Beetle

I asked, “Who / What keeps entering my body?” I dreamt that I was out in an open space / field and a black beetle was flying toward me. I first used my hand to block it, but then used a notebook / journal. I didn’t like the feeling / the way the beetle felt on / against my hand.

I dreamt that mom was going to go to the temple (Mic or Amy asked / invited her?) but Micalanne mentioned that maybe she should stay back / home because there was so much to do to get ready. I was wondering if this was a way to keep her from going, or if it was because there was so much to do to get ready.

I dreamt that I was up in the mountains where the hawks gather. There were two that flew straight above me. I then saw a car / truck, with a family, coming toward me, and also a guy on a bike, wearing shades.

I started to get anxious that this guy was supposed to be my husband (the hawks). He came toward me to set his bike, but didn’t further come toward me.

I dreamt that there were a bunch of clouds (?), where I was, with writing on the top of them. Whenever a Russian, of any age, came by, the cloud had to be flipped over so that the Russians wouldn’t see the writing. I was asking someone why. A pre teen (?) boy was jogging past me, from left to right, on smooth rocks / boulders.

I dreamt that I was watching a play. The blonde narrator was off to the left. He would sometimes slightly sing the words. In the beginning (not the play, think Star Wars) Joseph (Mary) had seen / saw something and cringed. I don’t know if it was the beginning before he was with Mary, or if it was the beginning of the relationship.

I dreamt that I was in a school. It wasn’t a typical one. The architecture was like in Harry Potter (?). I was in a classroom, sucking my right breast and fell asleep. I woke when children started filing in. I asked if it was 3 o’clock already. I was wearing a white top where the back was gathered / pulled up  / in together in the middle so that my garment top was shown.

(From Jan 25, 2018 Waiting)

I dreamt that I was lying next to Kyle, on his right side, watching tv. We were discussing a diy show that was just on, called “Bargain Mansions”. Something about her waiting until it gets dark to show it? 

There’s a window in / on the wall to my right, close enough for me to touch the blinds. As we’re talking, we hear noises outside which sound like someone may be (playing) out there with the cats. I attempt to separate the blinds to see what it was, but I’m not able to.

A man then speaks in a (loud) whisper, as if wanting to influence me, asking, “Do you love me, Becky Boo / Buu? Do you love me?” (The second question, I wake up, and realize that it’s coming from a man in my room.)

I dreamt that I was telling my mom about this. This man was trying to push my arms / hands down to my pelvic area. There were dad’s suit coats, so I grabbed on to one so that he wouldn’t have power over me. I wasn’t able to tell mom about hearing his voice because he stopped me / wouldn’t let me. 

(From Jan 24, 201  Fireworks)

I dreamt that I was looking down at some hills a bit in the distance. There were some fireworks going off, but weren’t the usual. Maybe more like electrical fireworks, and the colors were more of pastel / neon / LED. 

I was only wearing my top garment as I was watching. There were several other people there as well. I then excitedly said that I better get dressed, as I walk toward the bedroom. A guy looked over me as I walked past. I wasn’t sure what all he saw.

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Here It Comes

I dreamt something about the size of a window opening for (my?) spirit to come / go through.

I dreamt that I was looking outside, from inside the house, and seeing a guy from church (in the dream) walk past, from right to left. There were (somewhat) open blinds.

He saw me looking at him. I may have smiled, to be friendly. I either thought, or said out loud, that we still can’t always trust people we “know”, as I was locking the door, by flipping down the lever that is used.

Mom had gone to take a shower. While she was in the bathroom, I could feel an uneasiness concerning that guy. There was a small hallway where the bathroom was, which was on the right (in the middle?). I hid in there at the entrance, hearing the cat / dog door moving, knowing that it was him. I said, “Here It Comes”.

I dreamt that I was slowly touching / feeling my right breast, with my left hand, twisting my shirt, while writing a story. I was trying to do it without being seen.

(From March 15, 2018 Still Cold)

I dreamt that I was inside a house, naked, but with shoes on. I was looking out back and saw a bunch of different animals pass by from right to left. They were huge.There were birds, and I think maybe deer. I don’t remember all. 

