(I only remember snippets.) I had woken from a nap, and then was at a (dept?) store, but before going in, I told Ali that they were going to trample me (from excitement to see me; I came to show that I was (about 7 months) pregnant). I was with my family, getting ready for church. My dad then said they weren’t going. I got upset, said I was still going, and continued to get ready. Something either happened, or was said, that calmed me down, and we eventually didn’t make it to church (why?) I was somewhere where there … Continue reading Trample


I was outside, on the left side of the house, walking from back to front. As I was walking, I noticed that the neighbor’s house, and everything, was gone. It was just a plot of land. As I kept walking to the front, everything else in the neighborhood, on the left, was gone so that all I saw was sand all the way to the horizon. Next, George (my cousin-in-law), was teaching. He kept walking all around. I had a loooonnnggg afghan (long enough for 2 – 3 couches; I used to crochet) that he had gotten hold of the … Continue reading Gone

Empty belly

(From sometime in July, 2013) I’m married to Darius Barazandeh, but we don’t spend time together. We are in different areas of the house during the day. At night, he has a couple friends over. One of them is a woman who he likes. I have a couple friends over, one of which is Ali. I suddenly become (about) 4 months pregnant. I got scared about it. Enough of the belly pops out to know I’m pregnant, but my stomach is empty except for a fist sized baby. Continue reading Empty belly


I was trying to get out of bed, and some force was keeping me from getting out. I was crying out loud for Ali, and though he was on his way to me, I woke before he got to me. I was searching for a certain guy who worked at the recycling center at a brewing factory. His job required him to sit on top of a tall ladder in between the containers. (There were other guys on top of ladders as well. There were also a handful of guys working at their desks.) Continue reading Force


(From March 30, 2012) Ali and I were in a pasture with about 10 horses. Clean water suddenly came up to about ankle deep, and the ground sank a couple inches as well. The horses suddenly came to a circular corral, and  went to drink of the water as soon as it came up. (I’ve been reading The Greatest Truth by Darius M Barazandeh all day, that is why I’m posting so late.) Continue reading Horses


(From July 3, 2013) Two snakes are burrowing in my skin on my left side under my shoulder blade. Next, I’m at a workplace (I’m not working there), there’s an open space, and I move a folding accordion door so that I can see the manager talking. The door closes, and the air becomes warm and stuffy. The floor is white with vines. Continue reading Snakes


A Mexican man told me that Kyle’s (my late husband) contract was complete. (That was his line of work, to tell the living spouse when the deceased spouse’s contract was fulfilled. Is there such a person? A contract for what?) We were outside of his office (the building resembled a teacher’s office at a local college). Next, he had a lot of overweight women in his family, and they had come over (where?) to fix, and eat dinner. I was in a different building than them, with at least one guy, and another guy (bald) came walking through holding a … Continue reading Complete

Training toilet

(From July 2, 2013 nap) I was always needing to go to the restroom. (I had had a lot of water.) I had to step up to get in, but as I open the door, the floor is wet in front of the toilet. I wonder why there is water as I’m wiping it up with toilet paper. There is a training toilet between the wall and toilet and I’m about to throw the wet t.p. in there, but decide against it and throw it in the toilet. Next(?) to the toilet is a bathtub, or pool, filled with dirty … Continue reading Training toilet


I was at Deseret Industries, and saw a lady who I had just been with (where?), and her mom. I playfully said to her, “I know you” even though I had only known her for a short time. (For me, it takes a while before I act this way with others.) I then went upstairs to look around, and coming down the stairs, there was a lady (Asian?) who did not want to come up because thet were steep. (Imagine an escalator with the top pushed forward a bit, and the bottom pushed back a bit. There were walls on … Continue reading Steep


(From July 2, 2013) Outside looking for a cat with other people. I ask (out loud? silently?), why are they concentrating in front of the house instead of going through the neighborhood. Two kittens, individually, climb a one-story(?) pole, and jump, breaking bones in one of the hind legs (left one?). Next, in a classroom, but I need to be added, so need to go back to get the paperwork. It’s a math class. Wilhelm (boy from jr. high) is in the class. Female teacher. Picture of a model having (to walk through) a swarm of gnats / flies around … Continue reading Math