Bethesda

I asked, “How do I get rid of the entity that keeps entering my body?” The words “Bethesda” and then later, “Bathsheba”.

(From Dec 25, 2017 Birth)

I asked what was meant by the dream of me being spiritually connected with this guy. I dreamt something about land. A guy was showing it to me, and I think there were buildings, but I don’t remember what it was all about.

I dreamt about a little pig in a house. I think it may have talked.

I dreamt that Prince Harry and Meghan Markle both had big round blue eyes. Meghan had red markings on her legs from being nervous from being asked something.

There was a girl who was playing dead. She was in the bathroom and we were to find her. I didn’t want to look. A girl opened the door, and then the “dead” girl came out. She looked like her neck was sliced open, and there was a black hole there.

I dreamt that the mother cat, of the girls, had / gave birth to 3 new kittens. I was mystified because she was spayed.

(From Dec 24, 2017 Mom)

I dreamt that a guy was looking into a dark space (this is a b&w cartoon), and there’s a stick it note with an arrow pointing down. He looks as if he’s looking into virtual reality.

There are two other guys, one of them asking a question, something to do with playing golf, hence the arrow. The next caption has the first guy holding a check for $72 ($82?) for taquitos. One of the other two guys says, “Or otherwise.”

I dreamt that I saw a name, of a guy I was talking to online, on Google plus, and swiped left to check it out. There was a video of him sitting with a white shaving cream looking beard. There was a woman (30’s / 40’s) sitting to his right. I said, “Oh, he’s married”, but then realized that I didn’t know that.

There were five children in front of him, one a boy (11 / 12) with the same looking beard. I saw his daughter, made note that she was there. There were two children sitting on the floor to his left, a little behind him.

There was a woman, same age as other, sitting on the floor in front of him to his left a little, with two children. When I first saw her, I thought that she was a child. I then heard one of the children calling out “mom”. I don’t know who was saying it, and neither of the women moved. 

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Be Solid

I asked, “What do I have to do to leave this house?” The words, “Be solid” came to mind.

 I dreamt that a female told me that she saw Greg using crack. I halfway believed it, but kept saying, “No, no, no.” She said to look under his car seat.

I dreamt that mom had a light brown comforter and asked me to help situate it on the bed. It was wide enough for 2, or 3 king size beds, and about as long.

I dreamt that we saw some luggage pieces that were stacked, and on the bottom were a couple pieces, on each side, that we thought were gone. I don’t remember if they were all the same, but the one I saw was pink with a gingham style design with big fancy letters, with curls, spelling “Dad.” The word was going from the left side to the top.

I dreamt that I was on a type of bike, at night, with someone sitting behind me, and we were trying to get up a hill. We got halfway up, but were having a difficult time going the rest of the way / getting to the top, where people were.

I was afraid that the gears were going to get stripped because of the difficult time / difficulty we were having.

I dreamt something about being instructed on using a clickable pen for using drugs. A guy was saying something about when you click the pen open (and let go?), to use the end part (that goes inside), which looked like a blade.

I dreamt of being in an exercise class with some visiting acrobats. The female teacher asked them to show us a small performance on the rectangular trampolines that were there.

I dreamt (or in same dream) of a girl telling the teacher / instructor that there weren’t enough men in the class. They were using the stretch / rubber bands. Some of them were up against a wall.

I dreamt about a woman, and her golden retriever, going home, at night, using a dirt path at the right end of the street / block. She was on a bike. There was a field up front, and the houses were in back. 

Someone covered a couple deep lines that were in the dirt that looked like a slanted 11. I was telling a lady (Starbucks customer who does jazzercise?) about this lady. (I watched a Ted x talk about death and dying. 11 weeks until death, dreams and visions of the deceased are increased. I don’t know if that is a connection.)

The word, “Vukuraba” came to mind, which is the Bantu language of Shona, which means “Find out.”

I dreamt of a huge baby (parade balloon size) with transparent skin so that the organs could be seen. It fell through a second story (?) inside a building. 

There were several people there, two women and a man, who seemed to have been doing an experiment / research on the baby. It died after it fell through. 

The women, facing me, almost looked like twins, with short dark hair. The one on the right had a chin like Greg, and had about 4 staples on the bottom of the white of her eyes. I was concerned that if it had gone into the iris (colored part) that she would’ve lost her sight. There was something about them that made me feel uneasy.

Worry

I asked, “What is the meaning of the missile?” I dreamt that an old man gave Sara $1000 so that she wouldn’t have to worry about carrying her phone around and she could get a new one. He had stinky breath.

