Let It Go

I asked, “What is the meaning of the black dog?” I was told that i don’t want to understand it, and then the thought of the Ioniq car came to mind. The words, “Let it go” came to mind.

(From Jan 8, 2018 Pass Me By)

I asked to know when I was going to, or if I was going to, win the lottery. I saw myself holding a child on each hip.

I dreamt that I was standing by a roadside, watching several / the cars pass me by, from left to right. I didn’t see / notice any going the other direction. 

I realized that all the bends in the road, going to the right, were all the same. I decided to paint numbers on them so that no one would get lost. 

(From Jan 7, 2018 Building)

I asked why I had dreamt of winning the lottery. I dreamt that I was out in nowhere, with a couple other people, and we saw an old building. From the back, it looked like it used to be a store, like from the old west. 

Going to the front, you could see that it was a Spanish style church, all white, and all stuccoed, including the door. We went back to the back, and saw that there was an opening, so we went in. 

There was a young family there, living, and restoring the building. From where we were, though, you wouldn’t be able to tell. We saw the spirit of a man, who used to live here, in the face of the man who was here, and we all agreed that we saw him, and I didn’t freak out.

As we were walking around, we found some highlighted words that corresponded to this previous man, knowing he was going to commit suicide, and perhaps this was his way of hoping someone would notice before he did it.

I dreamt that there was lightning, and it touched me, without harming me. 

(From Jan 2, 2018 Isn’t Strong)

I dreamt of the blonde son in the “Chesapeake Shores” show. He used several initials for the show, which was something else. 

I figured that since he was here, I would talk to him. I mentioned his character in the Christmas movie with Danica McKellar. I don’t remember exactly what I said. 

Then I either thought, or did speak, about Meghan Ory’s character on Chesapeake, and how she isn’t strong. I think I got it all out, or maybe I was disrupted at the end so that my words trailed off. 

He had been (lying?) next to me this whole time, on my left. He then rubbed me (down there) a couple times, smiling.

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Dying

I asked the same question. I dreamt that mom was going to be “euthanized”. Her right arm was in something similar to a blood pressure cuff, but fitting her whole arm, and in water. 

She was confused as to what was happening, and I didn’t understand why it was happening. She was to fall asleep, and that would be when she passes.

I dreamt that some people (Maine Cabin Masters?) had an old white small dog and were taking it out to a dirt area / field to end its life. I was thinking that I was able to understand when it came to the dog because it had done something where I could see the health was affected.

I dreamt that I was driving on the right side, and wasn’t able to slow down fast enough before hitting a white Tesla that was in front of me. I don’t remember why the traffic was slowing down.

The back of the Tesla did get crunched some, but not too tragically. I was waiting for them to pull over so that we could exchange information. I was concerned because it was Ali’s car.

There was a Tesla dealership up ahead a small distance with a u turn / circular entrance, which the car used to exchange for a newer model, never coming back out, so I continued on.

I dreamt of a young Mexican girl (20’s?) who had married an older (40’s?) man. They had been drinking and she got drunk, having a good time and laughing. He then drove somewhere. As they were going, she had a concerned look on her face for a couple seconds then went back to laughing.

After arriving wherever they were going, he passed out on top of her as she was in the drivers seat. She quickly was driving back home, in that situation with him on her, when he woke / roused for only a couple seconds.

I dreamt of a young Mexican girl (same?) who was on video, new on her job. She may have been a reporter. The ladies behind the cameras were telling her to turn on / push the record button. She wasn’t getting it so one of them came over and did it.

I dreamt something with a heavy rain.

I dreamt that Kyle woke me up for work. He was standing on my right, leaning over me. It was still dark so I had to situate to find his lips to kiss.

I dreamt that the orange and white tabby had a certain job to do.

Worry

I asked, “What is the meaning of the missile?” I dreamt that an old man gave Sara $1000 so that she wouldn’t have to worry about carrying her phone around and she could get a new one. He had stinky breath.

I dreamt that it was dark / night. I was outside where there were a bunch of people. There were two long horizontal buildings, which were Carl’s Jr / McDonald’s combination restaurants. The one on the left was further back than the one on the right. There were long lines at both places. The ordering was done outside. 

