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Last night I asked, “What is the book?” I dreamt something about wanting to send something to Amy (?) and seeing the social media options listed vertically, including the gmail option. I decided to email. I don’t remember the beginning of the address but the end was, I think, May6.gmail.com. I don’t know about the rest of the email but I wrote the @ and made it big. 

I dreamt something about either being in the mountains, or being somewhere where I was feeling the coolness of being in the mountains.

(From Sept. 8, 2018 Had Been Found)

I asked about the voices. I dreamt that someone’s boy was missing in the morning. I asked Greg if he had been found and he said yes. Greg was still lying in bed. I had my small pink fan (that I had as a teenager) which was still on. I told Greg that he could’ve turned it off, but then, I could’ve told him that he could (huh?). He told me that I had to be woken up because I was snoring. 

I dreamt that I had a holiday mini catalog / magazine ad. I don’t remember the company. I also had a magazine that I accidentally put in the trash as it was in the middle of the stuff I was holding. 

I dreamt that Mark was married to Lorelei (his daughter, but not in the dream) and they had a baby. I was thinking about their age difference.

I dreamt that a birthday party for Julia Louis – Dreyfuss was being televised. I wondered why when she isn’t important / special. There were black lingham balloons. I was there.

A guy suggested doing a three way with me. I wasn’t comfortable with that so I left. I was wearing a dress. Mustard color?

When I got outside, the Siamese boy was there. He had followed me. The house was down, and across, the street so I walked. He kept in front of me, and even went into the street. I was anxious for him, praying that he wouldn’t get killed like the Siamese girl (meaning that I didn’t want him killed, not to mean in the same way). 

I dreamt of Ben, standing behind him. He looked good.

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Karma

Last night I asked, “What are the 3 different tests?” As I was waiting to fall asleep I saw a woman, with a veil over her mouth, walking. She unhooked (?) the left side, uncovering her mouth. She said that the women would kill her. After being asked why, she said it was because it wasn’t done (uncovering her mouth).

I dreamt something about watching a movie, and a wealthy lady, in person, wearing a blue Christmas sweater. I mentioned that I like Christmas sweaters. (I do. ☺)

I dreamt something about a young dirty (homeless?) female. I think I offered for her to take a shower, even though the time was close for her to leave. (I don’t remember the details.) I asked if she could wait 5 minutes (so I could take one first.) 

I dreamt that we were neighbors with the lady across the street (she steals cats and gives them to others) so that our lawns connected. She had floor to ceiling window(s) that had the black film on it to block the sun.

I stood at the edge of the median of the lawns, staring at her. She then turned to look at her window and started nonchalantly playing with her hair, with a bit of sinister smile. I wasn’t going to say anything, but I said to her, “Karma”. I waited a couple seconds and then said it again. I then started to walk away.

I dreamt that she had the young orange and white tabby  kitten (1 year? that she has and comes around here) and 5 siblings. They were all outside (in our backyard?). One was black and was in a black metal cage / crate because it was sick.

I dreamt something about being with other people and Mando was there. He was walking, from right to left, on the phone. He was leaving a message to a girl, saying that he thought she was cute (?) and wanted to see her later. I then thought, “Oh, ok”.

Not Sexually Attracted

Last night I asked “What is Mando’s relationship to me?” I dreamt that Ali said to me, “I’m not sexually attracted”. I was waking up when he said that so I’m not sure if that was the whole sentence. There was more to the dream before this but don’t remember it.

I dreamt of Morgan Freeman teaching high school p e class of about 10 girls. The class was in the afternoon. I was wondering if they were here in the afternoon because they had other obligations.

(From Sept. 13, 2018)

Spirit Collective came to mind.  (I had learned about animal communication and three paths that a person can take which will eventually use all three.)

I dreamt something about two different airlines and the stewardesses. A guy was in a restroom of one of them, having water flow over his face / nose. He was then told that he had to leave so he went to the other and drank. 

A lady was telling him how it works over here, him thinking that he already knows but obliges this lady.

I dreamt of a spider, tarantula size, making a cobweb net on top of a 4 – 5 foot rectangular shape bush. He rests on the right end / edge. 

A lady walks under the web, through the bush, trying not to touch the web but may have grazed it.

A nude blonde lady, don’t remember length of hair, has big round porno type breasts. She freaks out because she has been bitten and had a red welt on the inner part of her left breast.

She had somehow swallowed this / a spider that had an important key. An ambulance (emt) / firemen take her to the hospital. I don’t see the people who take her.

I then see the spider, dead on it’s back on the ground.