I then went to a different part of the house to the left. It was morning, dark outside, and I was wondering what happened to all the animals / why did they disappear?

The tabby cat was outside, on the left, and started to come toward me to come back inside because it was still a bit cold out there. There was a small area to the left with dirt and small (palm?) trees. The Siamese boy’s mother was laying amongst them, and when she saw the tabby coming, she got up as well.

I dreamt that I was at some sort of conference with several hundred people. In the middle, or maybe near the back (I didn’t look behind me), there was an open row for people who wanted to stand. I saw women there, not sure if any men were standing.

There were some pictures being shown on a screen up front. I was a row or two behind the standing people, to the right. One picture was of a guy with a funky display of his tie. 

The man in charge (?), up in front of everyone, was then asking about some sort of computer program which was then being shown (the cover of the program, not the program itself). The color chosen was a brownish color. 

No one was answering him so I said out loud, “I have the program but my computer isn’t / doesn’t work(ing).” I didn’t make myself known that I was the one who spoke, and no one asked. 

I dreamt that I saw a house up on a hill and wondered if they saw me, but thought that they couldn’t.

Spray

I asked, “How do I protect myself from the entity?” I dreamt that I was in a shop. Holly Robinson Peete was there. I was looking at some perfume and sprayed a little in front of a small fan so that I can smell it. I don’t remember the name of it but the bottle was pink glass. It was a circular / oval type shape.

I dreamt that I was in a college dorm (same dream?). There was a blonde guy there that I was warning others that he was going to set off a small bomb. It was 3:00 when I was warning them. No one questioned how I knew. I had been through the same scene / scenario before. 

There was a big room across and down the hallway, to the left, from his room.There were two sets of wood accordion doors that a lady closed. Someone was getting impatient, wanting to leave. I convinced them to stay.

At 3:15 the bomb went off. The bomb squad had come and gone, wrapping up salvageable items in the rooms with clear plastic. We still had to be careful in some places where we walked because of the softness of the floor.

I dreamt that I was in bed and all the cats were in there as well, even the outside boy, who was under the bed.

Mando was in an extension of the room that was to the right, in front several feet. It felt like being on a train. He was sitting on a bench, which was facing left, but he was looking at me.

He was writing but it was bumpy because the “train” was moving. I got up to close the door, and was naked.

(From April 18, 2018 Separate)

I asked who the spirit lady is. I had several dreams having the same theme, showing me that this lady and I are two separate beings.

(From April 15, 2018 Spam)

I asked the same question. The thought came to me to do a heart scan.

I dreamt that I was working at a church store (?) and I was by myself in a little darkened room and it was my job to organize cans of spam. There weren’t a whole lot where I was. 

There was a door to my right that was next to me. People would walk through as they passed but I never did. I finally walked through and saw Larry sitting at a curved desk facing what would be the 10:11 position on a clock.

There was something on the desk that had the wrappers to go over the covers on the cans to keep them in place. Larry reminded / told me that it was 8:00 and that my shift was over. I stayed a little longer wanting to work / test this contraption myself. Four wrappers came up but I only took one since that was all I needed, all the cans needed.

I dreamt that Jon was there with a couple other people and discussing how he liked one of the other bosses named Jim (?) because he would calmly express how he feels instead of going off.

I dreamt something about a gay guy and how he would hook up other guys who had aids and had less than six months to live. 

I dreamt about Suzanne and Zelma and was telling them about a female I saw who looked like Micalanne.

I dreamt something about b&w cakes / desserts.

Pregnancy

I asked, “How do I find a way out?” I dreamt that I was in the beginning (within 4 months) of being pregnant and some liquids / fluids were coming / leaking out of me, which was normal (for pregnant women), and a little bit of green diarrhea. I was grossed out by it and was (almost) crying. 

I dreamt that I was pregnant (same duration) in Bible times (area, Rome? felt like it) at night, but I was wearing modern clothes. 

There was a diagonal opening, between two walls (?), to the left (like on the freeway). The one on the left had some glowy turquoise (?) color at the end, as if it had been dipped. The color was the color identity of the people on that side. 

I started to leave, and got about a football field length away. The people were frantically searching for “the” baby. I decided to go back.