I dreamt that it was dark / night. I was outside where there were a bunch of people. There were two long horizontal buildings, which were Carl’s Jr / McDonald’s combination restaurants. The one on the left was further back than the one on the right. There were long lines at both places. The ordering was done outside. 

I was at the building on the right and was walking to the end of a line. I saw a young Mexican girl in line by herself. Her shirt mentioned something about Taurus. I wanted to ask her when her birthday is, and then I was going to tell her mine. I didn’t say anything because I wasn’t sure if I should / got scared.

There are a bunch of children in the lines, as if several schools had stopped here. They all came over to where I was. 

When it was my turn to order, I forgot that Ali hadn’t paid me back. I mentioned that I have a lot of rubber bands, which were accepted as payment. Mando may have been one of the two workers, who were standing in front of the building. 

The food was above where the menu signs would’ve been. I wanted to get something that was $6, but didn’t want to take advantage of the situation, so I took three $1 items. One was a packaged blueberry muffin, in plastic (like seen at stores), a package of 6 blueberry rolls (such as cinnamon rolls), and a square of crumb / coffee cake.

I dreamt that there was a black wasp wanting to sting / poke me. I was trying to swat it away, before the venom / poison got in me, but it finally got my right pointer finger (?). I was trying to pull it out, by pushing on something to get it out. I finally decided to grab it from the neck, like a cat.

I dreamt of Oprah as a guest on a talk show, along with another lady. They were sitting on the left of a circular stage, Oprah sitting on the left of the lady.

There was another woman there, in the audience who I didn’t see, who had done a lot of service with her money. Oprah was amazed at this. I, or someone else, mentioned to her that she had done / does the same.

I dreamt that Arnold Schwarzenegger was standing in front of a fridge that was in front of me on the left. He was shorter than me so I asked him if he had shrunk, and he said yes. He was also wearing a dress and 1 inch (?) heels. I think I said something about him looking like a woman.

Child

I asked, “What is the meaning of the gorilla?” I saw me playing with the face of a child.

I dreamt that I was a missionary. A bunch of us had gathered for some fun activities / games. James Garner was sitting in one of the chairs for one of the games. We were divided into 4’s, with numbers on screens / dividers that were separating us.

I wanted to ask him when he became / how long has he been a member of the church but I never got up enough courage.

The missionaries then went home, but I was told to stay because / since I was going home. 

I dreamt that I was in water (ocean?) and there was a black missile headed toward me, as if programmed. Coming from above, from behind, and then leveling. I was able to turn it around before it exploded.

When it did, underneath something that I didn’t see, I thought that I needed to duck under the water for protection but then saw that I was far enough away that I wouldn’t be affected by the blast.

(From Jan 18, 2018 Blocking)

I asked if Ali and I are supposed to have children. I dreamt of an electric train. As it was going along, among mountains (?), it was supposed to turn left on the tracks, but there was a regular train already there, blocking the way. 

After the electric train was to turn left, there was a fork, and it was to take the right side. The regular train did back up enough to let the electric train go on its way. 

I dreamt that I was with people, and there was a guy smiling at me. I was thinking that I don’t have to hide because he already sees me. 

I dreamt that I thought mom had disappeared / I lost her, but a woman told me where to find her (in a store?). She said it almost in a way as if asking herself / myself how could I be so reckless. I think there were clothes involved, and maybe a princess dress.

I dreamt that I was walking on an uphill street, on the left side. It was dark, as if night, but people were going on as usual. I was naked, and thought that I should’ve worn that (princess) dress. I was unsure of myself a little about people seeing me. 

There were some guys across the street playing baseball in a baseball field, and was a bit concerned about them seeing me, but they were busy / caught up doing their own thing.

I saw ahead of me city workers working along the sidewalk, with children, teaching them. I figured that I could continue since I wasn’t in a car. One of the workers told me that I couldn’t, so I crossed over to the other side.

I dreamt that I had climbed straight up a hill (?), and at the top were the grass like plants / reeds, and I was grabbing on to them, hoping that they wouldn’t come out of the ground / I would pull them up so that I could get to the top and on my feet. I was praying aloud, asking God to help me. As far as I know, He didn’t, but let me go at it alone. 

I then saw Asian people sitting on the ground at the top, so I was asking / pleading for them to help. None of them moved, continuing to look past me. I did finally make it up. I then sarcastically said to them, “Thank you for helping me.” 

Finally Came

I dreamt that I was watching a movie, with Kenny Rogers and John Schneider, from the 70’s / 80’s, but they were their age that they are now. I was telling someone that I really liked one of the songs. 

John was telling someone that they could call him dad. Kenny was up on the (balcony) roof with someone else.

I dreamt about Integars, as a last name (?).

