreamt that the house was at the left end of the street where the elbow is. My dad was suggesting to my mom about buying the house across the street that’s for sale.

I was thinking that I would be able to use it to foster children. I was also thinking of only offering between $375-400 because of how small it is (2 bed, 1.75 ba).

I dreamt that Steve had his room at the house plus a room at the lady’s house across the street, which was on a corner with the street going North on the side.

Steve had a big dog. He was walking out of this lady’s house with the dog on a Sunday to go to church. She also walked out. They started to turn the corner when she dropped a magazine she was holding. I was trying to get Steve’s attention when he finally looked back.

I dreamt that grandma was living with us, having her own room. It was situated similar to the one in her own house but smaller.

There was going to be an open house. My dad told me that the cats need to be gotten rid of (or put outside) because of the fur. I was thinking that they would just hide when the people show up.

I wasn’t going to participate but stayed back in the bedroom. There was a lady who had gotten ready for it. At first I didn’t have my glasses on to see how she looked but quickly got them on and saw that she was dressed nice for it.

I dreamt that I was walking around a shopping center at 9 a.m. on Sunday. I was walking past a See’s on my right when I saw the display of their new candy in the windows. It was red with cinnamon flavor and looked like stretched out Jolly Rancher’s.

There was a window in front for those customers who only wanted the samples. I was hoping someone would be there because I was wanting a sample but didn’t see anyone there, having to wait until they opened at 9:30.

I saw teenage girls showing up to buy some white clothes that were there. I was surprised that they would be here so early. I was thinking that they should be in church instead.

I walked past a guy on my right who was solemnly looking at some empty stores that had for rent signs. As I walked I said to him, “It will come” in a singing manner. I was thinking that it sounded like a song.

I was on an upper level and saw the outside tabby lying at the bottom of an escalator with his legs stretched to the left. I thought he looked dead but as I got closer I saw that he was only resting.

I was petting him and playfully said that we need to find orange (and white tabby who passed away before Christmas). There was a manager on my right and thought I was crazy talking to myself before he saw the cat.

I then saw orange below under a circular rack of clothes. I was able to pick him up before he got away.

I saw my head and shoulders as black. My hair was in twisted ponytail sections.

I dreamt that this shopping center was in Santa Barbara. There was a girl who had Tom Selleck (?) and Aaron Goodwin there for remodeling consultation. The store was to the left of the entrance.

She was inside holding a brick and slightly swaying it back and forth. Tom told her that there’s no better time to get started than the present. She then started hitting the white tiles with the brick.

Aaron took the rubber stripping from one of the entrance doors then moved the door to the right, creating an opening instead where the door was.

I was sitting outside, pointing to my wrist, letting a girl above know that it was time to be ready. It was 10:01 pm but still light out.

Needing

I asked, “Do I need to marry Ali to get rid of that (Utah) girl?” I dreamt that Amy said I’m supposed to drink champagne if I have a split tooth.

I dreamt that Drew Barrymore was part of my password for debt removal.

I dreamt of wind blowing a small section of grass toward me. It stopped in front of me and was in the shape of a rabbit. He asked me to help him. I asked him how. He said something about 7 fishes (?). He was then directing me where to get them.

I dreamt that I was driving a Prius in a slight bend to the left to enter the traffic there. I was driving pass potholes in the road that were being fixed up by regular people. One group I passed on the left all had black shirts with their company information on it.

There was a Hispanic woman standing on the outer right of the circle who wasn’t quite sure what to do next. I wanted to ask how they found out about being able to help with this.

I dreamt that I was in someone’s house needing to use the restroom to change my tampon. There were two boys rooms next to each other. The one on the right looked like there was a restroom in there on the left. I wasn’t sure about using that one in case the boy showed up. I then noticed that both rooms were filled with clothes everywhere. As I kept looking I didn’t see the restroom.

(From yesterday) Keep Forgetting

I asked the same question. I dreamt that a girl had bought an ice cream franchise. She then went around to the locations where the franchise was inside other businesses. She was wanting her business to have their own entrances. They kept telling her no. She got upset, going to her car with nothing more to say. A man saw a tiny hole in one of his walls, letting in some light. He wondered if it would be possible to make an entrance for her.

I dreamt that I was thinking the next time I have sex it would be for money. I looked down at my stomach and saw a couple small rolls. I may have been sitting. I wondered what the guy I would have sex with next would think of my body.