I showed, what looked like a hospital bracelet that I had on my left wrist, to one of the searchers. I either mentioned, or it was written on the bracelet, that this baby had traveled / will have traveled the most miles. This was significant as it put the baby on the same level of importance as Christ.

I dreamt that I was outside at night at someone’s house (?) looking up at the sky and it looked like a bunch of orbs covering the sky. The wife, who was inside, had a name for it but don’t remember. Orb was in the name.

I dreamt that I was in a bed next to the right of another two person bed. I don’t know if it was big enough to be a queen. A young Steve was lying on the left side of that bed. 

I was looking at a gif of a forest / nature scene that had a black oval / thumbprint shape, tilted / leaning a bit to the left, show up in the front middle of the scene. It was there for several seconds then left.

Mom, and Steve (as he is now) came in. Mom was wearing a (black?) robe, covering herself, not wearing garments. I was thinking of asking Steve for a blessing, and that way the family w /could find out about the pregnancy. They left with me forgetting to ask.

The young Steve then moved over to my side of that bed and I was pushing him back over.

I dreamt of bike riding (the last of it) with a black guy and we decided to sit and rest / take a break where some people were. 

I then was holding only the frame of my bike, to set it down. After doing so, and turning back around to sit, I noticed that the guy was sitting in front of me. 

I started to get up to move forward to be next to him, on his left. He then raised up some money, with his right hand, telling me to get a drink. I asked him if he wanted anything and he skittishly said no.

I dreamt that I was in water (mid calf?) with a bunch of frogs. I didn’t want to touch them, and didn’t want them to touch me. I wanted out of there.

I dreamt that I was in an inexpensive store, with a couple other people. As we were leaving, or going to another section, to the left, I noticed several suitcases piled on their side on the floor. I thought that they looked like temple bags / cases.

I dreamt that I was in a store (same?) that had car rides (like the train rides) for the children while the parents were shopping. I may have been pregnant again. I was sitting in line, up front, with the other children. 

There were some already seated, waiting for the ride to begin. They didn’t seem bothered by the wait. While waiting, I saw (in mind?) a real vehicle driving, and seeing the bumps / vibrations from it moving (like in a movie / show).

Up ahead, to the right, was a doorway / opening to go to a different section. I saw lights beaming in to the store on the other side. It was from parents coming to pick up their child / children. I then wondered if that was so, or if someone / thing was going to walk in where I was, with the lights. No one / thing did.

A lady then showed up, walking from behind me on my left, to the aisle in front of me where the children were waiting, walking to the left, to pick up her daughter (didn’t see), saying that it was the second day of freedom everlasting. I assumed that she meant from her husband and that they would always have money so that she didn’t have to work.

I dreamt of seeing a girl in a shopping cart (same store?) looking back to the space behind the cart, and talking. She was in front of me to my right. I wanted to ask her who she was talking to but didn’t know if I should.

She then saw me looking at her and froze for a couple seconds then started back up again. I figured that whoever she was talking with told her that I’m ok and won’t think that she’s crazy.

Still Here 

(From May 26, 2018)

I dreamt about having children before marriage? I realized that I’m still (t)here.

I dreamt something about how I like to play games.

(From May 24, 2018 On The Way Out)

I asked if Ali is the husband who will take me to the temple. He wasn’t in my dream, but I heard (beautiful?) music.

I dreamt that I was in someone’s house and was on my way out. One of my flowery (brown) shirts (I used to have) was on the top of a coat hanger thing with other clothes. I took it, knowing, in case, I may need it later. 

As I was about to leave, I heard someone to my left become horrified at some type of creature by them. It was dark outside and I got into Judy’s small car to take home, knowing she could walk to come get it. I was living in the house, I think, with Ali.

The road in front of the house was narrow and there were a couple cars going either direction. I was going right, slowly moving so that I wouldn’t get hit and that I wouldn’t hit anyone / thing.

The house was only a couple blocks away on the right side at the end of the street. For some reason, I was going fast. There were two dogs in front of me with exaggerated rounded bodies. They didn’t move and I didn’t slow down.

One, and then the other, came up the hood, hitting the windshield, but not getting hurt. When I saw them on the street, they looked mean, almost as if they had rabies. 

