Dying

I asked the same question. I dreamt that mom was going to be “euthanized”. Her right arm was in something similar to a blood pressure cuff, but fitting her whole arm, and in water. 

She was confused as to what was happening, and I didn’t understand why it was happening. She was to fall asleep, and that would be when she passes.

I dreamt that some people (Maine Cabin Masters?) had an old white small dog and were taking it out to a dirt area / field to end its life. I was thinking that I was able to understand when it came to the dog because it had done something where I could see the health was affected.

I dreamt that I was driving on the right side, and wasn’t able to slow down fast enough before hitting a white Tesla that was in front of me. I don’t remember why the traffic was slowing down.

The back of the Tesla did get crunched some, but not too tragically. I was waiting for them to pull over so that we could exchange information. I was concerned because it was Ali’s car.

There was a Tesla dealership up ahead a small distance with a u turn / circular entrance, which the car used to exchange for a newer model, never coming back out, so I continued on.

I dreamt of a young Mexican girl (20’s?) who had married an older (40’s?) man. They had been drinking and she got drunk, having a good time and laughing. He then drove somewhere. As they were going, she had a concerned look on her face for a couple seconds then went back to laughing.

After arriving wherever they were going, he passed out on top of her as she was in the drivers seat. She quickly was driving back home, in that situation with him on her, when he woke / roused for only a couple seconds.

I dreamt of a young Mexican girl (same?) who was on video, new on her job. She may have been a reporter. The ladies behind the cameras were telling her to turn on / push the record button. She wasn’t getting it so one of them came over and did it.

I dreamt something with a heavy rain.

I dreamt that Kyle woke me up for work. He was standing on my right, leaning over me. It was still dark so I had to situate to find his lips to kiss.

I dreamt that the orange and white tabby had a certain job to do.

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Beetle

I asked, “Who / What keeps entering my body?” I dreamt that I was out in an open space / field and a black beetle was flying toward me. I first used my hand to block it, but then used a notebook / journal. I didn’t like the feeling / the way the beetle felt on / against my hand.

I dreamt that mom was going to go to the temple (Mic or Amy asked / invited her?) but Micalanne mentioned that maybe she should stay back / home because there was so much to do to get ready. I was wondering if this was a way to keep her from going, or if it was because there was so much to do to get ready.

I dreamt that I was up in the mountains where the hawks gather. There were two that flew straight above me. I then saw a car / truck, with a family, coming toward me, and also a guy on a bike, wearing shades.

I started to get anxious that this guy was supposed to be my husband (the hawks). He came toward me to set his bike, but didn’t further come toward me.

I dreamt that there were a bunch of clouds (?), where I was, with writing on the top of them. Whenever a Russian, of any age, came by, the cloud had to be flipped over so that the Russians wouldn’t see the writing. I was asking someone why. A pre teen (?) boy was jogging past me, from left to right, on smooth rocks / boulders.

I dreamt that I was watching a play. The blonde narrator was off to the left. He would sometimes slightly sing the words. In the beginning (not the play, think Star Wars) Joseph (Mary) had seen / saw something and cringed. I don’t know if it was the beginning before he was with Mary, or if it was the beginning of the relationship.

I dreamt that I was in a school. It wasn’t a typical one. The architecture was like in Harry Potter (?). I was in a classroom, sucking my right breast and fell asleep. I woke when children started filing in. I asked if it was 3 o’clock already. I was wearing a white top where the back was gathered / pulled up  / in together in the middle so that my garment top was shown.

(From Jan 25, 2018 Waiting)

I dreamt that I was lying next to Kyle, on his right side, watching tv. We were discussing a diy show that was just on, called “Bargain Mansions”. Something about her waiting until it gets dark to show it? 

There’s a window in / on the wall to my right, close enough for me to touch the blinds. As we’re talking, we hear noises outside which sound like someone may be (playing) out there with the cats. I attempt to separate the blinds to see what it was, but I’m not able to.

A man then speaks in a (loud) whisper, as if wanting to influence me, asking, “Do you love me, Becky Boo / Buu? Do you love me?” (The second question, I wake up, and realize that it’s coming from a man in my room.)