I dreamt about trying to find a woman (who was in a picture(s)?), and that she finally came / showed up.

(From Jan 23, 2018 Melt For You )

I dreamt that I was inside, and told not to go outside because people were being killed, and it was raining. 

I dreamt that several women (tho/ese?) were driving (in one car) to Miami with their grandmothers for vacation. The grandmothers were acting as if they were those motion things that some people stick to their dashboard.

I dreamt of a guy singing, “I’ll melt for you.” This was his own song, and not the one from the 80’s called, “I’ll melt with you.”

(From Jan 22, 2018 Children)

I dreamt that I was in a shirt and underwear. I opened the door to look outside. I was above the other homes, and thought that they might be able to see me like this, so I closed the door.

I dreamt of a tall black man who dealt with a lot of children (perhaps like a community mentor?).

(From Jan 21, 2018 Given Away)

I dreamt that the cats were going to be given away, and I was crying to mom to not let them. She said that Steve’s (?) turtles (doesn’t have irl) were also going to be given away, and I said that that’s different because they’re just turtles.

(From Jan 19, 2018 Married)

I dreamt that I, and another girl, got married to guys that we didn’t know, at least I didn’t. We were to stay together, as a group, and as companions. As we were walking out to the car, I was holding the key, and wondering if I should drive.

I was wearing the white skirt with ____ that I like to wear. I suppose that the guy I married ended up driving since that part was skipped. (After we arrived at our destination) I was tired, so I went to bed. 

(In the morning?) When I woke up, I realized that he was young, good looking, with short red hair. He told me that he had sex with me while I was sleeping. I wondered if I had snored. He seemed to be ok with the experience.

I dreamt that the other girl had her stuff together in the car. I had to go back home to get mine. I hadn’t brushed my teeth, and still had a dirty mouth. My face still felt relatively smooth, but still wanted to work on it. 

At some point after getting back home, they took off without me, forgetting about me. My mom said something about calling those three, but I said that because they had forgotten about me, maybe that means that I’m not ready.

When I got home, several apostles / leaders of the church came, with a tall woman. She was wearing a dress. I didn’t see their faces, only their suits.

I don’t know how tall this woman was since I didn’t stand next to her. She went in the kitchen, and started to get some food ready for them. The kitchen island was a tad bit short, but workable. She pulled out the cutting board that was in the island. I think she had cucumbers. 

Lying

I asked, “Is there someone, masquerading as me, appearing and talking to Ali?” I don’t remember the order of these. They may also be within the same dream.

I dreamt that a girl had an abortion (?). I didn’t see her, but sensed that she was lying down. We were waiting, in a hallway, for her verdict / sentencing for doing so. 

There was something about women / this girl who decide whether or not to have (more) children, based on the good / fun times, or all the messes and tiredness.

I dreamt that I was watching a video / performance of a band who were singing a song, in first person, about being / about to become extinct(ion). I was thinking that one of the guys wasn’t actually making any noise, only moving his mouth. It looked similar to the performance of Greased Lightning from the movie Grease, standing on the cars.

I dreamt about Oprah, but she was white, and I knew that she had a grown son. We were using pencils to fill in a picture for a contest. I don’t know how big the picture was. I either said out loud, or only thought, jokingly, “What’s a woman to do with all that money?”

I dreamt that I was looking out back and there was a gorilla and a small black terrier at the back of the backyard (about 30 – 50 yards back) looking back at me, waiting for me to bring them some food. They were standing separate from each other, a couple feet between them, the dog on the left. They were sitting still, just looking at me, and waiting.

I dreamt about a lady and her week old baby. I mentioned how big is, because it looked like it was a month, or more. I also mentioned that it was weird that a week ago the baby wasn’t here.

(From Feb 9, 2018 Get Ali)

I dreamt that a gay guy was in one of the rooms of the house, though it looked different, doing the “white glove” test, without the gloves. 

After seeing some dust, he said that I should get Ali to clean this room. I was thinking that it was my job to clean that room, but didn’t say anything.

(From Feb 7, 2018 Layers)

I dreamt of being at a fashion show and the dresses (at least the bottom since I didn’t see the top) looked like the southern belle type, but only half (or a third?) as full, and had layers. 

I remember seeing two dresses. One of them looked like it was made with scraps of fabric going all directions. The other one looked like it had shoes at the waist. I’m sure there were others, but I don’t remember them.

I dreamt that I was inside a room inside a building. The floor I was on looked like an office floor with the doors belonging to different companies.

It looked a little dark, as they are sometimes portrayed, but not in a scary way. I was at the door, and Ivana Trump was at the door in the hallway. 