There was a brick wall at the end of the street with a person sized opening in the middle. Some of the cats were out and luckily I didn’t hit them after the dogs. I was able to stop the car before hitting the wall. 

(From May 23, 2018 Blindfolded)

I asked the same question. I dreamt of him being a white dwarf / midget. 

I dreamt of him wearing a tux, facing right with a blindfold on, standing next to a wedding dress. 

Take A Break 

(From June 11, 2018)

I dreamt that I and family (?) were at nice apartments looking for a place to live. We were there with a real estate agent. We were in one and then he mentioned another that was available. It was on a left corner, possibly upstairs. The door was outside and it was colored black in a classy way.

I was the first to go check it out. When I opened the door, a young man was inside. The place was furnished and he had a desk to the right of the door where he was working.

He was standing when I came in. I told him that the other guy said that this one was available. I then saw him at an office with other workers. They were all wet, sweating from continually working and not taking a break.

I announced that I was going to take a break and rest. The others decided to as well and some of them said that they were going to take a poop (because of not resting). I said, “Gross”. 

Before I saw him in the office, he had a toddler son and newborn girl (within a couple months) show up. The baby had red / strawberry hair. At one point while the son was walking around, he got under a table and bumped his head. The man became concerned at this and we told him that the son had done it on purpose. This relieved him.

At the office, there was an Arab guy who started repeating something (in English? don’t remember). He then started saying it more forcefully and got up to walk around. We were worried that he might become violent. 

I was looking at a reflection in a window within the office near where I was sitting. I saw that there was a security guard on the right side but wasn’t moving toward this guy because there was a another guy there who was ex military.

This guy went up to the scary guy bumping up against some windows in a corner within 20 feet from me. I started to get concerned that they would come over my way and I would get caught up / involved with them. I then calmed myself thinking that I’m safe and whatever happens is meant to be. 

This military guy got a hold of the other guy’s hands with one of his (left) somehow and had the other pushing into his chest, making a fist (?). This was keeping him (scary guy) under control. 

I saw Ali in a delivery truck, standing in the back, being “delivered” to the Utah girl. I didn’t see her, but I knew what was happening.

I dreamt that I was in a room in (a) church (?) with some older people. There were a bunch of canes that were left behind. One of the canes, I was going to take to its owner but he showed up to get it.

Someone was asking where Ethel, an older black woman, was.

I dreamt that there was a young teacher and I was going to have sex with him and have children. At first I was hesitant at showing him my body but then I was ok with. 

Add More Water

I asked, “How do I block the entity from entering my body?” I dreamt that the family, extended as well, got back from a celebration for my dad. The driveway (area) was curved up by the house, with plenty of space, and covered, like how wealthy people have. 

I saw that the cat’s water bowl was low and that I needed to add some more water. 

Dad was complaining about the shape / outline of the lawn. Knowing that it was shaped like that when we moved in, I snapped back, “Don’t blame me for the shape of it!” I wasn’t standing by him.

I then was in my room. Briana was sitting on the edge (upper right?) facing the wall (?). A couple extended family members were there as well. It was dark enough to turn on a light, but it was not. 

In the middle of changing, I was topless and stood / placed myself where the outside light would hit / light up my breasts, wanting to show them to Briana, without letting the others see / trying to hide my breasts from them so they wouldn’t see. 

I dreamt that I was in a successful man’s house. He had a lot of children (all girls?). I was standing in a corner of a white hallway, looking to the right. The walls had white painted wood, looking like big picture frames (don’t know what the design is called). I was staring at them, thinking / wondering if this is the house I see in my dreams.

The girls each had their own room. Their doors were decorative, with a small lamp on the front of the door. 

One of the older girls worked at home. She was on her computer, talking to a small toy size colorful robot looking man who was her boss. She was sharing her screen with him, showing that a YouTube video continually becomes staticy. People had been complaining about it.

He told her to get something from stepped plastic that was in the middle of a hallway. As she got it, I realized that the plastic was separate from the house, and not actual steps to a second floor / story, as I was wondering how I was going to walk up them.

(From June 15, 2018 Sex)

I asked what I was prepared for. I saw myself with lots of money and part of a “power couple” . 

I dreamt of sex. 