I dreamt of asking a guy if he could see my dad with his arms out and pretending to be superman. He says yes, he can.

Get This Out of Me

Last night I asked what the date is. I only remember the dreams at the end. 

Travis and I were on the same bus. He was acting more like we were just two people on the same bus, though he was conscious that I was there. We got off at the same place to walk home. I think I was going to get off sooner but decided to wait. 

I dreamt that I was lying down on my left side, as if I had been sleeping. I’m not sure where I was as the details faded as I was waking up but knew there were people around. 

I dreamt of being on a ride / tour with other people looking at houses that are for sale. We passed by one, or more, up on a hill that was on my left. There was one rectangular shaped and was two stories, with windows along the back. There was music playing and it was “said” that when music is playing, that means something. I knew what that means in the dream but forgot when I woke. There was also something about the house being expensive.

I felt that something had come out of my butt, between my cheeks. I grabbed it and pulled out a handful of what looked like dog food. I thought about when I ate some when I was little. It continued to come out, grabbing it by handfuls, and placing it in a row in front of me. As I continued, there began to be some light colored peanut butter textured poop. It didn’t freak me out because there wasn’t a whole lot,and I knew that I had to get it out of me. The line grew to several feet. I felt a bump on the outer side of my right butt cheek, knowing that I had lots more to come out, so I decided to take a break. I wondered why I didn’t just stand up and let it come out on its own.

Going Home 

(From March 27, 2015)

Theresa Caputo was here at RCC. A boy was also, I think. Her dad, and film crew were here. The college buildings looked more like a university. We were waiting to go in a building. I wasn’t sure whether to go up to her, or not, to ask a question, but I finally did. I asked her if we dream about something, water, does it always mean the same? She said yes.

We were finally able to get in. There was a small stairway to the right, with a wall around it, to get upstairs. I went over to use them, but it was a tight squeeze, so I didn’t use them (I had to go sideways).

We were in a theater auditorium to watch a production. There were people sitting in the first several rows in front of the stage. There was then a divider space for people to walk. There was caution tape blocking / reserving the first few rows of the seats behind the space, so I sat in the seat to very right, behind the sectioned off ones. Theresa hadn’t sat yet, and was telling me to move up. I wanted to say that I didn’t have a loud voice like hers (what does that have to do with moving seats?).

There were children (sitting behind me) with goodie bags from whatever was going on at the school.

There was a pond of dark water, with green moss(?) on top. A dolphin suddenly appeared, but didn’t bring its head up and out. Theresa, and a boy, jumped in.

(From April 21, 2015)

I’m a missionary, but I’m with either Baptists or Born Again Christian’s. My mission is coming to an end. I’m going home in May.

(From April 24, 2015)

Sasha Denton (don’t know anyone with this name)

Not Showing Up 

(From Feb. 15, 2015)

The Siamese dad came back, and looked as if nothing had happened. I pointed him out to Ali, asking if that was(n’t) him. (He was purposely run over.)

At a family gathering, I hit / punched Micalanne in the face, with all my strength, on two separate occasions, causing her to fall back and hit her head. 

Judy was passing a white paper for people to sign for someone’s birthday. Someone else gave it to me to sign. I was surprised that she would allow me to sign, since she’s upset with me. 

After the gathering, I was walking home, and about a block away, I started running. I was upset, saying that it can’t be that my mental capacity is handicapped. 

When arriving at the house (when I was an older teen), I stayed outside, sitting with some others, with the door to my right. 

Mom had brought back some leftover food. I wanted some of the desserts with some chocolate topping. Mom said that Becky (a friend) goes to an Italian church now, and took the chocolate topping with her, to take to work. 

There was a race to be held, and one of the starting points was in our front yard, going to the right, using the lane dividers as used for swimming. Barbie was going to participate, using a wheelchair, and commented how narrow the lanes are. 

(From Feb. 23, 2015)

It was getting dark. Ali had said he would come get me, but he wasn’t showing up, so I started to walk. As I was crossing a street, I was carrying chains (like Marley in The Christmas Carol with Ebenezer Scrooge), slowing down my progress. 

Ali, and I, are at a pregnancy clinic to see why I’m not pregnant yet. The technician(?) talks to us, with paperwork in hand, without taking us to the back (still in waiting area), and says, “Well, it’s here in your notes. You’re not pregnant because you’re not having sex.”

(Ali’s dream)

We were running through water, with lots of other people. I was in front, speeding. Ali was behind me. We were wearing shoes so that our feet wouldn’t get hurt / cut from the rocks. 