I was at the building on the right and was walking to the end of a line. I saw a young Mexican girl in line by herself. Her shirt mentioned something about Taurus. I wanted to ask her when her birthday is, and then I was going to tell her mine. I didn’t say anything because I wasn’t sure if I should / got scared.

There are a bunch of children in the lines, as if several schools had stopped here. They all came over to where I was. 

When it was my turn to order, I forgot that Ali hadn’t paid me back. I mentioned that I have a lot of rubber bands, which were accepted as payment. Mando may have been one of the two workers, who were standing in front of the building. 

The food was above where the menu signs would’ve been. I wanted to get something that was $6, but didn’t want to take advantage of the situation, so I took three $1 items. One was a packaged blueberry muffin, in plastic (like seen at stores), a package of 6 blueberry rolls (such as cinnamon rolls), and a square of crumb / coffee cake.

I dreamt that there was a black wasp wanting to sting / poke me. I was trying to swat it away, before the venom / poison got in me, but it finally got my right pointer finger (?). I was trying to pull it out, by pushing on something to get it out. I finally decided to grab it from the neck, like a cat.

I dreamt of Oprah as a guest on a talk show, along with another lady. They were sitting on the left of a circular stage, Oprah sitting on the left of the lady.

There was another woman there, in the audience who I didn’t see, who had done a lot of service with her money. Oprah was amazed at this. I, or someone else, mentioned to her that she had done / does the same.

I dreamt that Arnold Schwarzenegger was standing in front of a fridge that was in front of me on the left. He was shorter than me so I asked him if he had shrunk, and he said yes. He was also wearing a dress and 1 inch (?) heels. I think I said something about him looking like a woman.

Finally Came

I dreamt that I was watching a movie, with Kenny Rogers and John Schneider, from the 70’s / 80’s, but they were their age that they are now. I was telling someone that I really liked one of the songs. 

John was telling someone that they could call him dad. Kenny was up on the (balcony) roof with someone else.

I dreamt about Integars, as a last name (?).

I dreamt about trying to find a woman (who was in a picture(s)?), and that she finally came / showed up.

(From Jan 23, 2018 Melt For You )

I dreamt that I was inside, and told not to go outside because people were being killed, and it was raining. 

I dreamt that several women (tho/ese?) were driving (in one car) to Miami with their grandmothers for vacation. The grandmothers were acting as if they were those motion things that some people stick to their dashboard.

I dreamt of a guy singing, “I’ll melt for you.” This was his own song, and not the one from the 80’s called, “I’ll melt with you.”

(From Jan 22, 2018 Children)

I dreamt that I was in a shirt and underwear. I opened the door to look outside. I was above the other homes, and thought that they might be able to see me like this, so I closed the door.

I dreamt of a tall black man who dealt with a lot of children (perhaps like a community mentor?).

(From Jan 21, 2018 Given Away)

I dreamt that the cats were going to be given away, and I was crying to mom to not let them. She said that Steve’s (?) turtles (doesn’t have irl) were also going to be given away, and I said that that’s different because they’re just turtles.

(From Jan 19, 2018 Married)

I dreamt that I, and another girl, got married to guys that we didn’t know, at least I didn’t. We were to stay together, as a group, and as companions. As we were walking out to the car, I was holding the key, and wondering if I should drive.

I was wearing the white skirt with ____ that I like to wear. I suppose that the guy I married ended up driving since that part was skipped. (After we arrived at our destination) I was tired, so I went to bed. 

(In the morning?) When I woke up, I realized that he was young, good looking, with short red hair. He told me that he had sex with me while I was sleeping. I wondered if I had snored. He seemed to be ok with the experience.

I dreamt that the other girl had her stuff together in the car. I had to go back home to get mine. I hadn’t brushed my teeth, and still had a dirty mouth. My face still felt relatively smooth, but still wanted to work on it. 

At some point after getting back home, they took off without me, forgetting about me. My mom said something about calling those three, but I said that because they had forgotten about me, maybe that means that I’m not ready.