I dreamt of being at the 99¢ store, looking for toothpaste. The store looked like Bed, Bath and Beyond. I found a white metal bin with toothpaste. I was going to get Aquafresh, but I saw some light brown toothpaste instead. I don’t remember the name of it. The tube was clear.

The bin of toothpaste was at the left end of the aisle. On the other end were sponges attached to clear tubes meant for washing dishes. The sponges had been used and some were barely there. Amy, and Judy were there, and I think other family members.

I saw a list of benefits of consensual sex. I didn’t see all of them. I’m not sure if healing was one of them, or if I put it there.

Wasn’t Far To Walk

I asked, “How do I get it all out of me?” I dreamt something about Amy up in the bedroom before being in the kitchen. I didn’t see her, but was thinking of her as I was doing something with clothes / pants and that she could go on without me (?). 

I went in the kitchen and saw a box of Cheerios (?) with some of the big shredded wheat squares stuffed in the bag. I also got a banana. I usually didn’t eat at this time, before going to school / work, but I decided to this time, and it wasn’t far to walk / get to where I was going. Mom was in the kitchen as well.

I heard a cat meowing and went to look and saw the mother cat jump off the top of the couch through the open windows, to outside. She wasn’t the one I heard / was hearing. 

(From June 21, 2018 Wasn’t Waking Up)

I dreamt that I left my bedroom door open. The voices told Ali. Sleeping, he got upset and was talking about me leaving the door open for the cats to come in. I hurried to close the door but soon realized that he wasn’t waking up and coming out. 

(From June 20, 2018 Someone Else’s Baby)

I dreamt that I was outside, and I think it had been raining, but not sure. There was a small size pond where there shouldn’t be one. 

I almost got in to cross / swim across, but decided against it because I didn’t want to get my clothes wet.

I was walking, quickly, past it, crying at it because it scared / frightened me. As I was going past, I was wondering what water in my dreams means. I was looking for a way to get away from it. 

There was iron fencing all around.

I dreamt that I was holding someone else’s baby and had gone to look for their puppy in a building where other people were. I found the puppy and Becky was there. 

The baby fell asleep so I decided to wait a couple minutes before taking off. 

Shouldn’t Be Bundled

(From June 23, 2018)

I asked the same question. I dreamt about cable companies shouldn’t (?) be bundled. 

I dreamt about William Faulkner. 

I dreamt about a young guy being with me. I asked him if he had a job and he said no. I wondered how he got his money. He didn’t look homeless. 

We were hugging each other in the top of an empty brick water well. We were floating slowly, going in circles. I saw water coming in but didn’t see it going down and wondered why.

I saw a spider / cobweb going across the top half of the entrance and the water was falling onto that. I broke the web so the water could go / fall down. I no longer saw the water and don’t know how deep the well was.

The guy starts kissing me with his full lips. I start to resist because of Ali but then I think about what I told Ali (in waking life) a day or two ago. (Referencing an earlier dream, I thought that maybe the grown children I saw on a dock, the female who looked like me, maybe she comes from someone else first and then the other three come from Ali.)

After I think of this, I stop resisting and enjoy the kiss. I then see two white outlined people drop down, one a bit higher than the other, and am thinking they are my children from this young guy. 

I think he told me that I was a certain type of shaman. That type left me when I started waking.

(From June 22, 2018 Close To Going Home)

I saw a rainbow.

I dreamt of a dirt “pool” that was empty. It was as long as a ship and as deep as one and as wide. It then was filled with water and I told the people that it had been filled again. A guy jumped in to swim. 

It was above ground. On one of the sides was a shell of a Viking ship. I only saw the walls, so not sure if there was anything inside. It was stationary but was able to shake / move / sway back and forth as if someone jumping in the middle to get it to move. 

I dreamt of motorcycles on a street and one of them making a left turn right in front of some other motorcycles. 

I dreamt that I was a missionary. Everyone was going to a building for something. The Elders, some, were talking about sex. I kinda gave them a look (I was in front of them?) but I don’t think they noticed / cared. 

There was a line divider for the females to go to the left and the guys to go to the right. There were some guys there that I was surprised at first to see because they had been there for a while but then figured that they must be close to going home. 