Impersonators

(From Dec. 30, 2014 Ali’s dream)

There were two police impersonators here who wanted to handcuff Ali. We were telling them that they can’t do this. Ali asked where their badges were. I said something about having them on video. They left, and we were going to report them. I said that I needed to get one of my shoes. 

(From Jan. 3, 2014 Ali’s dream)

I was bowling, up on a stage of a huge arena. My sisters were there, wanting to participate. I told them, being bossy, that they had to be in shape, giving them time limits to lose weight to be able to participate. They were shocked that I would say this in public, and they didn’t know what to do.

 Some Ethiopian ladies wanted to participate, saying that they were foreigners. I told them that that didn’t matter. They were also shocked. 

Someone asked me how I learned to play, and I replied that I just knew. 

(From Jan. 2, 2014)

Ali, and I, were walking among a crowd at night. He tells me to walk faster, knowing that there’s a guy somewhere behind us who he knows, not wanting to hear / listen about Moses. 

(From Jan. 8, 2014)

I’m sitting in a room, with a lady next to my left, who I apparently know. There is also a lady standing in front of me. Looking at me, she (standing) sees a different person, within me, with big black eyes, not in a creepy way. 

What Is, Is

My top left tooth, next to my “fang”, came out. I was initially worried about someone (Ali?) seeing me this way, assuming this was the start of losing my teeth from getting older, but soon shrugged it off, thinking, what is, is.

(From Nov. 14, 2014 Ali’s dream)

He opened the door, to go out to do something. I told him to close it, because people steal. I kept after him to be more aware of security. He said he was only going to be a couple of minutes.

When he got back, most of his things were gone. I kept reminding him of what I had told him.

We walked for about a mile when we found his things in a corner bush. We took it all back home, then I told him to bring his guitar to Universal Studios with us.

We had been there for a while, half a day(?), when he wanted to go back home. I wanted to stay, and was telling him that I could drive in the dark.

(From Nov. 13, 2014)

A man was standing on a platform / plank, overseeing a big pond / small lake, that was a bit milky looking. He was pointing to it, and telling others, with him, that this is where the power comes from (for the city / town).

(From Nov. 12, 2014)

I went to Wal-Mart to look for something (don’t remember what), but they didn’t have it. There was a tall black man there with two young sons / boys. Wal-Mart was built so that each department had its own section, like Victoria’s Secret, and the sections were diagonal, going from left to right.

(From Nov. 11, 2014)

I had white, edible worms, mixed with mud / dirt, stuck to my right hand / palm, holding them for Briana. After a while, I couldn’t handle them on me anymore, so I scraped them off, telling her that I did

I was walking with a young Steve (9 / 10?). We crossed a street as a red luxury sports car was waiting to turn right (his). After we crossed, I realized that he was taking us back to our old home we lived in during the 80’s. I told him that mom didn’t live there anymore. He got upset as I turned him around, and I may even have had to pick him up so we could go in a different direction.

(From Nov. 10, 2014)

Watching the Simpsons with a child(?), and realizing that it’s a rerun of the last episode, so I mention it.

I’m about to cut my hair, raising the middle part above my head, but decided against it because it would have been to short for Ali. Seems I may have had a thick pink line going across my hair, about the area above my ears.

Someone is showing us the positions of everyone from the recently / previously ended war, using planes and such.

Ali asks if he should buy the “peacock” house (because the people who lived there had one). Thinking that I would, I told him that it was up to him.

(From Nov. 9, 2014)

I’m at a bus station. Amy, and Micalanne, are there also. Mic came separately. I think Amy and I came together. We’re going to our parents house, at least I think Mic is going also. I didn’t ask.

Everyone has to lay out their things first, upon arrival. I did, and after I pack it all back up, wish I hadn’t, as I keep looking over everything still out, making sure I got all my stuff back.

I don’t buy a ticket, deciding to wait for the bus to arrive. It does, and people get on, including Amy. Before going to buy the ticket, I ask a man (driver / worker) if there’s a seat left / any room. He says out loud, for everyone to hear, that it’s full (but uses a different word). Upon hearing this, I become worried that I don’t / won’t have money for a ticket, but then remembered that mom had given me $60.

I’m wondering when the next bus leaves, and so ask Mic when she’s going. She says her bus doesn’t get there until 2 a.m. I incredulously repeat the time.

(From Nov. 8, 2014)

I was at a store, and returned the ends of a loaf of bread, in the bag, for a refund. I was surprised that they gave me the full amount, and not just the amount for the ends.