When I got home, several apostles / leaders of the church came, with a tall woman. She was wearing a dress. I didn’t see their faces, only their suits.

I don’t know how tall this woman was since I didn’t stand next to her. She went in the kitchen, and started to get some food ready for them. The kitchen island was a tad bit short, but workable. She pulled out the cutting board that was in the island. I think she had cucumbers. 

Made It

I dreamt that there was a guy sitting / lounging, and I had to step over him. After I did, I told him that I made it. 

I dreamt that I was staying / visiting at Amy’s. I couldn’t remember which bedroom, at the end of the hall, that I was using. I went to the one on the right.

Amy was lying naked on the bed, which was in the back left corner. She had a blanket, or something, covering the top of her, draping down to the floor. She was touching / playing with herself. She saw me, and I hurriedly closed the door.

(From Feb 20, 2018 On My Way Out)

I dreamt that I was looking at different scenes from the Maine Cabin Masters tv show, of different cabins in the demo stage on the inside. 

I dreamt that I had driven down a dirt road / path, and water was starting to come in. It seems that someone else was with me. My mom?

I then turned around, and there was a fence bordering this area, and a Mexican girl at the gate getting ready to close it up when she saw me, and I waved at her from inside the car to let her know that I was on my way out.

I dreamt of Amy driving on a freeway with wide lanes. They were wide enough that she moved over to the right to let the car behind pass, but then she decided against it and moved back over. 

The freeway had holes here and there, but not too bad. There were about a handful of cars on the road.

(From Feb 19, 2018 Loves Me)

There was a guy on LinkedIn who messaged me a couple times. I dreamt that he wrote me, telling me that he loves me.

(From Feb 17, 2018 Wet The Bear)

I dreamt that I was laying in bed and nursing a cat. Later in the dream, the cat didn’t want to. 

I dreamt that I was nursing a baby. 

The words, “Wet the Bear” came into my head.

(From Feb 16, 2018 Blocking)

I dreamt that there were some people / family moving in at the end of a cul – de – sac. Instead of using a moving truck, they used train cars, and had several of them lining up on the right side of the street. I don’t know if there were any blocking driveways since I was across the street looking in.

(From Feb 12, 2018 Clean Up)

I dreamt that I hadn’t taken care of the hair on my chin. There was a young guy in front of me, to the right. I was in (the) light and he didn’t seem bothered, but then I wasn’t sure what he was able to see.

I dreamt that I had taken off a scab on my right cheek and a girl told me not to do that.

I dreamt that Robin Williams was walking in the middle behind two guys and I pointed him out to someone. 

I dreamt that I was at Jenny’s house (before she married). I was going to go to church with her. I got there around 6 am, sleeping on the stairs at the entrance that are in front of the door, somewhat like as if you were going to go up in an attic.

When she finally came out, dressed up, she turned into Briana, and said that she wasn’t going, but was spending the weekend with two other people.

When I was there, I hadn’t even showered yet, needing to go back home to clean up.

(From Feb 11, 2018 Lottery)

I dreamt that I was watching a big screen tv about the width size of a theater screen, and perhaps half the height. A young boy won the lottery when it was in the $200’s. I don’t remember exactly how much, but it was less than $250.

After he won, I won when it was $532. 

I dreamt that I was watching The Simpson’s, and they were jogging / running somewhere and they were singing / having a good time full of breath.

One guy swore, trying to disguise it. I thought, “Don’t they know that children are watching?” 

 I dreamt that I was flying (?) above a group of people, going somewhere, and I was joyfully singing in a different language.

I dreamt that there was a group of people, in different groups, involved in different activities. At the end, there was a girl who’s left leg was stripped to the bone from the knee down.

She kept calm, and I praised her for it. I don’t remember how it happened, but I let out a scream (?) / became loud so that the others stopped what they were doing, and came over.

I dreamt about a guy having a bloody ear, and people in a frenzy wanting to know where his heart was to find it.