I also realized that I was black. Seems I knew my legs were still white. The coloring was the same as Ali, looking as if I had been dusted with cocoa powder. As I was looking at my skin I started to feel sick.

I dreamt that I had a clear bag with different color yarns inside. There was an older black woman looking at them. I thought she was interested in them so I asked her if she wanted them.

I then saw a white girl sitting in front of me in a different location. I asked her if she still wanted the yarn. She said that that wasn’t her. I told her that I keep forgetting.

I then saw to my right a group of people walking my direction. I saw the black lady in the back on the right.

I dreamt that I was sitting at the end of a table with two extreme gay guys on my right. One of them gets on the table and streams some pee on my head. I knew what he was doing so I backed away. My mom said something about him not being who he really is. I then said said something to that effect also.

(From Jan. 10, 2020) Hurriedly

I asked the same question. I dreamt of Lori Loughlin and another woman, or two, coming out dressed in Christmas dresses with the tulle underneath, like a Santa’s helper would wear. They were having fun.

I was then inside her home. She had about three open landings to the left with fancy scroll work. Tom Selleck was a security guard. He had a serious face.

I heard someone mention a section of the house where there aren’t any windows. Tom then told the group of people to hurriedly leave the house. There were then two men in that section of house searching for these people to attack them.

I drteamt of being in a parking lot with a cop who was standing closely to my left. He helped me get my (Ali’s) car inflated. I turned to him, noticing that he had blonde hair, and thanked him. I wondered if he was the one in my earlier dream(s) who helped me.

A group of people were standing around the car as it was about to start inflating. A boy was standing on top. I kept telling him to get off. When he wouldn’t move I aggressively pulled him off.

As I was waking, I heard the “Watcher” from the New Jersey home, telling me to start gathering my things.

Still Alive

I dreamt that dad was driving us home on a route that always scared me because there was a part of the road that was steep going down.

I dreamt that I was in a dug out tightly compacted dirt square with a white dog who was just lying there in front of me. There may have been a small section in the left top corner that was wet.

Ali was standing above on the left top corner with a shovel. He had picked up the dog. I told him that the dog was still alive. He slightly threw up the shovel, moving it away, causing the dog to land on its feet.

It was thin as if it had been starved. It stood there for a bit and then went back into the dirt square to lay down again.

This scared me for some reason, causing me to suddenly wake and open my eyes.

I dreamt that Doris Day had died (singing part) which upset (saddened) me.

I dreamt that Steve (?) & I got on a guy’s big rig that he was using to transport people, like a bus service. There was another guy and the driver turned the vehicle around to take this guy to his destination. I was concerned/hopeful that he would turn back around to take us to ours.

I dreamt that there was a crowd of people who parted, like the Red Sea, because of something that was on the other side.

(From Oct. 20, 2019) Go Help

I dreamt that someone was trying to kidnap a young Steve. He was in another room behind me and to the right. I was having a hard time getting the headband off that I use to cover my eyes while sleeping so that I could go help.

I dreamt that I was looking at a brochure with Robert Mailhouse on it. He walked in front of me from right to left so I showed him what I was looking at.

(From Oct. 19, 2019) Fireworks

I dreamt of a Celine Dion video with a see thru filter/screen over it, like when ads pop up covering what you’re looking at. There was something on the screen but don’t remember what because something popped/clicked in my head then I was suddenly awake.

I dreamt that there were fireworks for something.

(From Oct. 18, 2019) Christmas

I dreamt of a young Shauna whose name was Emily instead. We were at a house (?) with a big bed with big/thick comforters. She got up on the left side of the bed wanting to snuggle in.

I was standing on the right side telling her we needed to go to her house (within walking distance) to clean up first. I think I was going to let her walk by herself if she didn’t come down because of how close her house was.

I dreamt of a handsome young Bill Gates. He had taken me into his RV. I was wondering if he was the one from an earlier dream with a well who was going to take care of me.

I was wearing a knee length skirt and no shoes. I don’t know if he had planned on picking me or if he chose me out of others. I don’t know why I was there. There was at least another female there who was connected to him. That may have been all.

I was able to “escape” but for some reason went back. Someone was discussing an issue that he took interest in but I said (out loud?) that he doesn’t believe in it and when I looked for him he was gone.