I dreamt that I was telling my mom about this. This man was trying to push my arms / hands down to my pelvic area. There were dad’s suit coats, so I grabbed on to one so that he wouldn’t have power over me. I wasn’t able to tell mom about hearing his voice because he stopped me / wouldn’t let me. 

(From Jan 24, 201  Fireworks)

I dreamt that I was looking down at some hills a bit in the distance. There were some fireworks going off, but weren’t the usual. Maybe more like electrical fireworks, and the colors were more of pastel / neon / LED. 

I was only wearing my top garment as I was watching. There were several other people there as well. I then excitedly said that I better get dressed, as I walk toward the bedroom. A guy looked over me as I walked past. I wasn’t sure what all he saw.

Lying

I asked, “Is there someone, masquerading as me, appearing and talking to Ali?” I don’t remember the order of these. They may also be within the same dream.

I dreamt that a girl had an abortion (?). I didn’t see her, but sensed that she was lying down. We were waiting, in a hallway, for her verdict / sentencing for doing so. 

There was something about women / this girl who decide whether or not to have (more) children, based on the good / fun times, or all the messes and tiredness.

I dreamt that I was watching a video / performance of a band who were singing a song, in first person, about being / about to become extinct(ion). I was thinking that one of the guys wasn’t actually making any noise, only moving his mouth. It looked similar to the performance of Greased Lightning from the movie Grease, standing on the cars.

I dreamt about Oprah, but she was white, and I knew that she had a grown son. We were using pencils to fill in a picture for a contest. I don’t know how big the picture was. I either said out loud, or only thought, jokingly, “What’s a woman to do with all that money?”

I dreamt that I was looking out back and there was a gorilla and a small black terrier at the back of the backyard (about 30 – 50 yards back) looking back at me, waiting for me to bring them some food. They were standing separate from each other, a couple feet between them, the dog on the left. They were sitting still, just looking at me, and waiting.

I dreamt about a lady and her week old baby. I mentioned how big is, because it looked like it was a month, or more. I also mentioned that it was weird that a week ago the baby wasn’t here.

(From Feb 9, 2018 Get Ali)

I dreamt that a gay guy was in one of the rooms of the house, though it looked different, doing the “white glove” test, without the gloves. 

After seeing some dust, he said that I should get Ali to clean this room. I was thinking that it was my job to clean that room, but didn’t say anything.

(From Feb 7, 2018 Layers)

I dreamt of being at a fashion show and the dresses (at least the bottom since I didn’t see the top) looked like the southern belle type, but only half (or a third?) as full, and had layers. 

I remember seeing two dresses. One of them looked like it was made with scraps of fabric going all directions. The other one looked like it had shoes at the waist. I’m sure there were others, but I don’t remember them.

I dreamt that I was inside a room inside a building. The floor I was on looked like an office floor with the doors belonging to different companies.

It looked a little dark, as they are sometimes portrayed, but not in a scary way. I was at the door, and Ivana Trump was at the door in the hallway. 

For some reason, I asked her if the name “Vanna” meant anything. She started repeating, saying a poem / saying in her language, then said what Vanna meant. I can’t remember what she said.

She passed by again, and I asked her something, about her, but she wasn’t able to fully respond because a lady down the hallway, to the left, was calling for her. 

(From Feb 6, 2018 Went Away)

I dreamt about a dirty family consisting of the parents, and a grown son. The father was wearing a white muscle shirt that was slit down the front middle.

I dreamt about a hose staying still up in the air, curved, holding up water, per se. There was a black lab (?) dog in the water, moving around, like it was normal. I touched the hose, and the water went away.

I dreamt about a couple of teens (?) putting spraying foam on a wall. I think above some windows. I think a man showed up, and they felt as if they were caught doing something they shouldn’t, so they crashed through some / the windows.

Ready To Move 

(From April 5, 2018)

I dreamt that there was a story competition and I couldn’t decide whether to write a regular story or one about two friends walking along the beach. 

I dreamt about a wealthy woman in the 1800’s getting ready to move.

I dreamt about a dachshund wanting to cross a stream but it got caught in the water (flowing to the right) so I put my right (?) foot in the water to keep it from going down. I think I gave it to Mark, who was standing on the other side.