(From Feb 10, 2018 The Devil)

I dreamt that there was flooding caused by the devil. There were papers under a clear storage container, that was low and flat. I got anxious about them getting wet so hurriedly picked them up.

Long Hair 

(From March 11, 2018)

I dreamt of a religion where the ladies had to have long hair, and it always had to be braided, and it could be any way that they wished.

(From March 10, 2018 In Front)

I dreamt that I had wart like bumps, of different sizes, growing on my right shoulder, mostly in front. Some I was able to rub off (the smaller ones). There was a bee that was attracted to my shoulder. 

(From March 8, 2018 Showing Up)

I dreamt that (young) Steve was leaving to go to school. I was up, and ready, but didn’t go because I didn’t want to take the bus. I may have said, out loud, that I almost want to go. I did go to school occasionally, perhaps showing up enough to not get dropped.

(From March 7, 2018 Open)

I dreamt that I was at a house that I had seen for sale (waking life) where female missionaries live. There was a guy also there, I don’t know why. 

After he left, I got a bad feeling about him and told the missionaries to close up and lock the windows. As that was being done, he came back wanting to come in through the windows.

One of the rooms had a lot of stuff lined up under the windows. Again, I mentioned to one of them to close up those windows, as they were open a bit. She got upset at me for telling her to do that. I told them to hide.

I dreamt something with a pink cartoon guy / figure in the air in front of my dad. This character was acting like he was building a huge loogie to spit at my dad. 

As he was doing so, there was some sort of intensity (?) volume level (?) that my dad turned down. The level was horizontal.

Clear Away

I asked, “How do I block the entities from entering the house?” I dreamt that a woman was able to buy a mansion type house (didn’t see) outside of the city center. She was pleased / grateful that she had the money to be able to do so.

There were some overgrown shrubs, along / at the end of a pathway, so she cleared them.

I dreamt that I touched the wrong link on the tablet screen and was frantically trying to stop it so that I could go where I wanted.

I dreamt that a man was coming toward me, giving me a cookie, which represented that I was the one (among others who were there) who had won a / the prize. I knew it was me the closer he got, but wasn’t sure if I should believe it.

I figured that I was the one who won because of what I had written about a guy who once was married to Kim Kardashian. 

I then saw myself, as a passenger, with another woman in between us, in his truck. He was going downhill fast. I asked him how he wanted to die. He slowed down, but not for long.

I think I mentioned / pointed out to the guy, while we were going downhill, how / that he used to be married to Kim Kardashian. I felt as if it wasn’t supposed to be known. As I was saying this, I was envisioning her in a truck with him / another guy. 

There were houses at the end of the street, and he crashed into one. As he was doing so, I was repeatedly telling myself that this was my dream. As he was crashing through, we were crashing through door after door.

The truck finally stopped at the owners bedroom, on top of their bed, which was in the garage. I felt the truck sink into the bed. They were able to get out without being hurt. I was thankful that no one was. I was thinking, “What a way to start a Sunday morning.”

 I went to look at the hole in the house that was made. Neighbors came out to look, and I think there was a young black guy on the phone, telling the other person about it.

(From March 14, 2018 Showed Up)

I dreamt that Ali and I were in an overstuffed, standing room only, fast food restaurant / place for breakfast. I don’t know where he was. I was at the counter ordering French toast that was over $7, and hot chocolate that was over $4. 

As I was finishing my order, Ali showed up to pay. I was calculating the cost of the food, kind of wondering if he would pay. He did so without any fuss.

I dreamt that mom had a 3 year old blonde down syndrome girl on her lap, helping her type on a / the laptop. I think the girl, or my mom, perhaps both, were wearing a bit of pink.

I dreamt something about being at a soccer game, before it started. I don’t care much for it, but I knew Mark does, who was there. It seems I was either down on the field, or in the seats close to the field. I was standing. I think it was in the evening.

No One Came

I asked, “Did my spirit visit Ali while he was in Africa?” ( last year the voices told him that I had.) I dreamt that some relatives of the neighbor had moved in with him and his wife. Ali’s house belonged to my parents instead of him.