I dreamt that there was a semi long business building at the end of a parking lot. There were two businesses there. The one on the right was a Mexican restaurant called “Samaya” (?). I don’t remember what the left side was.

There were people standing in the parking lot. I don’t recall seeing any vehicles. On the restaurant side was a tall, skinny black man with a small group of people (or just standing by them) and dancing by himself. Ali was to my right though I didn’t see him. I was pointing out the black man to him.

On the left side, closer to us, where a group of people lining up horizontally. After a bit they started to dance.

I dreamt that I saw a picture of Christ sitting and looking to the 5 o’clock position. I was wanting to share the picture to some of the LDS groups I’m in and comment that Christmas in only a couple (3 or 4) days away.

Accepted It

I dreamt that there was a pile of dead people on top of the only survivor, who was looking out.

I dreamt that the orange and white cat was back (he passed Dec. 23) and at first it threw me off but then I accepted it.

(From Oct. 24, 2019) Playing

I saw a young Mexican couple with their two young children, boy & girl, who were playing.

I dreamt of an insect, bigger than a bee, flying around. There were some of those windows that are in strips, that look similar to blinds, that were open in front of me.

I had something in my left hand (cardboard?) trying to swat it out so it wouldn’t sting me. It was a female who I know. There were a couple people with me as well.

(From Oct. 23, 2019) Bauhaus

I dreamt of being with some people. I don’t know where we were. Briana was there. There was a guy with black hair. He had something of Bauhaus, or something that had the name written on it. I told him that all I remember is Peter Murphy saying, “Bela Lugosi”. Not the whole song but only those words.

There was also something about a round glass object that had the top broken off and I was worried about the cats walking over the pieces on the ground and the remaining piece that was there.

I dreamt of someone holding the end of a hose and water coming out on the left.

(From Oct. 22, 2019) Near Dead

I dreamt of a woman with fat in puches below her knees. She had a slim small fridge packed of food.

I dreamt of gathering cats in my left arm that were near dead.

(From Oct. 21, 2019) Not To Forget

I dreamt of looking at pictures from the movie Casablanca. There was a young couple also with me. I was saying that I had seen half the movie, telling them pieces of it, but couldn’t remember if it was the first or last.

I was then transported into a desert picture. The sand was white and smoother than I had felt before. I was looking up and it was dark (because of it being a picture). I was wondering if I would be able to climb up and what would I see/would I see light. Climbing up to the top had something to do with death.

I dreamt of an airplane that people were able to climb up and tour. I was on the steps looking down. Ali was there wearing a jacket/coat and standing among the people facing away from me on the right side.

I dreamt that after the events of the day, I was in a room with Barbie and grandma with some other people. We were wearing dark dresses, or Barbie and grandma were.

Barbie asked me if I was going to the wedding (Bethany) and I quietly told her no. She was a bit saddened by that but continued her walk out. After she passed me on my left, I saw her cane so picked it up and told her not to forget it, handing it to her.

Grandma stood up, facing me, from a chair that was in front of me at the end of a table. I knew she was there but hadn’t really noticed until she stood up.

She started walking toward me and I started toward her. I said hello to her as I softly patted her on her back.

Must Be Finished

I asked, “Is being a mother the next project?” I dreamt that I found out a girl bad been taking my mission newsletters all these years since I’ve been back. I took the one she was holding and she began to cry. I got so angry that I cursed at her and wanted to punch her but refrained. I then figured it doesn’t really matter now because I wouldn’t know/understand what’s going on.

I dreamt that I was with Kyle, or someone similar, who was lying naked on the floor with his head to the right. I was looking at his body structure and was thinking/noticing that it looked a little odd. He told me that I could do something with his body. When I didn’t move, he said that I must be finished. (It is finished, or needs to be finished?)

I dreamt that I was at the church with someone to watch a film. We were in the chapel when it was empty. This other person was doing something but not sure what. The people were in another room and I was wondering why the film couldn’t be shown here.

I was then in the cultural room/other room. There were rectangular tables. One of them was horizontal in front of me on my left. Another was vertical in front of me on my right.

I noticed some people from church from my teenage years at these tables. There were empty chairs on the right of the horizontal table, and some empty chairs at the beginning of the vertical table.

I didn’t feel comfortable sitting at the horizontal table, thinking more people from that church would show up. I decided I would sit at the vertical table but then people showed up. There was no place for me to sit.