Ali is outside, sitting on something, about waist-high. He is 6’4″, and built. Not too much, but enough to notice.

Briana was at a friend’s house for Christmas, with her daughters, but not husband. The friends had two trees in the same room, near each other, at an angle. This room was huge. As I was watching the girls have fun, I was thinking that at least they had room to move.

Briana was attempting to take pictures of the trees, with her daughters in the, but there was a ray / glare of sun shining through in front of the trees, so she couldn’t get a good picture.

There was a man on the phone, wanting to talk to the youngest daughter, people saying that it’s her dad, but she wouldn’t talk. The man on the phone is a tall man, with some extra weight. Her dad isn’t so tall, and is thin (last I knew).

Zombies

I was in a small pool (murky water?) with two other girls. A soak went below the surface. I wanted to get it before it did so, but wasn’t able to.

One of the girls undid the tie to my bathing suit /bikini (don’t know which it was), then brought the top down enough to show my breasts. I was worried that she would see my little bit of (blonde) chest hair. She didn’t say anything, and didn’t act as if something was out of the ordinary.

She told me to slap my breasts against the water. I told her that I would not.

I am somewhere where some 20-something’s were talking about bestiality. One guy mentioned an elephant. I was going to speak up against this behavior, but didn’t, possibly because I didn’t know them.

(From Nov. 3, 2014)

As I’m walking in front of the neighbor’s house (to our left), towards Ali’s house, I notice that the house is empty. I think to myself, “Ah, that’s why they haven’t been around.” As I’m back inside the house, I see about 4 ladies from church in the kitchen (side of the house), cleaning the last handful of stuff that’s left.

(From Nov. 2, 2014)

There were zombies in a city. People kept going about their lives / duties, but were on guard. The children still had to go to school. The residents were allowed to kill the zombies when coming across them.

I’m leading an exercise class at a gym. We have on our backs what looks like a weighted jet pack, but without the jets, and extra stuff. The cords /straps were black elastic (?). My pack was pink. I still had some weight, but it wasn’t obvious.

(From Nov. 1, 2014)

There was a rainstorm, then cleared up.

(From Oct. 31, 2014)

Ali came home from work, hot from the weather. It was 87(?) degrees outside. I knew that there was going to be another warm / hot day, but then would cool down.

(From Oct. 30, 2014)

There are round bundles of hay, out in a field. They are lined up, front to back, being varying sizes, large to small. About halfway, they curved to the left. They are frozen over.

I am standing a little ways away, and see a horse sliding down, head to the right, eyes closed, not moving. I was worried it would get hurt.

I was standing at the end as it reached the end. It finally fell to the ground, and was okay.

(From Oct. 29, 2014)

I’m walking in the middle of a quad(?) at a college. I’m carrying a lunch(?) box in my right hand. It is shaped so that the handle is at the left end. It is striped with the rasta colors. I’m thinking that Travis(?) will be impressed when he sees it.

The Mother

I am standing between benches, turned toward the back, in the chapel of the church, on the right side, speaking with someone. I am wearing an empire waist dress, blue / sea green(?) coloring, maybe some tiny flowers(?). My hair is dark brown / black, but looks natural. I have added some pounds (10-15/20).

A tall, big man walks in at the back. He sees me, and walks to the left toward a lady, to ask about me. Jovially / happily, she says, “Oh, the Mother”, and brings him to me, which by now I’m near the front on the left side, and introduces him to me. He reminds me of Kyle, intriguing me. I tell him, yes, I am a mother, thinking about my two children, thus the weight. Later on, though, I realize / tell myself that I don’t have any children.

This man has a Polish last name, with the weird spelling. He is funny, having previously been on SNL. His singing is beautiful, to almost being of an operatic quality, seeing him sitting where the choir sits, in the top row.

At one point, I am walking through a hallway, in the church, with him, and others, behind me. I’m having a bit of a difficult time walking, but not struggling, with a smile on my face when I look back.

There are some cards with names inside. Don’t know what for. I see mine, and the big guys together, mine having his last name. A man says it’s because he always sees us together.

I’m sitting outside, by a round table with an umbrella(?), watching two dark black bald men, who are about 20 yards away, get situated. I’m wondering what the big guy would say / do if he saw me looking, but also thinking it wouldn’t bother him too much.

I had put a sleeping bag outside, in the back, but forgot about it. Next thing I know, it’s raining, and Steve, as a young boy (11?), is in it. A church leader, who isn’t physically there, but can see him, asked how he is doing. Steve responded that he is fine, except for the fact that he can’t feel his fingers / hands, and toes / feet. He then covers himself. There is a small grave next to him, with something buried.