The relatives had a bedroom facing mine. Everyone was trying to figure out how to situate the rooms (my family in my room) so that we’re not looking at each other. I told my mom, between whisper and normal, that I was here first (meaning that I shouldn’t have to reconfigure my room).

I dreamt that the family was in the garage. I don’t remember why. Judy swore, and then a little later, said that Zac was averse (used that word?) to religion. I almost said, “You are too”, but decided not to.

The family went back inside the house, closing the door, which was a regular size (or a little bigger), but had the garage door “crinkly” look. I don’t know why I stayed behind / didn’t go in.

After the door closed, walls started to appear all over, and closing in. I started loudly crying, figuring that they should have heard me since they had just walked in. No one came.

I banged on the door. Still, no one came / showed up. I cried so hard that my voice was getting hoarse, making it hard to cry / make noise. I started becoming conscious at the end of being enveloped in.

I dreamt that I was lying down, in a (semi?) public area, inside. A bearded man (husband?) was there. I teasingly asked him if he wanted to look below. He started to enter me a couple times. He was just long enough to fit.

The woman was then someone else, and I was out of the (somewhat) secluded narrow (like in the e r) room that we were in (no door). They were having sex to have a baby. They had two older children (boy and girl 6 – 8), and maybe a baby inside with them. The boy and girl were standing at the doorway, sometimes looking in at what they were doing.

(From March 24, 2018 Covering My Heart)

I dreamt that I was wearing a brace around my body / chest covering my heart. I would only wear this when I went to bed at night. I was listening to loud, on the dark side, music while looking for the cord that plugs into the brace.

I was looking in the cupboards above the counters in the kitchen where it’s usually kept, but couldn’t find it. I’m thinking that perhaps mom had put it somewhere else, though I wasn’t able to do a thorough check because some giant “monsters” (think Andre the giant) appeared because of the music.

I then frantically tried to remotely change the music to something calmer. I may have finally been able to do it before rushing away, but not sure.

One of the giants said something to me, but I didn’t respond. I ran upstairs to my bedroom, closing the door and hiding in the closet where I had one of my crocheted afghans.

I started to get the afghan ready to cover and hide when I heard a knock on the door. When I didn’t respond, they left. The good thing about this dream is that they weren’t attacking me.

I dreamt that I was seeing a tall building on a green hill that looked to be about two windows wide. This was a house for sale and there were two young people standing outside in front wanting to look inside to see about buying it. I realized that this was part of a reality show.

I dreamt that those two people had won the lottery and it was now showing them back home in a trailer park. Their trailer was so run down outside that it about looked like a shack.

Inside were these two (in their 20’s), their baby (not yet a year but not newborn), and a friend of his and a friend of hers. His friend was sitting next to the baby, saying something to me. The baby was sitting near a window, moving the curtains to look outside. Watching this, I realized that I had seen this episode before.

Outside, the baby’s mother came out upset, walking with white shorts that had an opening on the right side showing where her butt touches her leg. She walked over to the trailer next to them on the right. They (she & friends) were trying to persuade her husband / boyfriend to cash the lottery check so that they (he & family) could get some food and move into a better place.

I was standing to the right of the door to go inside, looking past it in the direction the girl had gone. A set of parents (his?) came over to see if they could convince him. They were both skinny, weathered and with long hair (seems he had).

I dreamt that the people / producers of the show had put up some writing on the screen at / after the last scene describing something about making this show for 15 years and learning from it (there was more to it). I was at an angle on the right front of the tv so that I didn’t get all of what it said. 

I dreamt that the girls friend was wearing what looked like a black bra / tube top barely covering on the bottom. She had a fishnet type thing over it. The black thing underneath kept moving up. She was looking at someone across the way debating on whether to go over. She finally did.

I dreamt that this young guy was walking around naked in a mall. I only saw from the back. Everyone was looking at him, shocked to see him there like that. 

I saw the girl, and her friend, walking from one end to the other as if going to see someone. She had her hands covering her breasts (? I was behind) as she walked. She was wearing a top with spaghetti straps that were down on her arms.