I dreamt (same dream?) that a lady wanted to get a message to my dad. Gene was there so she told him. When Gene started responding, there was something weird going on with the right side of his face, as if it was paralyzed so that it was hard to understand him. As he continued talking it balanced out and was understandable/became clear.

This lady needed to use the restroom so I told her about one of the stalls at the entrance. There were about 3 or 4 that faced the door and barely had room for someone to fit.

The left side of the restroom wasn’t being used. The right side wasn’t totally dirty but it wasn’t totally clean either. It was as if the workers were lazy and the people using it were the ones keeping it up.

I dreamt (same one still?) about needing to repair a piece of jewelry, putting a small circle/enclosure/jump ring back on. I was either shrunken to see what I was doing, or I was using a magnifier. I, or someone else, was singing while doing this. There were a couple ants walking around.

The word, “Avino” came to mind.

(From yesterday) Shouldn’t Have Been Surprised

I asked the same question. I dreamt that there was a black Porsche parked in the driveway. The neighbors shouldn’t have been surprised since it had been there for a while.

I was slowly/lethargically waiting behind it for Judy and family to come out so we could go wherever we were going.

I dreamt that I was in a store with a bunch of Mexicans/Hispanics. One guy had money in his hand that looked old and was written all over on the sides.

There was a small thin old lady in a wheelchair who stood up for something. From the back she reminded me of grandma.

There was something that was black and white.

I was then in the parking lot to leave. I was at the end of an aisle driving slowly to turn left because there were so many cars. I didn’t want to hit anyone and so no one would hit me. There was a family standing in back of a car on the left. The whole scene looked dark.

David Bowie’s song “Man Who Sold the World” came to mind but it came through as “Boy Who Saved the World”.

(From Jan. 1, 2020) Need To

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I asked someone if I need to keep my (magic?) power to beat her (a witch). (Guessing the witch is the Utah girl.) I don’t think they were paying (much) attention.

I dreamt something with Wilhelm.

I dreamt that there was a salamander that was partially under my skin of my left thigh. It looked like a dragon, with parts of the back showing, like it had been sewn in. I had some tweezers and pulling it out.

I heard someone say to have Ali ask the question again (the one I asked).

I saw Victor Webster in snow bending over to pick some up. There may have been a bush behind him. He was wearing a red and white striped snowflake sweater.

I heard a girl sing, “There is no cottage.”

(From Dec. 31, 2019) It Is

I asked the same question. I dreamt that Ali was telling me, “It’s not fair.”

The word “Tanaray” came to mind.

Wasn't Much Left

I dreamt that I was standing in the bathroom and inserting a tampon, having a little fun with it first. Thinking of Ali, I think I told someone who was there that I didn’t know why I was using it since there wasn’t much left.

I dreamt that he had something in the garage for me and wanted me to go with him to look.

I dreamt that while I was looking at the black neighborhood cat outside, I was thinking that if there are any new cats who come around that they will stay outside so that I won’t get attached to them.

(From yesterday) Back Together

I asked, “What do I need to see, that I’m not seeing, to get rid of that (Utah) girl?” I dreamt that Mark told me that there were some people who put some feces (his word) in some library books and that it’s going to get worse.

I don’t know where I was but I saw several key chain rings in a bowl with items on them that looked like mine. I then searched to see if mine were there but didn’t see them. (When I was waking, I wondered why I didn’t think that someone could’ve taken mine and separated them and I needed to put them back together.)

There was a horse and I had a knowing that he had a military rank and some people promoted him to a higher rank to give them an excuse to fight those people who had previously done something wrong to the horse.

This horse was then standing in front of me to the left a short distance. There were other people on my left. The horse was facing forward. A couple people had whips (I didn’t see what they were holding but assumed this is what they were) and whipped the horse on the left butt cheek. It wasn’t hard and they only did it a couple times.

These people were then kneeling and bending down to the horse, who may have laid down by now, paying tribute to him. I was confused by this and said, “He’s just a horse.”

I dreamt that Ali had brushed my right breast with his hand. I had a feeling that it was getting to be too much for him for us not be physical and so wanted to get married.

I dreamt that the orange cat was getting better. (He had stopped eating.)

I dreamt something about Norway and something about a hat.

(From Dec. 20, 2019) Able To Move

I asked the same question. (Previous nights the dreams were erased.) I dreamt that I was wearing shorts (plaid? vertical stripes?) and standing in front of Tom and a black guy who was on Tom’s left. They were both sitting.

