Worker

I asked, “Why am I black?” I dreamt that mom had gone to a medical facility to have a procedure done. I asked one of the workers about the paperwork. They hadn’t looked at it yet. (From yesterday) Woman I asked the same question. I dreamt that on a Friday Amy timidly said that she was going to dinner. I said ok. When she got back I realized that she had gone to the dinner that had been set up by Judy and Sara (?) for mom. I had forgotten about it because Amy didn’t say where she was going. … Continue reading Worker

Time To Go

I dreamt of a tall mirrored high rise building. I dreamt of a gated abandoned house/building with several stories. I dreamt that I had pooped a slightly curved tan “brick”, leaving it on top of the toilet. I had some dark remnants on my right leg on the top of my thigh under my belly. It was Micalanne’s turn to clean. She was poking it with a stick and smelling it, not smelling anything, trying to figure out what it was. I put the brick in a hole above the seat the size of the brick and flushed it. I … Continue reading Time To Go

Go Through

I asked, “What’s the meaning of mountains?” I was dreaming about a video documentary I’ve been watching called “An Open Secret” about child actor sexual abuse. I dreamt that there were some construction guys building a house for a family with an additional section for me and someone else. Someone may have asked the question of what their favorite show was and one of the guys enthusiastically said, “Home Town!” I was thinking that either it was my favorite show also or one that I really liked. I was then crawling on the street the house was on, picking up … Continue reading Go Through

Give More Heat

I asked, “What do I do with the limes?” I saw a black family coming through a door to visit one of the females. The door opened to the right with the female standing at the end. One of the guys stopped in front of her and kissed her face, having fun. His hair was about to the nape of his neck and was twisted / spiraled / curled. I dreamt that I was with someone and we were finding coins outside by a grate. I mostly was finding pennies but occasionally found dimes. One of the coins I found … Continue reading Give More Heat

Same Weight

(From March 17, 2018) (I don’t remember the exact order of these dreams.) I dreamt that I had returned, from a mission, to live with mom and dad. We went to church. The Relief Society door had been moved to the left a couple feet. I was thinking that the ladies would notice my age and that I’m still the same weight.  I dreamt that I was on a fast roller coaster, in the dark / at night, that wound through on the streets. I made a comment, to the lady next to me, something about imagining living in the … Continue reading Same Weight

Didn’t Want To

I asked, “Is there anything Ali remembers where he questioned the relationship with that girl?” I dreamt that there was a bright light / it was lit up next to my head as I was in bed. I didn’t want to open my eyes / look. I dreamt of Julia Roberts / Nicole Kidman sitting in front of me on my right, facing the bottom left. She was wearing big 80’s style glasses. The left side frame, and lens, were darker, as if shades / sunglasses. I was thinking that that was interesting. She was talking to a group of … Continue reading Didn’t Want To

Me?

I asked, “Mando has the same energy as who?” I dreamt something about genealogy. I was telling someone / someone was being told that they’re not living up to Mrs. Brown. I dreamt that I was backstage to see Madonna and U-2. “Madge”, as someone called her, said that she was sick, throwing up all night. I said that if she ate healthier foods, she wouldn’t be so sick. I saw a line of people, facing left, standing outside, waiting to get in. I saw Ali excitedly walking by these people because he was excited to be there, and he … Continue reading Me?

I Keep Going 

(From Jan. 17, 2015) I was sleeping in bed. My mom comes next to me, and tells me that it’s time to go to bed. I don’t open my eyes. I want to continue sleeping. She turns off the small fan I have beside me. She then wants to show me a newspaper with an article about Oprah, who had brought an older (70’s?) black lady on her show (when she had it), who had taken care of three (at different times) returned vets. Oprah had brought one of them to the show as a surprise. When he started walking … Continue reading I Keep Going 

Feel the Empty Space

(Night before I asked why I was called “The Mother”) A guy was cozying up with me, talking with me. I realized that I hadn’t brushed my teeth yet, but didn’t worry too much about it since he didn’t seem to notice / be affected by it. Someone, Ali ?, mentioned that I hadn’t brushed my teeth, so I told him that I had been chewing (minty) gum. My top left tooth, next to my “fang”, came out. I was looking behind it, where there was some of my gums (normal, supposed to be there), to figure out why it … Continue reading Feel the Empty Space

Who Is He?

I was with my family. I was hearing about Greg’s death. (I was with my late husband when I heard.) I stopped talking, withdrew emotionally, and became sullen / melancholy. There were times I would walk by myself, and would stop, and start to cry, though not heavy. At the church for the funeral, Briana was several rows in front of me. She turned back, and motioned to me that at home, she was able to see me across the street in my home. There was a fluffy thing in my bedroom while I stayed at Briana’s. It was made … Continue reading Who Is He?