I was wondering why she didn’t pick up her straps to fix her shirt so that she wouldn’t have to keep her hands on her chest, but then I realized I didn’t know the situation since I was in back of them.

I dreamt that I was talking with Jay Leno, who happened to look young, asking him what was the first car he bought. I think he may have said Nissan, and he was giving the details.

There was someone else there with me, but not sure who (young Steve maybe?). He then was comparing the age of the car to me and I told him that I was born in 1972. 

I then wasn’t sure to ask more questions, but then the thought came to me that I need to “ask one to be one.” I then asked if he still buys , and I think he said yes. I wanted to ask how often, but I started waking up.

Down Below 

(From March 26, 2018)

I dreamt that I was driving on a freeway, on the way to work, near the fast lane. The cars started to slow down because there had been an accident up ahead and from what I could see, all the lanes were blocked with emergency vehicles.

For some reason, I checked to see if I was wearing my bra and said to myself, “Of course I’m wearing one”. I was wearing a white padded one. 

Before reaching the slowing / stopped traffic, I started to reach down for something and was still able to slow down / put on the brakes while looking out the window.

I dreamt that I had arrived at work around lunch time, so I ate my lunch. After eating, my manager / supervisor talked to me about that, though not harshly. 

He then was telling me, and showing, about an area with toys to be organized. I either said out loud, or thought, that I work down below. 

(From March 25, 2018 Legs Open)

I dreamt that there was a house that a family moved into that might be haunted. The house also may have been used for military at one time. I was thinking that for me, the night will come and go, but for them, who knows what will happen. The house was shaped as if someone had their legs open.

I then found myself across the way, with water in between. I wanted to cross back over, and saw a row of ice steps. I started to cross, and when I was almost to the other side, I started to fall. I think I said, “God, help me”, and then I was going through the air to where I could stand.

As I was walking away from the house, I wanted to say that I would be back (with others) but then thought that I better not in case I may provoke the spirits there.

I dreamt that my fingers, and the top of my thumb of my left hand, were cut off and the pads on my palm were a dark red.  I was frantic about it, and I was showing someone, maybe Ali. 

I dreamt of a young Asian girl quickly sketching a face and I was so impressed how quick and easy it came to her. She then showed me her sketchbook that she had made. One of the faces didn’t have a mouth and when I pointed it out, she said it was because she didn’t have a voice.

The conversation turned to candles, with several of them that had burnt lopsided. I then pointed out that 3 wick candles (behind us) were better because they melted evenly.

Relaxed 

(From April 13, 2018)

I dreamt that I decided to get sexual with Ali in my room. I had my shirt off and was sucking him. I started to hesitate, thinking that I was hearing spirit voices by the front door / area. The cats were coming in the room, Ali was getting sleepy / relaxed. 

I then heard Sara’s and mom’s voices out by the dining table. I let Ali go, putting on my shirt so they wouldn’t see me, realizing that the front door had been left unlocked.

After putting my shirt on, Ali slumped on the bed and started to disappear until he was gone. I kept looking, watching, wondering where he went. I was getting emotional.

I started walking to the bedroom door, slowly, still looking back, wondering about him and watching for him. When I got to the door, I saw mom, dad, Amy (?) all in conversation, standing at the right end of the table. Dad looked strong and healthy. 

I stood there, visibly shaken, silently crying outside, hard sobbing inside, waiting for them to notice, still watching him Ali. Mom finally came over to me. I think I may have told her that he disappeared, but not sure.

I dreamt of directly going to him when he comes out of his room. 

(From April 12, 2018 Managed Well)

I dreamt of a young woman being able to afford an expensive apartment (?) because her money had been managed well during her husbands sickness and eventual death. 

I dreamt that Ali was sitting behind me. I pulled my shirt down to expose my breasts. He grabbed them. He then was in front of me, sucking on my right breast. He gave a little of what could have been a disgusted look on his face and let go. My first thought was that he didn’t like the feel of the little bit of hair that I had and thought how Kyle didn’t even notice them until the end. 

I dreamt of a long rectangular warehouse that I think had sections inside. I was outside. Seems one of the sections was a place for go – karts where you could go to lay low.