Orchestrating

I asked, “How do I let go?” I dreamt that Ali and I were walking across a big (?) dirt and gravel lot / field between businesses that I didn’t see but knew were there. There were some chain link fences separating some (of the) areas.

In one area that we were about to walk through, two homeless looking guys were there. The guy on the left was standing, facing us. He was skinny with grey dreadlocks about shoulder length or several inches below. He only had his left arm which he was waving around, as if orchestrating. He was wearing a long sleeve shirt. We weren’t close enough for me to see what the design was but it seemed it had flowers of different sizes with a dark blue background.

The other guy was crouching / kneeling to his left. I didn’t look at him but it seems he was wearing a white shirt and had a white bucket in front of him for drumming.

Ali mentioned about the one arm guy, saying that he was dancing. He may not have noticed that the guy only had one arm.

Ali was either right next to me on my right, or was a couple steps behind (as he usually is when we walk). I was trying to get him to notice the uneasiness these guys were emitting. I either said, “Fiiri badan” (Somali = look a lot), meaning that the guy kept looking, or I only was wanting to say it.

Shortly after we passed them I noticed that they started following us. We were then out by the street, with it to our right. There was no traffic. I asked, “Where are the cops?” The traffic then showed up on the other side with a cop car in front passing us.

I turned around and saw two rows of cars within two lines of the fences with one line facing us and the other behind them facing the other way. There was a cop car in both rows.

I dreamt that I said hello to a black girl at the place where I worked. We were then somewhere where the employees had gathered to have lunch / dinner. She was there and so I figured that I had to say hello because I had said hello earlier and that I was now a part of the group.

We were in the back, or near the back. There were several rectangular tables to the right with a square table on the left. My female boss (?) was getting them ready to eat.

My parents showed up. My mom sat at the square table and seeing corn on the table, said that she likes corn. I noticed that she had gained weight in her upper part of her legs which caused her to sit higher on the chair.

I was disheartened when I had to tell her that this was for us. My dad had already gone up front to find another place to sit.

(From yesterday) Avec Moi

I asked the same question. I dreamt of the singer of Poets of the Fall, Marko Saaresto, singing Partir Avec Moi.

(From June 11, 2019) Dead

I asked the same question. I dreamt something with Steve DiSchiavi from the Dead Files tv show.

I dreamt something about the DNA of other people.

(June 10, 2019) From within

I asked the same question. I dreamt of being part of a class but not in a traditional classroom. I was doing paperwork but don’t remember what it was. It was only one piece of paper.

The teacher’s black wife (?) and a girl were doing word puzzles / games to the right of me. I was thinking how they may have finished their work already and that I would rather be doing that instead but knew I had to finish my work first. (I’m not sure if these were the exact thoughts.)

The wife’s cheekbone area was shiny from being clean and a light shining on her. I knew it wasn’t coming from within.

When I finished my work I had to put my name on the back of the paper because there wasn’t room on the front. I also dated it 6-7-19, which was a Monday.

After, the teacher who was white, was talking about a music group from the ’80’s called Camper van Beethoven, as one of their calmer songs played (I only know of “Pictures of Matchstick”), with some of the other students. I was overhearing so I mentioned that I thought they had a song where the singer held his breath for a bit.

(From June 9, 2019) Before

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was walking to the right on a dirt path on a hill with a small group of people. I asked a girl who was on my left if she had been this way before.

I dreamt that an older lady was letting me borrow some / one of her clothes (for church?). I saw that I didn’t have my garment bottom on and so was going to use hers but then saw that I was wearing mine and so would use mine.

I woke with the song, “Tonight I Celebrate My Love” from Peabo Bryson and Roberta Flack.

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Mountains

(From May 31, 2019)

I asked, “What is the portal?” I envisioned that I was about to go to congratulate Ali and the Utah girl on their marriage / wedding.

I dreamt that I was in the mountains, or a hilly part of town, riding a bike to church with the family. When we got to a corner to turn right, I went back, without knowing the rest of the way, because there was some time left before it started. I got out of my dress and relaxed sideways across my (full?) bed on my back for a bit.

As time got closer, I went to where some people were outside and asked a guy what the other modes of transportation were, having to repeat the beginning of the sentence first, for getting to church, because it was getting cold and stormy / cloudy, otherwise I would take my bike.

(From June 1, 2019) Utah

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was at one of the ends in a white sports complex (in Utah at U of U?) with a lot of people. There either had been a basketball game played, or I knew that it was played here.