I dreamt of a picture of a woman from the 1800’s that was titled “Golden Grandfather”. People were claiming that there was an older man’s spirit on the woman’s right side, and had put a circle there. I could only make something out of it by staring.

I dreamt that I was looking at a picture of the spirit lady but I couldn’t see her but did see bits of light on the edges.

(From March 30, 2018 Feed The Cats)

I dreamt that I didn’t get to sleep until a couple hours before I had to get up to feed the cats. 

(From March 29, 2018 Open The Blinds)

I dreamt that I opened the blinds, at the big windows, in the morning and then was going to mix a “recipe” for a glass cleaner I had read about earlier. There was a guy there also.

I was getting the paper towels ready that would be needed. As I was doing so, the cats were looking outside as if waiting for an animal to come past the garage by the wall. None came but I saw that the room was still dark so I pushed open the blinds and the sun shone through to light up the room.

I dreamt that I was with Ali (in the house?) and there was a dark (?) purplish mist that started to form / shape into a woman and then flew past me on my left side.

Relaxed 

(From April 13, 2018)

I dreamt that I decided to get sexual with Ali in my room. I had my shirt off and was sucking him. I started to hesitate, thinking that I was hearing spirit voices by the front door / area. The cats were coming in the room, Ali was getting sleepy / relaxed. 

I then heard Sara’s and mom’s voices out by the dining table. I let Ali go, putting on my shirt so they wouldn’t see me, realizing that the front door had been left unlocked.

After putting my shirt on, Ali slumped on the bed and started to disappear until he was gone. I kept looking, watching, wondering where he went. I was getting emotional.

I started walking to the bedroom door, slowly, still looking back, wondering about him and watching for him. When I got to the door, I saw mom, dad, Amy (?) all in conversation, standing at the right end of the table. Dad looked strong and healthy. 

I stood there, visibly shaken, silently crying outside, hard sobbing inside, waiting for them to notice, still watching him Ali. Mom finally came over to me. I think I may have told her that he disappeared, but not sure.

I dreamt of directly going to him when he comes out of his room. 

(From April 12, 2018 Managed Well)

I dreamt of a young woman being able to afford an expensive apartment (?) because her money had been managed well during her husbands sickness and eventual death. 

I dreamt that Ali was sitting behind me. I pulled my shirt down to expose my breasts. He grabbed them. He then was in front of me, sucking on my right breast. He gave a little of what could have been a disgusted look on his face and let go. My first thought was that he didn’t like the feel of the little bit of hair that I had and thought how Kyle didn’t even notice them until the end. 

I dreamt of a long rectangular warehouse that I think had sections inside. I was outside. Seems one of the sections was a place for go – karts where you could go to lay low. 

Pregnancy

I asked, “How do I find a way out?” I dreamt that I was in the beginning (within 4 months) of being pregnant and some liquids / fluids were coming / leaking out of me, which was normal (for pregnant women), and a little bit of green diarrhea. I was grossed out by it and was (almost) crying. 

I dreamt that I was pregnant (same duration) in Bible times (area, Rome? felt like it) at night, but I was wearing modern clothes. 

There was a diagonal opening, between two walls (?), to the left (like on the freeway). The one on the left had some glowy turquoise (?) color at the end, as if it had been dipped. The color was the color identity of the people on that side. 

I started to leave, and got about a football field length away. The people were frantically searching for “the” baby. I decided to go back.

I showed, what looked like a hospital bracelet that I had on my left wrist, to one of the searchers. I either mentioned, or it was written on the bracelet, that this baby had traveled / will have traveled the most miles. This was significant as it put the baby on the same level of importance as Christ.

I dreamt that I was outside at night at someone’s house (?) looking up at the sky and it looked like a bunch of orbs covering the sky. The wife, who was inside, had a name for it but don’t remember. Orb was in the name.

I dreamt that I was in a bed next to the right of another two person bed. I don’t know if it was big enough to be a queen. A young Steve was lying on the left side of that bed. 

I was looking at a gif of a forest / nature scene that had a black oval / thumbprint shape, tilted / leaning a bit to the left, show up in the front middle of the scene. It was there for several seconds then left.