For some reason, I asked her if the name “Vanna” meant anything. She started repeating, saying a poem / saying in her language, then said what Vanna meant. I can’t remember what she said.

She passed by again, and I asked her something, about her, but she wasn’t able to fully respond because a lady down the hallway, to the left, was calling for her. 

(From Feb 6, 2018 Went Away)

I dreamt about a dirty family consisting of the parents, and a grown son. The father was wearing a white muscle shirt that was slit down the front middle.

I dreamt about a hose staying still up in the air, curved, holding up water, per se. There was a black lab (?) dog in the water, moving around, like it was normal. I touched the hose, and the water went away.

I dreamt about a couple of teens (?) putting spraying foam on a wall. I think above some windows. I think a man showed up, and they felt as if they were caught doing something they shouldn’t, so they crashed through some / the windows.

Clear Away

I asked, “How do I block the entities from entering the house?” I dreamt that a woman was able to buy a mansion type house (didn’t see) outside of the city center. She was pleased / grateful that she had the money to be able to do so.

There were some overgrown shrubs, along / at the end of a pathway, so she cleared them.

I dreamt that I touched the wrong link on the tablet screen and was frantically trying to stop it so that I could go where I wanted.

I dreamt that a man was coming toward me, giving me a cookie, which represented that I was the one (among others who were there) who had won a / the prize. I knew it was me the closer he got, but wasn’t sure if I should believe it.

I figured that I was the one who won because of what I had written about a guy who once was married to Kim Kardashian. 

I then saw myself, as a passenger, with another woman in between us, in his truck. He was going downhill fast. I asked him how he wanted to die. He slowed down, but not for long.

I think I mentioned / pointed out to the guy, while we were going downhill, how / that he used to be married to Kim Kardashian. I felt as if it wasn’t supposed to be known. As I was saying this, I was envisioning her in a truck with him / another guy. 

There were houses at the end of the street, and he crashed into one. As he was doing so, I was repeatedly telling myself that this was my dream. As he was crashing through, we were crashing through door after door.

The truck finally stopped at the owners bedroom, on top of their bed, which was in the garage. I felt the truck sink into the bed. They were able to get out without being hurt. I was thankful that no one was. I was thinking, “What a way to start a Sunday morning.”

 I went to look at the hole in the house that was made. Neighbors came out to look, and I think there was a young black guy on the phone, telling the other person about it.

(From March 14, 2018 Showed Up)

I dreamt that Ali and I were in an overstuffed, standing room only, fast food restaurant / place for breakfast. I don’t know where he was. I was at the counter ordering French toast that was over $7, and hot chocolate that was over $4. 

As I was finishing my order, Ali showed up to pay. I was calculating the cost of the food, kind of wondering if he would pay. He did so without any fuss.

I dreamt that mom had a 3 year old blonde down syndrome girl on her lap, helping her type on a / the laptop. I think the girl, or my mom, perhaps both, were wearing a bit of pink.

I dreamt something about being at a soccer game, before it started. I don’t care much for it, but I knew Mark does, who was there. It seems I was either down on the field, or in the seats close to the field. I was standing. I think it was in the evening.

Here It Comes

I dreamt something about the size of a window opening for (my?) spirit to come / go through.

I dreamt that I was looking outside, from inside the house, and seeing a guy from church (in the dream) walk past, from right to left. There were (somewhat) open blinds.

He saw me looking at him. I may have smiled, to be friendly. I either thought, or said out loud, that we still can’t always trust people we “know”, as I was locking the door, by flipping down the lever that is used.

Mom had gone to take a shower. While she was in the bathroom, I could feel an uneasiness concerning that guy. There was a small hallway where the bathroom was, which was on the right (in the middle?). I hid in there at the entrance, hearing the cat / dog door moving, knowing that it was him. I said, “Here It Comes”.

I dreamt that I was slowly touching / feeling my right breast, with my left hand, twisting my shirt, while writing a story. I was trying to do it without being seen.

(From March 15, 2018 Still Cold)

I dreamt that I was inside a house, naked, but with shoes on. I was looking out back and saw a bunch of different animals pass by from right to left. They were huge.There were birds, and I think maybe deer. I don’t remember all. 

I then went to a different part of the house to the left. It was morning, dark outside, and I was wondering what happened to all the animals / why did they disappear?

The tabby cat was outside, on the left, and started to come toward me to come back inside because it was still a bit cold out there. There was a small area to the left with dirt and small (palm?) trees. The Siamese boy’s mother was laying amongst them, and when she saw the tabby coming, she got up as well.