There was a Middle Eastern (?) man who kept having to move to different spaces to pray because of the amount of people. Seems that he settled in front of some tall doors.

There was a table there (?) in a separate room (?) that was a little too long, so the end was cut off. A lady came and was shown what had happened. She seemed OK with it.

I dreamt that a lady had gone to her rural area garden at dusk, with a friend, to harvest (?). It may have been in France. There was a street in front of it without any traffic on it.

She had horses, or only one, and was calling out to them / him while she was standing. A horse came running from the right side.

There was an African guy waiting to be picked up (bus?). I was in a high vehicle in the back (?) and said an African word to him. I think he got in and either was here to help or agreed to do so.

I dreamt that I was somewhere on the left of a man and woman who were playing a board game. She had a hamburger that had somehow gotten behind her on the right having come apart. They mentioned that a huge fly had landed on the meat before she got it back together.

They asked if I would like to join them and I did. I may have had a bite of her hamburger or one of my own (?).

I dreamt that I was spending the night at Briana’s. She was in bed with her dad, with her head at the other end. She mentioned to me about pulling the grey ends of the sheets / bedding at the corner because she was getting cold (?) / feeling a breeze. I helped smooth it out.

During the night, I went to use the restroom, not closing the door because I was used to keeping it open. I heard a couple knocks at the door, thinking it odd at this time of night, and got up to close the door, that was to the left of me, as her dad went to get the door.

I dreamt that a lady was telling me to go find the Utah girl and I flat out told her no.

(From June 2, 2019) Snow

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was outside with other people. Seems we were waiting for someone / thing. There was a small layer of snow of the ground that wasn’t old but also wasn’t new. I picked up a ball of some that had some dried grass blades (?) in it. A girl told me not to eat it. I was thinking that I could if I wanted to. I don’t remember what I did with it.

Someone threw up some fairy dust up in the air, or saw it there, and mentioned it to everyone. The colors I remember were soft pink on top and purple on bottom.

There was a girl there who was shorter than me, heavy, semi long light brunette hair. Her facial features were on the borderline of being down syndrome. She was able to make herself invisible. There was an older man there who wanted to be with her, going after her. She found a couch around a corner to the left of where this guy was. She decided to lounge there to rest away from him. I gave her a questioning look about whether that would / could be a good place.

The guy finally found the couch and this girl relented and decided to let him see and touch her.

I dreamt that there was a giant couch made of concrete in the middle of a body of water between Canada and the states. It was facing the states. It was a reminder for us to be friendly with each other.

(From June 3, 2019) Already Dead

I asked the same question. I dreamt that a guy was pressing a gun to the left side of a guy who was laying on his side. I don’t remember what the guy with the gun was initially supposed to do but he shot a couple rounds into the other guy’s body, saying a word or two as he did so. The words I woke with the words “File” and Folder” though those weren’t the words he was saying.

The guy being shot had an x over his lips like bullets have. I don’t remember if he was already dead or not. Possible he was.

There was a different reason why the shooter was there with the body but he was evil and turned it into something sinister.

I dreamt that a guy was underneath a commercial BMW lawnmower but it wasn’t hurting him. I was looking at the guy through the perspective of the lawnmower, as if I was it. The view shifted slightly so that I could see it to the left of me, showing the “nose” end of it. It was grey.

At first it was the open kind with the seat on top of a disc but then it changed so that it had a “door” (?) like a dune buggy.

I dreamt that I was somewhere with mom and Micalanne. I pronounced Mic’s name as “Mecalawn” with a slight accent (?). It had something to do with painting / dying nylons. I didn’t see hers but some people who were also there were laughing at hers because of the way she drew her line. Someone showed her how simple it was to make a straight line, as in a graph. Seems it was pointing down at an angle.

I dreamt something to do with Candace Cameron Bure and that she had been invited to go somewhere during the holidays. She talked to the people at the Hallmark channel to see if they wanted to document her journey there.

There was a 2-3 ft. gnome (?) that rotated, sitting / setting on top of a table, doing something with its arms. It was black and the background was also black / dark so it was hard to see much of the details. I’m not sure if it was in her house, where she went to, or where it was. It was a Christmas decoration.

Darkness

I asked, “Why didn’t anybody (including me) speak up to the woma / en about taking my space?” I saw that the voices had placed a darkness around / over my (late) teenage years.

