Fighting

Last night I asked what type of shaman am I. I dreamt that Ali had his finger in me and I was pushing it in. He was saying that it won’t go any further. I was allowing him to do this only because I won the lottery. He had a finger from his other hand in my mouth, which had a weird taste. Looking at his fingers after, they were dirty with black stuff underneath.

I dreamt that I was taking out his bullets from his gun / rifle (doesn’t have one).

I dreamt that I was at the church. There was an event going on. I received a note from Gwen (?) saying that she really missed me and wants to see me again (sexually, implied). I went to a darkened hallway where the restrooms were and changed into a white leotard (?) with Borat type suspenders.

As I was walking through the hallway, I heard a lady saying that she needed to change. I then went into the opening / pocket where the restroom entrance is. She came to that spot and asked me where she knew me from. I only said, “Camp”. She was short with jaw length blonde hair.

I dreamt something about being scared to go on a downhill road because it was steep and curvy. 

I think I had a dream with missionaries.

I dreamt of being tired of going to someone’s house every day.

I dreamt of someone wanting to park where I’m parked and me getting upset wondering why they can’t park in front of me when the sign that’s there says that parking here is allowed.

I dreamt that a Hispanic girl wanted to fight Ali.

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Take Out The Trash

Last night I asked, “What is in the middle?” My attention went to my stomach and fallopian tubes also came to mind.

I dreamt that I was in a house and there was a man directing people to move things out (?). I told him that this wasn’t his house. I think it was recently sold, or about to be? I saw some couches standing on end and wrapped and realized that they were Amy’s, so I was ok with that.

He also had two blonde wood chairs with spindles on the back that were given to me from the church. There were two other chairs and table that went along with those chairs but those were still where they are supposed to be. I may have told him that those chairs were mine?

I dreamt that I was somewhere with other people where Mando was also. He was on the back of a black truck, looking forward through slats that were behind the cab on the bed.

I hadn’t put on my red lipstick yet but was trying to figure a way for him to notice that I was there. It was then time for him to take out the trash.

I dreamt something about a woman buying $62(0) worth of bowls and other stuff. As she was paying, she kept saying that it’s a bunch of sh–. She was to leave those behind for others to use.

Shadows of Life

Last night I asked, “What is the date that my husband knows about?” I dreamt of seeing someone’s Tumblr conversation about a book called “Shadows of Life”. I didn’t read the conversation. At the end, someone else sarcastically said, “Oh, look. You’re reading the Shadows of Life” book, as a jab at the other person.

I then was reading a poem about the book.

(From Sept. 11, 2018 Look Like Relatives)

I asked about the voices (have talked to Ali since he was little). I dreamt that I was looking through eyes which I thought were the old man’s from Kundalini Yoga Live videos. This person was walking on a stage with a transparent screen. There were lots of people here to do yoga. When this person didn’t start talking, and the people below weren’t paying attention to this person, I realized that it was me.

They started doing yoga but then they were goofing off and not taking it seriously. I left. 

I dreamt that a woman was looking at my left big toenail. She started to take off the last of the top layer (it stops growing and grows a new one underneath. The right one has only done it once or twice before.) I tell her that it happens a lot. She eventually gets the layer off. I see multiple layers and don’t remember if I mentioned these to her or not.

I dreamt of a young couple (30’s?) with 6 or 7 young children. There is also an older man there. They are at a park (?). She is sitting in the back / trunk of the car (like a station wagon / hatchback) looking out. 

She and her husband don’t get to spend a lot of time together. The old man stands between them and us (me and another woman, hispanic(?)). This woman next to me, on my right, overweight, asks the older man if it’s biological, meaning the young couple.

He doesn’t answer, or does he say “no” ? She’s disappointed. I want to ask what she means, but don’t in case she is referring to incest.

The wife is overweight. The couple have sex for about 5 minutes and then the older man moves, revealing the couple. 

I dreamt of a girl crossing a street, coming to my side, but over to my right. There are two other girls still across the street. The girl on my left, from across the street, is singing about love to the girl who is crossing, as if they know each other. They look like sisters / relatives but may not have been. The girl on my side looks back at her but doesn’t react.

I dreamt something about being in a church.

I dreamt that the cats friend was outside laying down with them.

The Date

Last night I asked “What does my husband know?” I dreamt that it was night and I was riding a bike up and down a hilly street. There were a couple others riding their bikes as well. They either lived on that street, or nearby. One time when I was going downhill there were car’s behind me so I moved over to the grass. My last round I think I said “bye” to one of the cyclists. 

I dreamt that Amy was in charge of a Halloween party at the church. Only about 5 or 6 people showed up, including a young Hispanic couple with a baby and another Hispanic man and woman. I asked Amy, making sure, if this was a multi ward activity. She affirmed that it was.

