(From yesterday) I was to sign and date papers for a bank, and to use the date of 6-31-12. Mom had a (grey, or brown) guide dog that looked somewhat like a greyhound, but was almost paper-thin, not from malnourishment, but that’s how the structure of the dog was. Mom dies, and the dog goes to the back left corner of the garage, facing the back wall. I go over to it and bring it to be a part of the family. There is what looks like a junkyard of stuff for people to buy in the backyard that my … Continue reading 6-31-12

Big Weight

(From yesterday) A tall man, close to 7 ft, if he isn’t already, weighing roughly around 600 pounds, walks out a door. Me, and another girl, bleach our short hair (about jaw length). Mine is a shade of yellow, while hers is darker. I mention that I had used some bleach along with the product. Kyle’s mom isn’t able to stay at the hospital, and is coming to stay with us. I’m doing something at the house while waiting (there’s a lot going on), but don’t remember what. His mom shows up, but I’m not able to meet her because … Continue reading Big Weight

Seat of My Pants

(From Nov. 25, 2013) I’m waiting for Christmas lights, that are wrapped around a Christmas tree, to do something. I wake up nauseated, because of the dream, or just because? I am on a journey, and I believe there are some people with me. I stop to use a restroom. School girls are using a restroom, and making sure everyone flushes the toilets, and washes their hands. I have a realization that when these girls use the restroom individually, they don’t care as much. I am in the same restroom. I check the stalls to see which I could use. … Continue reading Seat of My Pants

Not For Sale

(From Nov. 23, 2013) Compartmentalize my pictures (Am I being acknowledged that I already do, or am I to refine even more?) (From Nov. 24, 2013) I was in the foyer of church with an older woman (who still had spunk) who looked like my grandma Fessler (paternal), but she isn’t. I noticed some very nice looking lamps (the decor had changed from last time I was there, which had also been well done), blue and white chinoiserie, and wondered if I would be able to buy one. The woman said that the church never sells its things. This woman is … Continue reading Not For Sale


I stopped at a small store off the highway, asking three older men directions. (I believe it had been snowing, and possibly there was a storm, and I had stopped during the middle of the storm. I am not quite positively sure on this, but this is what I am sensing.) I am holding a piece of paper with an amateurly drawn map of the area on it. The road I want is partially off the paper, up top. The men are showing me that even though on paper the distance may look long, it reality it is only a … Continue reading Directions


My body was still tired, and sluggish, but when a lady was telling me it was time to get up, I relented and got up. I was at someone’s house whose backyard backed into the woods. The house had a pass through driveway that went between sections of the house. I was in the section on the right, the family / play room, with some boys (who lived there) who were playing around. In the backyard were several reindeer, and other big (but not quite as big) animals passing through. It was green and plush back there. They, or at … Continue reading Reindeer


I was supposed to work the night shift, but my body was too tired to move, so i stayed in bed. I was in the bathroom looking at myself in a full length mirror. My face, and arms were sunburned. They had calmed down from the stinging feeling.  My arms were slightly stiff. There was a piece of skin left on my nose to be peeled off. My hair was long (about bra strap length) with Betty Page type bangs. My facial features looked more richer and refined. People needed to look up my name on a website, or it … Continue reading Shedding


I was told that the Christmas tree was a symbol for birth. (Do you see a connection between the two?) I was inside in a two story house looking outside down at the driveway. There are two people, man and woman, who drove luxury cars, down there. They walk around the house for a reason, but not sure why. The man starts to leave first, but as he starts to back up, a car comes up behind him. A woman gets out of the passenger side (her husband is the driver), and starts taking pictures of the car. She gets … Continue reading New

Come Inside

I was told that a certain guy would be perfect for me. When I first saw him, I saw his back, with him walking away from me, and being whiny with his mom. I went over to him, and asked him questions to help him understand hers, and his character. He started to calm down. This guy turns into a small dragon animal. (Small somewhat like the picture of a “baby” dragon on someone’s fingers, but a bit bigger than that.) He starts biting my right pointer finger, and I ask him why he is he doing that when I … Continue reading Come Inside

The Attack

Ali and I were living in a small apartment that had the feel of a motel. It was white inside. There was a small hill outside the front door, with tall palm trees lined up on the edge of the hill, and there may have been water on the other side of the trees. It reminded me of Florida. There were tribal invaders in the neighborhood, coming from a country with a dictator. They were killing the big cats for their markings, and having skinning them, acted as if given a trophy. I was saddened at this, not knowing what … Continue reading The Attack