(From May 6, 2019) Still don’t know

I asked, “What is the meaning of the fan?” I dreamt that I was in the back of a big rig cab behind the passenger, resting on some of my stuff (mission transfer? going home?). I may have been a missionary.

There were two others with me, one in the passenger seat and the other to the left of me behind the driver, though I didn’t see them.

The driver was taking us to a fast food place to eat. He was talking but all I remember him saying was that he was the only one asking questions, wherever he had been at, because I was thinking.

I was looking out the window, watching the scene change. Most, if not all, of the buildings were white. I was thinking that after eating, someone else would pick us up to bring / take us back to where we needed to go / came from.

Either on the way, or when I was walking through the aisle with the bench / booth seating on my left (I saw myself walking toward me as if I was above), I was wondering if the driver was going to pay for all of us or if we had to pay our way, because of the cost.

I dreamt that there were several thin people who wanted to gain weight so that they could go to where only fat / heavy people go. I was thinking that they could just wear bodysuits because the weight might be hard to come off.

(From May 4, 2019) Severed

I asked, “What is the meaning of the blood?” I dreamt of a lady who called herself a severed Jew / “Severed Jew” because she knew a storm was coming.

The End

I asked, “Where did I need to go?” Utah came to mind.

I dreamt that I was at a church meeting. There were roughly several hundred people. I was sitting on the left. The chairs were the metal folding chairs. I had been asked to say the closing prayer. I was scared because of the amount of people but I did it.

After I got up, I stayed back where my seat was instead of going up front, four blonde women came and took my seat and the ones next to it, causing me to eventually taking the seat at the end. I couldn’t be upset because the seat was empty from me standing up.

As I was saying the prayer, a guy started speaking over an intercom. I then said into the air, “How can I talk with you talking?” There were also people somewhere walking around doing whatever they were there for.

(From May 9, 2019) Clear

I asked, “What is the meaning of the fan?” I dreamt that I thought I had heard it raining but when I got up, to feed the cats, I saw that it was a clear day.

I dreamt that the sun had come up and I needed to wake up to feed the cats. Seems my mom was there. I was so tired that I sat up on the couch with my eyes closed because I was having a hard time opening them. I finally got up and saw that the cats still had plenty of food.

I dreamt that I was watching a movie (?) of a couple cops outside an apartment building looking for someone. The stairs protruded out and one of them, a lady, was standing on the left side looking up describing about the process of finding this person. She was saying something about them going up to a room up at the top floor. I was anticipating that she was going to say that they found this person had hung himself.

I dreamt that it was still dark outside and I was woken from hearing Ali closing doors loudly in the hallway. I then heard a knock / doorbell and heard someone say something and then said, “Sir”. I thought a neighbor had called the police because they were concerned about all the noise.

The person turned out to be a skinny young black guy. He needed to go back out for something. I knew the door would lock behind him. Before he left I saw two gold watches that he had dropped on the couch. As he turned to walk back out I saw that his shorts were below his butt showing his boxers.

Ali came to me before the guy showed up saying that he was going to go get us some food for breakfast. He said what it was but I don’t remember. He seemed anxious as he was telling me, still getting dressed.

After this guy went back out, I asked Ali who the guy was but don’t think he answered. I don’t remember. I asked Ali who he was and where he was going. He gave me a name but couldn’t understand him because it was mumbled a bit and said that he’s going out to get some sort of rock broccoli. He may have said pizza rock broccoli but I also couldn’t understand him when he said the first word.

After the guy went outside, Ali went back to finish getting ready and I followed. He now looked like Steve and so I told him that after asking the questions and Ali answering. I don’t know if they were separate dreams or if they were intertwined.

I dreamt that there was a guy who had his legs previously disabled from something before I saw him. He had a small private jet/ passenger plane that he spent the majority of his time in up in the air but not as the pilot. He had a small older lady with him who had a ragged weathered face.

I was up with him during one of the trips. I was thinking that maybe he was the one with money who would be the one to take care of me. I was thinking that after awhile it doesn’t feel like being up in the air.

He was across from me relaxing, facing toward the back where the lady was sitting at a desk facing us and maybe talking with us. This trip was one where he comes back down to earth to get supplies from his warehouse, which was in a desert setting.

I then saw him sitting in a chair outside. He had 4 packs of Marlboro cigarettes with him, two on each side. I knew that he was a member of the church and he may have been through the temple. I was wondering about the connection of those but don’t remember. I think it was something about him still being a smoker even though he had gone through the temple
(It’s kinda hazy).