I was sitting, watching the other people. The young woman was nursing her baby on the left side, in the open. The other woman was standing at a table across from her, on the other side, looking at the young woman. She was doing something but don’t know what. The man was sitting on the woman’s right, young woman’s left. He was saying something and then the woman by the table mentioned something about him knowing what date it is, as if it was specific about something that had happened in the family, or friends, and that only they knew.

The young woman finished nursing and the other woman came to make sure her breast was dry and good before covering back up.

I noticed about 10 people, dressed in black, sitting on pews (in the chapel?). I mentioned that Carla, a regular party attender, was there, along with several others. Some of them joined us, or some of the females. I commented, sarcastically, that they weren’t going to come / join us. A girl attempted to make an excuse so I said it again and she guiltily said yes.

 I was looking out the big window in the kitchen. 

I mentioned that it had been about 3 years since Briana and I had spoken (it’s been longer). I may have been wearing a dress. 

There was a young woman who decided to cut a circle in the kitchen counter while waiting for people to show up. I don’t know what she was going to do with the hole.

I dreamt that I was at the store with my parents. The cashier was checking us out. My mom had about 6 cake mixes, along other products. The cashier was able to turn something on for the car to cool down before we got there. Dad was impressed.

God, Help Me

(From May 5, 2015)

I saw a face, without an outline, representing others, with rosy / red cheeks. Actually, I think that’s all I saw, but knew it was a face. The cheeks were that color because they had (what is called) B. D. These people were to have a shot, made from / by Monsanto, to cure it. I did something which caused the majority of the people to decline the shot. The few who did have / get it, died. 

(From May 6, 2015)

I was standing in a room, with other people, for an event (?). I’m standing by the back wall, in the middle (?). A flower delivery man has walked in carrying a big bouquet of white roses. He is walking towards me, then hands them to me. Someone had ordered for them to be delivered to me. They have really long stems, because my hair is long. There is a white tag at the bottom, with my name(?) in red. 

I am visiting another church with my family. We are signing our names on the attendance. I give it back to the teacher, passing Ali (on my right, front, sideways), because he isn’t a member. 

(From May 18, 2015)

A spirit named T(h)eresa was squeezing my middle section so much that my vision (not wearing glasses) became so blurry that I had to close my eyes. I said 3 times, “God, help me “, loud, before she let go. 

A cat (head on the right side) was under the stage, at church (that’s where the extra chairs are kept), that you couldn’t see until you looked. She was about to give birth. There were two hot dogs that had rolled down a tiny slope (it was now outside) so that she wasn’t able to reach them. They were under a green(ery) that was growing there. 

I’m Not a Mother 

(From March 20, 2015)

We had something delivered from a thrift store. Along with it was a blue baby shoe. It had the company’s tag, along with a white tag with 13 on it. 

I wanted to go back to the store to find the other one. (Why didn’t I return the one I had?) When I got to the store, it was at the church. I wanted to start on the right side (chapel in top middle). 

I saw a couple jewelry boxes, and when I opened them, the “diamond” had come off, but still there. 

I found a tool where I could change the opening, at the top (like a monkey wrench). I showed it to John (D. I. ) because I knew he be interested, which he was. 

Someone showed me a pink baby shoe, with silky ribbon for the tie. I mentioned that wasn’t it, but a blue baby shoe that was like it. I didn’t mention that it had a regular tie. 

(Ali’s dream)

I was on a track, having to jump over obstacles. I was in front, Ali behind me. No one else was able to jump, and some black women were complaining about having to jump. 

(From March 21, 2015)

I’m in the cultural hall at church by the stage. There is a curtain semi around me. I am taking a shower, with my underwear on. The ceiling sprinklers come on. No one shows up for a while. A man finally shows up. I’m wondering what took so long for him to show, and the sprinklers came on when there’s no fire. 

I was looking at a black piece of paper, with white writing on it, on both sides with the middle empty. It was about the zodiac sign of Gemini. I heard Cher’s voice reading it. 

(From March 27, 2015)

I’m walking into Relief Society, going to sit by my mom. Excitedly, she said, “Happy birthday! Happy Mothers Day!” I then say, “But, I’m not a mother.” Suzanne (from church when I was a teenager.)

(From March 18, 2015)

Kyle, and I, are lying in (separate?) bed (house in my teenage years). He said something to me about checking the food under the desk. I look, and see a box of food with cockroaches crawling over it. There are some tabby cats under his bed (on the right), at the end, and they also have cockroaches crawling on them. 