I was at the last to go in with two others. Seems maybe we had to wait a bit before going in? I walked in front of them. As I started to walk into a hallway to the area we were all meeting, there was a black man facing me with his right arm stretched out to his side. 

I thought he was telling me to go on so I did. I soon realized that he was stretching his arm out for his toddler (?) girl. He didn’t say anything to me so I kept going. 

When I entered the area where everyone was, there were tables lined up horizontally on my right where they were sitting. I don’t remember if there were some on my left. Everyone stood as I walked past them. 

Once a year (?) someone was appointed (?) / chosen as Queen. I knew I was the one chosen and still walking past toward the front. I was then given a large white cardboard / paper with a poem on it about the worth of a person who had been chosen.

Before reading, I kinda sang out, “I knew that I was a Queen, yeah, yeah, yeah” twice, a little bit slowly. 

I dreamt of children dancing, putting on a show. There was a group of five year old girls having a lot of fun. They had makeup on. One of them didn’t have the foundation smoothed in along the jaw line. It looked like soap suds would look like.

(June 22, or 23 The Change)

I dreamt that I was at the register with mom. I was buying something that was .25¢ but I only had .20¢ so I was asking mom for the other .5¢. She was also buying some things so maybe I included mine in with hers? 

In the middle of this, as I was going through the change (it was all coins), dad asked me to help him with his transaction outside of the store, so I had one foot in and one foot out. 

I helped him with beginning his transaction with his change then went back inside to finish mine and mom’s transaction.

Death / Darkness 

I asked again if the Utah girl was the spirit lady. I was being shown how they both said, and did, the same things (from what Ali told me).

I dreamt of a b&w kitten in a filled up glass measuring cup of water. I was showing it to someone(s). I realized that it had died because of the water, but then remembered that it was barely breathing to begin with. I was saddened by this but I wasn’t devastated.

 I dreamt of watching a movie called “Darkness”. I saw death, as a normal person, “chasing” a girl, who wasn’t able to outrun him. She finally exhausted herself and gave up.

 I then saw his right arm slowly lift and point, as if he was the camera. He had skeleton fingers like the Ghost of Christmas Future in A Christmas Carol. I then saw the girl wrapped in burlap (?) and dropped to the ground.

I dreamt that McDonald’s had started offering healthy /ier foods, which helped a location in a bad neighborhood, to be more successful. I asked a lady something about the owner, who was there helping out. She may have been his wife.

I dreamt of being at the church and needing to use the restroom. I went to the hallway on the right. I couldn’t find it. I walked up and down the hallway to make sure I didn’t walk too fast and miss it. I finally saw a door that said it used to be the Bishop’s (?) office.

I dreamt that I wasn’t wearing my glasses and my vision was blurry but clear enough to get around. They were in a room with my purse. I was searching for my glasses everywhere but where they were.

I dreamt of being in the chapel and the choir was going to sing. Someone said that if anyone wanted to come up and join them, they could. A group of women, holding the words, got up. 

There was a black guy, and family / wife, sitting up front, more to the right, in the congregation. He was in his 50’s / late 40’s, with some weight on him. He was wearing a lavender (?) shirt.

 He asked one of the guys sitting up on the stand, the McDonald’s owner, something but I don’t remember. He smiled and nodded. I was thinking that the black guy was either a new member, or he was just investigating.

I was sitting in the back behind the pews. There were two women standing, in my left, facing me, both nursing on their right breasts, covered. I was thinking that they were tall, or looked tall because I was sitting. The one on the left may have had long blonde hair. 

There was a couch / loveseat in front of me, facing me. There was another lady lying on it, with her head on the left. She also was covered, nursing a baby.

I wondered if I would see her breast when the baby let go, but she stayed covered. She then rolled on to her left side, cuddling up to someone else.

I dreamt that the wife on The Little People (TLC) was related to a guy in the 80’s group “El Dido”. She said how, but I couldn’t understand her.

I dreamt of a being with some women / girls. A wealthy lady came over, showing us some of her rings that she had in a jewelry box. She was letting us take one to keep.

I took one, and then a little later, I took another one that was wood with a design / carving on it. I was deciding which finger to put it on. The others gasped, were shocked when I took it.