I’m next in a big room with a lot of people. Briana is there. I ask her to say the closing prayer and she’s fine with it. Something happens, or needs to happen first, before she does so.

Lust

I asked, “What is the meaning of the toxic water?” I saw Ali at a table across from the Utah girl. He was getting up to go on his way. She was lusting after him to have sex because he was black and African.

I dreamt something about rolled up receipts (?), knowing that I had seen money inside. Turning it around several times, I finally saw the money and saying to myself that I knew it was there.

I dreamt about people in Ireland. There was a girl who had cancer (?). There was a different girl who finally realized what another girl (or one with cancer?) had done (several) years prior. She solemnly said, “She hung herself.”

(From yesterday) Weight

I asked the same question. I dreamt that Johnny Depp picked me up and took me to another spot in the room we were in. As he was doing so I worried that my weight would be too much for him. He only gave a slight indication that it was but continued on.

(From May 1, 2019) Crumbling

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was a passenger in a car. I’m not sure if my mom or a random lady was driving. We were driving in an area that was (all) lit up with bright colors. I told her to watch where she was going because she wasn’t paying attention to the road.

We ended up going over a cliff but stayed level. We then were without the car and falling on our own. I was scared because I didn’t know what we were going to land on because there was a blanket (?) beneath us covering our view / vision.

When we landed, though, I don’t remember seeing the other woman but she may still have been there. We landed on solid ground inside a home. There was a small cat figurine, made from / out of felt (?), from the 1950’s, pointing to the right.

Someone was touching the head on the right side and it started to crumble. I think I was telling someone to be careful when touching it.

(From April 30, 2019)

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I had a sore below my lips on my right side. I knew that I would sometimes pick at the scab. This time there was a bump underneath.

When I picked it this time the blood was thick and a maroon / plum color. Instead of flowing down, it flowed under my lips to the left and then up to my nose. It stopped above my nostril, resting on it.

Sausage

I asked the same question. I dreamt that I was at some type of (amusement) park, without the roller coasters. There was a wood stick hut that needed a corner to be fixed. I was one of the workers assigned to fix it. When I got up to it, I noticed that it was being held up by / with rebar.

It was then lunch time, and the manager / owner suggested that I take a break and eat, even though I wouldn’t be working there until Monday (I’m guessing that this was on a Friday).

As I was standing in the kitchen (?), food in front to the right, with the other workers, I asked a question but don’t remember what it was. I was told to ask the manager / owner again when I come back.

A slightly older slim looking lady, standing in front of me holding a white plate with a sausage in the middle of other foods, said that she hadn’t counted calories in a long time and had no problem (with gaining weight). She may have had short brunette hair (?). She also may have been on the masculine side, though wasn’t gay.

Ali

I asked, ” Who is finishing his mission?” Ali came to mind as I was asking the question.

I dreamt of watching a YouTube video. Comments could only be made while watching. You couldn’t go back, or forward, to other videos, and couldn’t see who made the comments.

The video was of a couple involved in a competition. He was standing on her left. They were both facing forward. There was a cake in front of them. They weren’t supposed to touch the cake / each other / both (?).

He poked holes in the top. She put on the frosting (?). They switched places, which was a surprise move because the other teams hadn’t thought of doing this.

I dreamt of placing a guy’s wallet in front of him, on a counter in a store, without him noticing.

I dreamt about an older black man (50’s?) who I was going to marry. There was something about a young tall, thin black minister, with braids, excitedly running to a big body of water (pool?) to act (?) out a baptism with this older man. I was wondering if he was actually going to baptize him.

The older man was uncertain about it, contemplating and looking at me. I gave him a slight shrug and smile. I heard the minister, behind us in the middle of the water, say something about this man becoming a part of the Mormon community if he went through with this, as if to warn / caution him.

I found a lopsided heart rock nearby.

I dreamt that I was standing up on a hill (?) looking down at the roads below. There were two roads on the left, with the far left specifically for big rigs, and a road that continued from those, going vertically across the bottom of the hill. There was a big rig that came from the left, turning toward the two lanes to use the far left one.

The road that went vertically was the road to take to go toward Los Angeles. I was telling someone that that road was a shortcut to getting back home.

Make A Noise

I asked the same question. I dreamt that Steve was taking hormones to become a woman. I told him, “No, you’re not!”