Not Showing Up 

(From Feb. 15, 2015)

The Siamese dad came back, and looked as if nothing had happened. I pointed him out to Ali, asking if that was(n’t) him. (He was purposely run over.)

At a family gathering, I hit / punched Micalanne in the face, with all my strength, on two separate occasions, causing her to fall back and hit her head. 

Judy was passing a white paper for people to sign for someone’s birthday. Someone else gave it to me to sign. I was surprised that she would allow me to sign, since she’s upset with me. 

After the gathering, I was walking home, and about a block away, I started running. I was upset, saying that it can’t be that my mental capacity is handicapped. 

When arriving at the house (when I was an older teen), I stayed outside, sitting with some others, with the door to my right. 

Mom had brought back some leftover food. I wanted some of the desserts with some chocolate topping. Mom said that Becky (a friend) goes to an Italian church now, and took the chocolate topping with her, to take to work. 

There was a race to be held, and one of the starting points was in our front yard, going to the right, using the lane dividers as used for swimming. Barbie was going to participate, using a wheelchair, and commented how narrow the lanes are. 

(From Feb. 23, 2015)

It was getting dark. Ali had said he would come get me, but he wasn’t showing up, so I started to walk. As I was crossing a street, I was carrying chains (like Marley in The Christmas Carol with Ebenezer Scrooge), slowing down my progress. 

Ali, and I, are at a pregnancy clinic to see why I’m not pregnant yet. The technician(?) talks to us, with paperwork in hand, without taking us to the back (still in waiting area), and says, “Well, it’s here in your notes. You’re not pregnant because you’re not having sex.”

(Ali’s dream)

We were running through water, with lots of other people. I was in front, speeding. Ali was behind me. We were wearing shoes so that our feet wouldn’t get hurt / cut from the rocks. 

Moist

(From Dec. 15, 2014)

A foal was being born.

Arnold Schwarzenegger was sitting at a table, on my right, that I was standing next to. He was watching me. I wanted to ask him about Austria, but couldn’t come up with a good question.

I then was sitting across from him, and had my right hand on top of his, thick and big and hairy, and saw that mine was almost as big as his, and made mention of this.

A wave was attempting to choke / harm me, but didn’t. Next thing, it was acting normal.

Water was spilled inside a building / church, from me, and I saw a door, so I opened it so it would go outside. It started to flood the greenery area in front of the door. At first I was concerned, but then thought, oh well.

I was searching for my mom inside this church. A lady came up to me, after I had gone in circles several times, and asked if I needed help. I told her, then she got on a walkie talkie, and started describing me. I don’t know why, and wanted to tell her what my mom looks like, but didn’t because I figured she had a reason for doing what she was doing.

Arnold was inside a temple, speaking, and said the word, “moist “. The people started getting excited over that, including some reporters who were in a separate room with a window dividing.

(From Dec. 17, 2014)

Some guys were after me with a weapon, so I said, firmly and adamantly , twice, “Angels, help now!”

(From Dec. 22, 2014)

Vague dreams all with Christmas theme.

Tubs / Unstable floor / Witch house

(From Dec. 20, 2014)

Either I was running for president, or there were people who had been talking about me running. I got a bit concerned, for a little, because of the corruption in the government.

Feel the Empty Space

(Night before I asked why I was called “The Mother”)

A guy was cozying up with me, talking with me. I realized that I hadn’t brushed my teeth yet, but didn’t worry too much about it since he didn’t seem to notice / be affected by it.

Someone, Ali ?, mentioned that I hadn’t brushed my teeth, so I told him that I had been chewing (minty) gum.

My top left tooth, next to my “fang”, came out. I was looking behind it, where there was some of my gums (normal, supposed to be there), to figure out why it would come off / out. I saw a tiny white spot at the top left corner, and thought that might be the reason.

I attempted to put it back, like a nail (not pushing it up in the gums), but it wouldn’t stay. I then let it go, and figured that Ali will have to live with me like this.

I put my lip down, and it felt weird to feel the empty space.

A young teenage girl, with shoulder (blade) length brown hair, had a boyfriend, came from a wealthy family, and was enjoying life.

One day she found out that she had a certain type of skin cancer. A couple of days later, she was looking at her face in the mirror, with boyfriend behind her, and mentioned that she saw a sign of it showing up on her face.

She lived with a lot of ladies, relatives?, and had a lot of dogs (not seen, but knew).

There was a festival in town, and she went to enjoy it while she could. Someone asked where her boyfriend was.

She “skated” down a cement curved slope. The scene continued to the left, showing several different groups of people showcasing their own entertainment / talents, like a parade, but they were stationary.

I saw a group of people singing the Star Spangled Banner song in a dunked up version / way. Next to them were ladies doing a dance routine with those things they throw up in the air.