Mom, and Steve (as he is now) came in. Mom was wearing a (black?) robe, covering herself, not wearing garments. I was thinking of asking Steve for a blessing, and that way the family w /could find out about the pregnancy. They left with me forgetting to ask.

The young Steve then moved over to my side of that bed and I was pushing him back over.

I dreamt of bike riding (the last of it) with a black guy and we decided to sit and rest / take a break where some people were. 

I then was holding only the frame of my bike, to set it down. After doing so, and turning back around to sit, I noticed that the guy was sitting in front of me. 

I started to get up to move forward to be next to him, on his left. He then raised up some money, with his right hand, telling me to get a drink. I asked him if he wanted anything and he skittishly said no.

I dreamt that I was in water (mid calf?) with a bunch of frogs. I didn’t want to touch them, and didn’t want them to touch me. I wanted out of there.

I dreamt that I was in an inexpensive store, with a couple other people. As we were leaving, or going to another section, to the left, I noticed several suitcases piled on their side on the floor. I thought that they looked like temple bags / cases.

I dreamt that I was in a store (same?) that had car rides (like the train rides) for the children while the parents were shopping. I may have been pregnant again. I was sitting in line, up front, with the other children. 

There were some already seated, waiting for the ride to begin. They didn’t seem bothered by the wait. While waiting, I saw (in mind?) a real vehicle driving, and seeing the bumps / vibrations from it moving (like in a movie / show).

Up ahead, to the right, was a doorway / opening to go to a different section. I saw lights beaming in to the store on the other side. It was from parents coming to pick up their child / children. I then wondered if that was so, or if someone / thing was going to walk in where I was, with the lights. No one / thing did.

A lady then showed up, walking from behind me on my left, to the aisle in front of me where the children were waiting, walking to the left, to pick up her daughter (didn’t see), saying that it was the second day of freedom everlasting. I assumed that she meant from her husband and that they would always have money so that she didn’t have to work.

I dreamt of seeing a girl in a shopping cart (same store?) looking back to the space behind the cart, and talking. She was in front of me to my right. I wanted to ask her who she was talking to but didn’t know if I should.

She then saw me looking at her and froze for a couple seconds then started back up again. I figured that whoever she was talking with told her that I’m ok and won’t think that she’s crazy.

Pressure

(From April 19, 2018)

I asked who the spirit lady is, and asked what her purpose is. I dreamt something about me being pressured to do something.

I dreamt something about being an old soul.

I dreamt of a sandstorm coming on me from behind, but I had a blanket to cover me. 

I dreamt about reading a scripture that was one, or two verses long that was an answer to a guy’s question, mentioning something about writing. 

The thought came to me about being ready for summer.

(From April 18, 2018 Shave It)

I dreamt that I was driving him on some back streets to the back of Stater Bros. (grocery store). The houses looked different. I saw an older couple, from church, walking up their driveway to the house. 

On the sidewalk was a young lady who I thought looked like one of Ali’s past students. A few feet behind her was a tall guy, who had mental problems, wearing headphones and jumping up and down, dancing to the music. Both of these were mixed race. I mentioned to Ali that they looked like his students. 

I drove up the beginning of the parking lot, with there being a little hill / bump to drive over. It took some slow power to get over it but I knew the lot would be smooth after.

Ali told me to “Shave it baby, Shave it”, meaning about my pubic area.

(From April 17, 2018 Let Him Hear)

I dreamt of a grey long bed truck with a woman driver. 

I dreamt that I was crossing a street with water on it. There were three cars waiting for me to cross. The first one got impatient and went in front of me, turning left. I was slipping a couple times on the water but never fell, always managing to keep my balance.

I dreamt that I was with other people having a fun time (?) when I heard a man quietly say that it was time to go (to another fun place?). 

The scripture, “He who hath ears to hear, let him hear” came to me.

Be Shown

I asked, “How do I go back and change my past?” I dreamt that I was with a group of people and we were waiting for a beluga whale to come and be shown to us. There was a guy up front, right corner, singing his songs, playing his guitar, while we were sitting and waiting. Seems that Michelle and Suzanne were there.