I dreamt that I was on a ship, and waiting, along with a bunch of other people, to use a washer to wash my clothes. There was a lady, in front to my left in what looked like a dark enclosure to rest, saying that she had been here since early morning washing her clothes, and that she had used $6 – $7 doing so. I didn’t imagine that she would have that many clothes. She was skinny with a smoker’s weathered face.

In another area of the ship, there were two guys that the police were after. One of them suggested going to a room where the police were congregating, making a noise to get their attention, and then running out.

When they got there though, the guys ended up not running out as quick as planned, causing chaos in the room. The initial guy got shot in the chest, and then another guy took a sharp knife and started cutting the left side of his head. I looked away, so I don’t know if the guy was dead, or still dying because I didn’t hear him make any noises.

Dark Side

(From yesterday)

I asked, “What is the meaning of the gorilla?” I dreamt that I went to my mom’s (?) workplace to visit and spend the night. There were two men, an in-house / onsite doctor, and a guy who was responsible for the legal stuff, who had the dark look to them, but I don’t think they were / did’t get that impression.

After I laid down to sleep, one of them (?) came in and gave me a soft kiss near the top left of my lips, then walked out. I was wanting to open my eyes so that I could see who it was, but they stuck together.

The next day, I saw them going about their business, not paying attention to me. The legal guy was helping someone, wearing what looked like UGG boots that went up to his mid shin / calf.

I asked a woman if the doctor ever goes to the room that I slept in. She said that he goes there almost every day.

(From Sept 14, 2017) Travis

I dreamt something about Travis.

(From Sept 7, 2017 Raise the Roof)

I dreamt that all the past landscapes that / where I’ve been/ walked were all fake, and that when I leave the house, all the landscapes / places that I’ve dreamed of will be outside, knowing where they are all / knowing how to get there on a map.

I dreamt (same dream?) of a bunch of 4’s, and that I would understand all those dreams. When I went outside, I looked at the front of the house, and saw that it did look like it was from 1942 (someone had made a comment earlier?). At first, the house had a vintage look to it.

It was long from left to right, and kind of resembled the houses back East, with the two chimneys, but it was only one – story. I asked about being able to raise the roof, and I was told that it would cost extra ($5 – 8k?). I was disappointed a bit, and the house started to flatten out.

(Misc) Life’s Mission

I dreamt that a guy was coming at me with a knife. I wasn’t scared. I figured that if it was to be, it would happen. I said to him (?) that I needed to do something first, as if it was my life’s mission to do this before I die.

I dreamt of 4 grown children, who were mine, sitting at the end / edge of a dock / pier. From left to right was a male built like a footballer, a slim female, a slim male with hair growth like Prince William, and then a thin female who looked like me. The first three had darker skin.

Don’t Want To

I asked, “Will I have children from Ali?” I dreamt that I was in a women’s restroom and a couple guys came in who wanted to use it. I told a woman there that I didn’t want to use / share a restroom with guys.

(From Oct 2, 2017 Flexible)

I dreamt that I was watching a group of dancers. Most (?) of them were gay, and I was thinking that they must like dancing because they’re flexible.

(From Sept 30, 2017 Trees)

I saw a small circle vision of a row / path of trees. 

(From Sept 28, 2017 One Last Cry)

I dreamt that I had a lot of children. 

I dreamt that all the family, and friends, got together to be with / celebrate grandma one last time. Mickey suggested that we all have one last cry. Jackie said a prayer and prayed that grandma would wait until her aunt showed up. Phyllis started crying as she started to leave.

Mark’s family was still young, and he had remarried a lady with long blonde hair, tall, and lean. Steven was on a window seat, and she was making sure that he didn’t roll off. 

There were Siamese cats there playing around. It was night. They looked like Ali’s, and I knew that they weren’t because I wouldn’t have brought them, but for some reason, it was a little unsettling / perplexing.

(From Sept 27, 2017 Big House)

I dreamt that Melania Trump was going to a big house. I think Donald was going to come later. 

(From Sept 26, 2017 Terminal)

I dreamt of a church chorister who had a terminal illness. She got the choir together to tell them. Her hair was already thinning. She had had this illness since a child, but wasn’t affected by it until now. 

There was a relative in bed with her husband, wondering why her doctor brother couldn’t help. 

(From Sept 25, 2017 Mother)

I dreamt of being a mother, and changing a poop diaper.