This girl had become a bit weaker, but still happy. She had just sold a shirt, or clothes, and was holding a wad of cash in her hands, looking at it. She had some tears, but was smiling, because of what she had planned to do with it for her family. She was wearing black and white striped clothes, with varying widths.

(From Nov. 17, 2014)

A lady loved getting tore up / mangled by dogs, and would get paid for it. She didn’t have any ambulances around, but had two people who were there to help clean and bandage her wounds.

There were black baby kittens on a small slope of a hill, but they were balls, like when fish lay eggs. Someone was moving them, attempting to scoop them up, but not using the scoops nearby, so they were rolling down, about to drop to their deaths.

I was at a nice, well built, non denominational church, just to see what it was like. There was a man sitting a couple of chairs away from me on my right. He was “teaching”, using a tablet(?). One part, he was talking about politicians, showing faces. I saw Mitt Romney. This man said that Mormon’s don’t matter. He went on to something else, saying again about the Mormon’s. I stopped him, and asked if Mormon’s don’t matter because they are irrelevant to his discussion, or because he doesn’t like them. He started answering by not answering, as he backed his chair away.

A little blonde girl (2 / 3) was then sitting on my lap. Though there were no signs, people knew that she was abused. She was still happy though. She wore a dark dress, with tiny white spots?, and I was rubbing her legs. She wasn’t bothered by that. I then saw hair sticking out of her mouth, and went to take it out. As I went for it, I noticed that the end of her tongue was pierced, and this hair was tied through the hole. She put her tongue back inside, so I wasn’t able to get to it.

(From Nov. 16, 2014)

I was in a class, not for schooling, but like a community one, for fun. One day a light skin Arab man offered to give me, and another woman, a ride home. He dropped her off, then continued on. I was going to tell him that I live in Riverside when he brought out some masking tape (the brown / tan one). I knew what his intentions were, so I got out of there.

I was running in the city, like in New York with the alleys between the businesses, and couldn’t find a place to go. I finally said, out loud, “God, show me a way out”, or something like that. I then saw that I could go down a certain alley.

I went down, and through a door. It was a small rectangular room, like at church for nursing mothers, but there was only a long rectangular mirror on the left, with a counter below it. I debated getting under, but figured he would see me, so I went next to the door so that I would be behind it when he opened it.

After he opened it, and didn’t see me, I heard some ladies voices coming our way, and he closed the door without looking behind.

Zombies

I was in a small pool (murky water?) with two other girls. A soak went below the surface. I wanted to get it before it did so, but wasn’t able to.

One of the girls undid the tie to my bathing suit /bikini (don’t know which it was), then brought the top down enough to show my breasts. I was worried that she would see my little bit of (blonde) chest hair. She didn’t say anything, and didn’t act as if something was out of the ordinary.

She told me to slap my breasts against the water. I told her that I would not.

I am somewhere where some 20-something’s were talking about bestiality. One guy mentioned an elephant. I was going to speak up against this behavior, but didn’t, possibly because I didn’t know them.

(From Nov. 3, 2014)

As I’m walking in front of the neighbor’s house (to our left), towards Ali’s house, I notice that the house is empty. I think to myself, “Ah, that’s why they haven’t been around.” As I’m back inside the house, I see about 4 ladies from church in the kitchen (side of the house), cleaning the last handful of stuff that’s left.

(From Nov. 2, 2014)

There were zombies in a city. People kept going about their lives / duties, but were on guard. The children still had to go to school. The residents were allowed to kill the zombies when coming across them.

I’m leading an exercise class at a gym. We have on our backs what looks like a weighted jet pack, but without the jets, and extra stuff. The cords /straps were black elastic (?). My pack was pink. I still had some weight, but it wasn’t obvious.

(From Nov. 1, 2014)

There was a rainstorm, then cleared up.

(From Oct. 31, 2014)

Ali came home from work, hot from the weather. It was 87(?) degrees outside. I knew that there was going to be another warm / hot day, but then would cool down.

(From Oct. 30, 2014)

There are round bundles of hay, out in a field. They are lined up, front to back, being varying sizes, large to small. About halfway, they curved to the left. They are frozen over.

I am standing a little ways away, and see a horse sliding down, head to the right, eyes closed, not moving. I was worried it would get hurt.

I was standing at the end as it reached the end. It finally fell to the ground, and was okay.

(From Oct. 29, 2014)

I’m walking in the middle of a quad(?) at a college. I’m carrying a lunch(?) box in my right hand. It is shaped so that the handle is at the left end. It is striped with the rasta colors. I’m thinking that Travis(?) will be impressed when he sees it.