The people weren’t paying too much attention, though they heard. I was saying, to a couple of them, that it’s because there isn’t any feeling / passion, and they agreed.

Behind us were two “cages” to go in if we wanted when the whale got here. There were also a line of metal things in front of them, in different sizes (to show / measure different sizes?). 

As it got closer for the whale to show, I got emotional and started crying, wanting to be protected in a cage. 

There was a line of some of the guys, who were mentally slower, who were going in to the cage on the right (when looking forward to where the whale would be). Philip was at the end wanting to get in, not because he was scared.

As I was walking in, I was thinking how I’m almost 47, and I’m this emotional and crying, but then thought that it’s ok because of how big the whale is (I was feeling like it was as big as a humpback whale). When it arrived, there was a “pool” of water going horizontally in front of us, only big / wide enough to fit him.

I was in the cage and a handsome man, with dark hair, came walking toward me ( cage protection is now gone) with the whale walking, on his right, on his tail. When the man was on my left, and the whale on his left, he asked if I (lived with any?) complaints. I immediately told him no.

As he was walking toward me, someone said blue, as if saying “blue – ga whale”. 

There was something about showing his round nose.

I dreamt that I was talking with Briana and telling her about this dream, emphasizing that I was emotional. I was naked while I was telling her. I kept getting interrupted by mom and dad, who were in another room, saying that the whale is coming / appearing soon.

Toluca (used to be my mom’s black lab guide dog) even came in to my room and excitedly grabbed a pink bath sponge / pouf, threw it up in the air, and then left. I then went out, and had my garments on.

I dreamt that I wasn’t able to download a ticket to go see the whale because I didn’t have a computer. I was saying this to a young (teen?) skinny boy, thinking he would catch on to my dilemma and help out, but he didn’t, for either.

I then was at a four – way stop, and for some reason, wasn’t able to go the direction I wanted, at first, but eventually did. It felt chaotic as to not being able to get where I wanted.

When I finally got to where I was headed (crossing the street), there was a Christian / religious (?) man there, as if waiting for me, who smiled at me and then left.

I saw a hill (?) to my right and climbed it. There were small trees / branches (?). I grabbed one and threw it down, saying that it was mine. It may have glowed? This was to be my ticket.

I dreamt of someone putting “butter” (I think it’s called) down in a shower for putting in tiles. A guy there didn’t want to touch / get involved with it.

The thought came to me that Ray is the boozy way.

Change 

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was on the / a top bunk, with clothes still on because I was too tired to change, waiting for the lights to go out / be turned off. Something started happening with my body. Pain? Ill? I don’t remember.

I dreamt that the cats were still outside late at night, seeing the Siamese, and I was wondering how I was going to get them back in. They eventually did come back in except for the “outside” boy because he likes to be out during the night.

I dreamt that I was at a hospital, don’t remember why. The beginning had something to do with a girl who came to see a guy she used to date, (who is a doctor)? His hair was between blonde and strawberry. Fair / light colored. 

She went to do something and he told a coworker that he’ll (dr) have to wait to take her to his house because it’ll be awkward with his (ex?) wife there.

I then was looking for a seat and saw a row of four connected seats, with a lesbian at the left end, so I took the right end, moving a magazine. She was with another lesbian, who was standing somewhere else, and was a little “off”. 

The one standing came over to me asking if I had seen a medicine bottle. I looked behind the seats and saw a bottle, with the last of it (red), in the trash so I told her no. After telling her no, she said something else before leaving. I later saw this bottle / medicine in the middle inside a cake.

I dreamt that I was looking at a picture (in a book? with her?) of a fetus (she pronounced it differently), and animated slowly to show what was happening as it was growing. (It was cut in half?)

I dreamt that I was to be on one of those home shows at 2 / 2:30, where the people look for a house and then fix it up. I was watching one of the shows where a woman was inside a house that had a lowered portion of the kitchen island (?) in front of the sinks that had an outlet on the right side. That was pointed out to her, not remembering what was said.

The house looked like it may have been on the outskirts of the city / town. The roads weren’t paved, that I noticed, and the house was situated on a lot that was at / on an angle. She was excited that there wasn’t room for extra parking (for uninvited guests?). 