Someone with me told me that Tom applied to Phoenix college. I asked him, “In what?” He was telling me when I was wakened by that girl.

Tom had his right arm stretched out with his hand rubbing my chest up and down a little. I was worried because he slightly felt the hair on my neck area. I then figured that he might be the man from my dreams who doesn’t care, or at least doesn’t show, about that.

I dreamt that the mother cat let me pet her, or that I was able to pet her.

I dreamt of a ship, at least the word came to me as I was waking.

I dreamt that I had a checklist and marriage was listed.

Before waking someone told me to turn the candle over.

I dreamt the I was lying on the couch where the cats are and let the Siamese girl go outside/didn’t stop her. I then realized what I had done and frantically went to the glass door to let her in. Thankfully she was next to the house and came in on her own.

I then saw the mother and her daughter out there, to the left. The daughter looked like she was stuck in a shopping cart frame, without the basket, that was tipped forward. When I went to get her out, I saw that she wasn’t stuck and was able to move.

Be With Someone Else

I asked the question, “Don’t do what?” (Nov. 1, 2019) I dreamt that my skin on my legs was opening up in different spots. Some were small holes and some were big. One of the big ones was on my left thigh.

There was a computer motherboard in there. I was frantic about what was happening to me. I tried to look inside my leg to see all that was there but could only see a little.

There must’ve been people around me, or at least one person, who I was trying to get their attention to help me.

I dreamt that I was by the closets in my room with a new husband. I was thinking it was weird to be with someone else. There were several small open bags of cat food in the closet with the tops rolled down.

One of them was separated from the others on the left so I brought it over with the others. I wasn’t wearing any pants.

(From yesterday) Didn’t Care

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I either saw a picture, or in person, a naked woman bending over, with the head up to. There were different animals (with their hands?) going up her back. I was thinking of supporting her by coloring them in (if a picture) or giving her money.

I dreamt of Ali telling me that he wants to “pack it in” (have sex).

I dreamt that I was naked, sitting with my knees covering my breasts. I was with people and didn’t care that others saw. We were getting ready to go to church. There was a female who wore a dress with spaghetti straps that went down past her breasts. She looked like a prostitute. She had on a lot of makeup. I wondered what the people at church would react/think of her.

After sacrament meeting, or after all of the services, I was walking in the back of the chapel from right to left. I saw an older man standing behind a cafeteria style cart giving out food. At first I wasn’t going to say anything, but as I got closer I decided to.

I mentioned to him that (I thought) we’re not supposed to do business on Sunday. He responded, “We’re not.” I then realized that that was true because I didn’t see any money being exchanged.

I dreamt that a guy told me, at the church, that he likes to hear me sing.

(From Nov. 2012) Swollen

I dreamt that my hands were swollen.

(From Dec. 18, 2019) Acting

I asked the same question. I dreamt that Ali & I have our beds next to each other. His was on the left. I started fingering myself, thinking he would want to do some also. He didn’t as he fell asleep once he laid down on the bed.

I then felt something at the left corner of the foot of my bed. I’m not able to move my head to look over at Ali. I start having trouble breathing, as if there’s a lot of smog.

I’m able to move my hands so I start grabbing the edges of the bed and try to cast her out so he knows she’s there but she won’t let me speak the words and no sound comes out. He doesn’t respond.

I then start calling out for mom, still moving my hands. Ali still doesn’t respond.

Before waking, the phrase, “Pita is an Outback (Australia) woman.”

I dreamt that I was standing on the right side of Ali’s lifted bed, noticing a red/maroon towel folded half over with the open side to the foot of the bed. It was up by his pillow under his blankets. I thought that was weird, but then it wasn’t because he does weird stuff.

I dreamt that I was on the right side of another lifted bed. There’s a black woman with either a Hispanic or Arabic man. I didn’t get a good look. I was holding her hand. They’re acting.

She’s wearing pajama’s. At first they’re asleep, but she then says something to him (about me?). I look away to my right as he gets up. There’s something reflective in front of me. I see his hairy legs under the covers, realizing that he’s naked, which surprises me.

A second later, after getting dressed, he’s on top of her, giving her a hard thrust./hump It startled me so I let go. She laughs at that and tells the guy that I jumped back because of this.