There is a line of Asian men, wearing black suits, holding red umbrellas, on the side of a mountain. I only see the faces of the first couple of them, as I see them from above. I don’t know where they came from, where they are going, or how many there are, as I assume that they go around the corner.

(From Oct. 26, 2014)

A tall, big man, who likes me, and wants to get involved, picked me up so that my back was against his left arm, and my legs over his right.

I’m worried about him being able to hold my weight, but then concluded that he could because of his stature.

(From Oct. 25, 2014)

I’m outside, taking a test. My teacher is Bishop Powers. He is enjoying the day, and is enjoying it so much, that he becomes overheated, and needs to lie down on a table. I mention to him, “I thought you had learned from last time”, or something to that effect.

While taking the test, we were able to freely converse with each other. I was one of the last two to finish. The test papers were more like a thin book stapled(?) together, and the pages were of varying shapes, sizes, and maybe colors. The questions themselves also weren’t thought out well. One of the last ones wanted me to put in order several animals, stacked upon each other, which included a hummingbird, turtle, and a cat. The longer I looked at this, more animals seemed to show up.

A guy appeared, as I was finishing, who sat as close to me as he could, on the right side, in an affectionate way. He looked a combination of Eddie Vedder, and a 7th grade t.a. We had taken a previous class together, and knew each other from that, but didn’t do anything outside of that class.

He told me he was from Provo, Utah, and he was what is known / called “Nu Essence”. He then took out, from his right pants pocket, what looked like a small jewelry box, and then got on the ground next to me, facing me. He said he was what was called “Level(?)”, which I might have heard of / about. I told him no, I hadn’t. He then started to explain. (I woke as he was doing so.)

As he was on the ground, I assumed that he was going to ask me to marry him. I was thinking I would tell him that we hardly know each other, but I was considering saying yes. I was also going to tell him that I would give him an answer the next day, as I needed to discuss this with Ali.

(From Oct. 24, 2014)

Ali was gone for several days, for something, and my dad was here with me. Shortly after going to bed, the alarm went off. I went to check it out, and by the time I got to it, it was turned off, and a guy from church in Moreno Valley was there. He came because some of the floor, in the kitchen(?), needed to be removed and replaced. I saw water underneath the house. He then left, but I told him the floor needed to be fixed, and he said it would be. Another guy, also from church in Moreno Valley, showed up to fix it.

The alarm was in a closet, and I saw writing, in black ink, written by a lady. Ali had smudged some of it, maybe so I couldn’t read it?

We had a large round, globe sized, chandelier, and two men were fixing the lights / lighting.

I was reading, in a newspaper(?), “The life you are to have will be”, or something along those lines.

Dad asked about death, if whether now, or at the end life, or both. I said both.

(From Oct. 23, 2014)

A female is parked in a white car, backed up. Not in a lot, but more like under an empty overpass. I don’t see her. She is frantic, on the phone to 911. She is telling the operator that a man is coming after her. The operator knows about this man.

The man, in a car, backs up to her car, speeding, crunching hers, then takes off.

I’m standing on the passenger side, by the back, a ways back. I see her falling out in two, but she is not a body, but more like two burnt circles. I think someone comes with something to cover her.

Black family, mostly women in their 50’s / 60’s, leave church early, as one of them is in a wheelchair, and they don’t want the other people to get in the way.

David Bowie is there, dressed warmly in a dark sweater. I ask him if Iman is ok with him being Mormon. He acknowledges yes.

We (including?) are at Oprah’s house, looking at her collectibles collection. She has some life-sized statues from different movies. She also has some things of Einstein.

I am riding in a rail train, with no top, with somebody else, inside this room. Looking down, I mention that the rail isn’t there, but then I see it.

I’m in Alan Alda’s bedroom, standing at the end, to the left (if on the bed). I think there might also be an orangey cat.

Alan is on the right side of the bed. He has on those square glasses with the big black frames. He is wearing striped pajamas, but I see that they are see through, and see what looks like white shorts underneath.

His wife is next to him, sitting up, with shorts on. She is skinny, so much so, that I can see a bone sticking out of her left leg, up by the hips. She has really short hair, and I wonder if she is gay. There are several different colored striped pajamas on the end of the bed between them.

Alan puts his arm over her stomach / chest area, bringing her down, wanting to get frisky with her. She mentions that I am there. I know they do other things, read, when I’m not there.

(Didn’t realize I had so much to write.)