I asked, “Who / What keeps entering my body?” I dreamt that I was out in an open space / field and a black beetle was flying toward me. I first used my hand to block it, but then used a notebook / journal. I didn’t like the feeling / the way the beetle felt on / against my hand.
I dreamt that mom was going to go to the temple (Mic or Amy asked / invited her?) but Micalanne mentioned that maybe she should stay back / home because there was so much to do to get ready. I was wondering if this was a way to keep her from going, or if it was because there was so much to do to get ready.
I dreamt that I was up in the mountains where the hawks gather. There were two that flew straight above me. I then saw a car / truck, with a family, coming toward me, and also a guy on a bike, wearing shades.
I started to get anxious that this guy was supposed to be my husband (the hawks). He came toward me to set his bike, but didn’t further come toward me.
I dreamt that there were a bunch of clouds (?), where I was, with writing on the top of them. Whenever a Russian, of any age, came by, the cloud had to be flipped over so that the Russians wouldn’t see the writing. I was asking someone why. A pre teen (?) boy was jogging past me, from left to right, on smooth rocks / boulders.
I dreamt that I was watching a play. The blonde narrator was off to the left. He would sometimes slightly sing the words. In the beginning (not the play, think Star Wars) Joseph (Mary) had seen / saw something and cringed. I don’t know if it was the beginning before he was with Mary, or if it was the beginning of the relationship.
I dreamt that I was in a school. It wasn’t a typical one. The architecture was like in Harry Potter (?). I was in a classroom, sucking my right breast and fell asleep. I woke when children started filing in. I asked if it was 3 o’clock already. I was wearing a white top where the back was gathered / pulled up / in together in the middle so that my garment top was shown.
(From Jan 25, 2018 Waiting)
I dreamt that I was lying next to Kyle, on his right side, watching tv. We were discussing a diy show that was just on, called “Bargain Mansions”. Something about her waiting until it gets dark to show it?
There’s a window in / on the wall to my right, close enough for me to touch the blinds. As we’re talking, we hear noises outside which sound like someone may be (playing) out there with the cats. I attempt to separate the blinds to see what it was, but I’m not able to.
A man then speaks in a (loud) whisper, as if wanting to influence me, asking, “Do you love me, Becky Boo / Buu? Do you love me?” (The second question, I wake up, and realize that it’s coming from a man in my room.)
I dreamt that I was telling my mom about this. This man was trying to push my arms / hands down to my pelvic area. There were dad’s suit coats, so I grabbed on to one so that he wouldn’t have power over me. I wasn’t able to tell mom about hearing his voice because he stopped me / wouldn’t let me.
(From Jan 24, 201 Fireworks)
I dreamt that I was looking down at some hills a bit in the distance. There were some fireworks going off, but weren’t the usual. Maybe more like electrical fireworks, and the colors were more of pastel / neon / LED.
I was only wearing my top garment as I was watching. There were several other people there as well. I then excitedly said that I better get dressed, as I walk toward the bedroom. A guy looked over me as I walked past. I wasn’t sure what all he saw.