I dreamt that I was at some sort of conference with several hundred people. In the middle, or maybe near the back (I didn’t look behind me), there was an open row for people who wanted to stand. I saw women there, not sure if any men were standing.

There were some pictures being shown on a screen up front. I was a row or two behind the standing people, to the right. One picture was of a guy with a funky display of his tie. 

The man in charge (?), up in front of everyone, was then asking about some sort of computer program which was then being shown (the cover of the program, not the program itself). The color chosen was a brownish color. 

No one was answering him so I said out loud, “I have the program but my computer isn’t / doesn’t work(ing).” I didn’t make myself known that I was the one who spoke, and no one asked. 

I dreamt that I saw a house up on a hill and wondered if they saw me, but thought that they couldn’t.

Finished Eating

(From March 21, 2018)

I dreamt that a black guy had one of his arms up next to my left cheek, as if I was hugging it. I was concerned that he would feel the hair on my face, but I didn’t move. 

I dreamt that I had finished eating at a food place / restaurant with someone else. Amy then invited us to eat there with her, and some other relatives (?). We agreed, deciding to only have water / minimal food. 

(From March 20, 2018 Puffed Up)

I dreamt about an older Adam West, and food. 

I dreamt of a not nice woman in a dress that was puffed up like a down coat.

(From March 19, 2018 Left Behind)

I dreamt that I was on the edge of a freeway (?) with bicycles coming toward me from both directions and I was wanting to go on a path / trail that I thought would take me where I wanted but it didn’t.

I dreamt that I was home / at mom’s, and she was turning off the lights because she / we needed to go. I was crying because I didn’t want to be left behind.

I didn’t have my bra on, so I started up the stairs to get it. I was thinking that it was ok for me to be crying at this age. 

I dreamt that I was looking at a picture I had taken long ago of a backyard, on the right side. There was a loosely shaped kidney pool with what looked like a carport at the end of the house, but I don’t think it opened to the front. There was greenery on both sides of the yard / pool.

I dreamt that I had returned home after being away for a while. It was dark. Mom was about to go to work with a guy who came to pick her up. I asked (?) why she was working again, and someone said that dad was making her. 

When the guy came to pick her up, he went off to do something, so I warned her about him that I didn’t feel right about him. I’m not sure if she was paying attention because she didn’t acknowledge that I was speaking to her. 

A door was open and I closed it so no strangers (or something unwanted) would get in. Someone opened it again.

I dreamt that I was looking at a murder story book that Hallmark had made into a movie. Mark was acting as  / like the scared person (not in the movie). 

I dreamt that the house was dark inside and I thought I saw the neighbor cat inside, but it was something else.

Wasn’t Needed

(From March 23, 2018)

I dreamt that I was able to fly and I was flying over people that I was at a gathering with. No one looked up, and so never saw me. While I was flying, I saw a fast moving car coming from right to left. I was afraid that it would hit the people but it slowed down as it got closer. I finally came back down. A little while later I tried again to fly but wasn’t able to. I figured that it was because it wasn’t needed this time.

I dreamt that I saw a small white a – frame house (about the size of the school / church combo used in the 1800’s) on its right side (on a hill?) surrounded by green grass all over. 

I dreamt I was inside (this building?) and on the right side in front of me, was a small round table with a couple things on it. One of them was a b&w art piece / drawing / illustration of a woman’s face looking slightly to her right with eyes closed with right arm under her chin with her hair flowing down on her right.

(From March 22, 2018 Back To Me)

I dreamt that I was a passenger being driven somewhere. It was dark outside. The guy who was driving was tall and lean and Christian. He may even have had blonde hair. 

On the left, we drove past some businesses (small like a strip mall) and at the end of the building was a residence with the front big window open. There was a table horizontal with the window.

There were people sitting around it. The owner was on the left and his wife on the right. I heard what sounded like mom’s voice and I may have mentioned it out loud because someone acknowledged that she was there. I then saw her sitting between the table and window with her back to me. 

I dreamt that the driver was standing and his shirt (polo type?) was untucked and a bit longer than usual. I was thinking how lucky he was not to have to wear a dress like me.

I dreamt that we were at an event / exhibition / ? where crystals were being shown one in each room. There was a couple there and I knew (?) that they practiced tantric sex to become closer. 

In one room was a crystal, palm size, with a knife size opening on the left. It may have been in the pink family? The lady, in the room, showed how you could still see water inside by placing a knife (like a pocket knife type) in the opening, and somehow was able to bring out some that had formed into a ball mixed with the crystal.

It flew in the air, almost as if in space, into another lady’s mouth, who ate it. 

I woke with the words, “I can’t be who you are” from Linkin Park’s song “Leave Out (All The) Rest”.