This may have been the show that came on before mine, which was supposed to be in real time. I went to the people involved with the show as I wasn’t there when the show was to start, and wondering how it was to go on without me there. I don’t remember the / my outcome of me not being there.

The show before mine was repeated. I then came back and showed them the contract where it showed, in two places, that I would be given a reminder, but I had received none.

Blood 

I asked, “What do I need to do to leave Ali’s house?” I dreamt something about blood.

I dreamt that I was in mom and dad’s bathroom, with another female (girl? woman?). I don’t remember why.

I was standing with my left leg up on the tub (?) and pulled out a full bloody tampon. Some fell on the tiles / grout and a couple drops looked like gel but not as dark. It was like the one used for cakes.

I was concerned about the grout but this female knew how to clean it up and started looking through a top drawer to find what she needed.

(From May 19, 2018 Mother)

I asked, “Who am I?” I was thinking, and feeling, that I’m a mother.

(From May 18, 2018 Book of Scripture)

I dreamt that I was driving the big truck that I want. Dark blue. I was at a corner at a stop light to turn right and I had to make sure that the brakes were working so that I didn’t come out in front of the oncoming traffic.

Amy (and Micalanne?) were waiting for me at an empty lot that was there at the corner. I drove in and stopped the truck.

I dreamt that Kyle was alive again and married to another girl. I had a distaste for him. I don’t know why.

I had a bed in the living room (?). A sofa bed? We may have been living at Amy’s.

(Don’t remember exact order of these next ones.) I was in my bed on Sunday morning, with eyes closed, when I heard this girl walking around and quietly say, “Book of Scripture” and another book that I don’t remember the title but may have been written by one of the church leaders, or / a prophet.

Amy was looking for these books and I made mention to her what I had heard. Either I, or Amy, then said that this girl has things to talk to / with the Bishop.

I was in Kyle and this girls bed. I was on his right. He asked her what she wanted for breakfast and she mentioned a certain type of taco. After he left, still in bed, she had his pills in a cup for him. I asked / said that he still takes his pills. She asked / said something about us not being together anymore. I replied that he had died.

Earlier in the dream she was talking about some people she had had sex with. One of them was her second cousin. She now was coming on to me. Telling me that she wanted me to suck her labia, but she used a different word, so I asked her to repeat it but she said never mind / don’t worry about it.

I was thinking that this would be my chance to see what it was like to be with another female, but I wondered if she was clean. I figured that we could do it the next day, Monday, when Amy was at work.

The Bishop and his wife came over for a visit. This girl asked who they were and then she disappeared.

Mom came back from a Dr appointment. She was standing tall and straight with her long hair. She had her weight spread out on her hips / waist. She was wearing a tank top with her shirt and garment top in her hand (s), as if she didn’t have time to change.

Her right temple of her glasses was broken off of her glasses with her still wearing it. I asked her what happened. I don’t remember.

Either Amy, or mom, brought in the mail. She didn’t have too much in her hands but she did have some for me. When she gave it to me, on the floor, there were tons of pictures in the envelopes that they come in after being developed.

The pictures of life with Kyle and I was so happy that I almost wanted to cry. One of the pictures was of our (dream) house that was two stories and at the corner entrance of the street.

The right side of the house was parallel with the main street (when inside looking front). Seems that the house may have been a subdued yellow. On the sidewalk between side of house and street had several big horses facing me. The front one seems to have been black.

The picture wasn’t totally clear. I had a couple muted broken black and white lines going horizontally across with muted black and white snow (?) covering the whole picture. These were not obscuring the picture but were enough to be seen.

The horses all of a sudden came to life galloping toward me and did this a couple times as if it were a gif. The horses then stopped, and when they did, the horses were sideways with some facing the street and some facing the house with heads down as if feeding.

I dreamt that I was talking to Ali, naming the streets where he lived in the beginning of living here in the states. He had love back then.

I then named a street that I assume was the one when he was at the University of Utah. It was ____ Ranch Rd. I said that he had a child there. I think I may have mentioned the next street. I asked him where the love went / what happened.

I dreamt seeing a (circular?) pergola with those tiny outdoor lights and a bunch of pinecones. I wanted to take a picture but decided not to.